Riss'z Journal

[Shadowed Heart]

Actually, right now I'm talking to him, been all night, and in the past 2 hours, we've told eachother ALL our secrets. I'm shaking from it but I feel a lot better.

[Shadowed Heart]

Ok so last night I found out how great of a liar Will is, therefore I don't trust him at all. Not even when he says I love you. But he said he's going to call me on Saturday. I don't believe him. But I guess we'll see?

Well, just wanted to say sumin'. I'm off to school. LAST DAY OF THE YEAR!!! I get a week and a half off for Christmas break! Yeay! xD Err... Well, anyways... Repy damnit you guys are boring!

[jackie]

lol last day of the year

wat a butt wat did he tell u that made u think he's a lair

u donthave to tell me

but... watever... TELL ME!!

ill prob. die if i dont no lol jk...

have an awesome day

[Shadowed Heart]

Lol, it's really stupid and you guys would tell me to grow up, it really isn't a big deal.

Also, I told him that when he doesn't call on Saturday, I won't be disappointed because I didn't believe him in the first place, but I really do believe him now. He made such a big deal about it, and I will be crying. But whatever... I guess I can't alter the future of whatever that saying is.

Actually, I'm really nervous, if he does call me what would I say? I hate talking on the phone because there are always awkward silences. Yesterday we fought and after I told him that he was a liar and I didn't believe him about anything things were really strange and uncomfortable.

Writer's Dream person is him, and the bang bang one.

 

 

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

hey

 

 

__[[bang bang you're dead-to me-]]__ says:

 

Hi

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

Welcome back

 

__[[bang bang you're dead-to me-]]__ says:

 

Thanks

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

you're welcome

 

 

 

 

 

yeah and well here he's trying....

 

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

i know

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

you don't believe me

 

[[__Paco Paco! Evil Taco!__]] says:

 

I don't believe that you begged your dad but ok..

 

[[__Paco Paco! Evil Taco!__]] says:

 

Why don't you get the internet?

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

because i didn't get off when he first yelled at me too

 

[[__Paco Paco! Evil Taco!__]] says:

 

Nvm

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

but of course

 

[[__Paco Paco! Evil Taco!__]] says:

 

I know I got it..

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

you don't believe me

 

[[__Paco Paco! Evil Taco!__]] says:

 

Don't do that

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

Well that's the truth

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

no matter what i say you won't know it's the truth or not

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

so i'm just saving you the trouble of saying it

 

[[__Paco Paco! Evil Taco!__]] says:

 

I believe you with you say something like you are thirsty, or that you took a shower last night, I just don't believe you when you say somthing like you would try to call me, or that you told sombody about me..

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

well we will have to wait and see

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

this saturday good enough for you or would you rather me just forget about it?

 

[[__Paco Paco! Evil Taco!__]] says:

 

For what?

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

to call you, to prove i will.

 

[[__Paco Paco! Evil Taco!__]] says:

 

...

 

[[__Paco Paco! Evil Taco!__]] says:

 

I believe you..

 

Ringing back Writer's Dream says:

 

Saturday good enough?

 

 

 

 

P.S:: I'm paco.

[jackie]

lol......

ok then i guess we will have to wait n c, wont we

[Shadowed Heart]

Ja we will!

[Shadowed Heart]

Erm... Yeah he called that Saturday... Twice. Once in the morning and once at like 5pm (but both times he hung up and called me back so 4 technically)

And the Saturday after that.... And that was the last time I talked to him in a long time after a complicated almost-break-up on Friday. But I talked to him today...

Also he's supposed to call me again this Saturday. But when I asked him if he was, to see if I had to have my phone he said "I will if I can" So I'm kinda knowing that he probably won't. Just the if I can made my heart sink.

Anyways I'ma tell you a dream that I had a few years back. Just because I'm cool like that.

 

So, I'm sitting in my cousins' room on the top bunk. It's in the basement and the top bunk is right next to the window well. I'm playing with a doll house and I see a tornado coming down towards us and I jump down and run upstairs.

I tell my mom that there's a tornado coming and she was watching something on TV and she keeps telling me "Hang on, my show's almost over." and shushing me. Finally we get out to the car, it was just my mom, my older brother, and myself. A little strange considering that my dad and my little brother weren't there (although I'm unsure about my little brother, I don't remember exactly when I had this dream and he was born a few months after my fifth birthday).

So... The tornado is right next to the car, and we're all screaming.

And all of the sudden. We're in a big central "hall" more like a huge room with several halls attached. It's me, my uncle, and my mom. I asked "Where's Chelsea?" To my uncle (my cousin) He said she was in another room. He said some number but I don't remember what it was. I went to the room and saw her staring at a vending machine (OH! btw, EVERYTHING was BLEACH white). The room was empty except for her and the machine. I looked at it and it was filled with chocolate (she was going through that phase... she's only two months younger than me though). I asked her where my brother and Dill (my other cousin, her older brother .they're only 3 months apart in age.) were. She pointed in some direction and I went back down the halls. They were staring a a vending machine too but I don't remember what was in it.

 

Meh... That's all I can really remember....

I've always said that I've never died in my dream. I'm just curious to know if the white place was heaven. I mean... All quiet, white, and you get whatever you want? Sounds like it, and I don't even really believe in heaven.....

[Jeezy]

That is seriously a really strange dream...

[Shadowed Heart]

Lol. Yeup it is..

[Shadowed Heart]

1. Generalize- to give a general form

2. Conclude- to end

3. Hypothesis- an educated guess or theory

4. Theory- an idea or proposition

5. Variable- part of the experiment that changes

6. Measure- the act or process of ascertaining the extent, dimensions, or quantity of something

7. Evidence- proof of something

8. Data- information usually used in an experiment

9. Inference- a guess based on a group of facts

10. Infer- to guess based on a group of facts

11. Compare- to look at similarities

12. Predict- to tell or guess about in advance

13. Interpret- to provide the meaning

14. Analyze- to separate into different parts and evaluate

15. Relate- to feel the same about something in some way

16. Calculate- to determine by reasoning

17. Observe- to watch closely for information

18. Describe- to give details about something based on characteristics

19. Classify- to arrange or organize by classes

20. Technology- the branch of knowledge that deals with the creation and use of technical means

21. Experiment- process in which some one tries to prove something/ a hypothesis

22. Investigation- a process to investigate and determine facts

23. Tentative- the nature or something

24. Assumption- something assumed

25. Food Web- a complicated series of food chains

26. Food Chain- links of organisms that consume one another starting with the sun

27. Photosynthesis- the process by which plants make glucose in the mitochondria and exchange oxygen for carbon dioxide

28. Respiration- the process where water is given off of a plant

29. Producer- an organism that makes its own food

30. Consumer- an organism that eats producers and other consumers for food

31. Energy Flow- the flow of energy through and ecosystem

32. Solar Energy- energy given off the sun

33. Chemical Energy- energy created by chemical bonds

34. Mechanical Energy- energy given off in mechanical forms

35. Predator- organism hunting other organisms for food

36. Prey- hunted organisms

37. Organism- any living thing

38. Decomposer- an organism that consumes dead organisms

39. Mutualism- a relationship between two organisms where both organisms benefit

40. Parasitism- a relationship between two organisms where one organism benefits and the other is harmed

41. Competition- a relationship between two organisms where both organisms are harmed

42. Environment- a place within an ecosystem where organisms live

43. Capacity- a amount or species in an ecosystem

 

 

My Vocab homework.

xD

[that-chick]

damn....

good luck wit that

thats alot tho

tell ur teach to cut u sum slack

[Person]

Biology?

your homework seems so easy compared to the stuff i have to do =/

[Shadowed Heart]

Lol, I'm not in biology yet. xD Not until nexy year.

[Shadowed Heart]

So! Who thinks Will will call me tomorrow?

Been three weeks on Sunday. Since he's called/IMed me.

 

EDIT: He'd better too. My mom is taking me to Tilton, (where he lives) in the summer, although, if he doesn't call me, I'm not going. I wouldn't want to. Because I would end things with him.

[Jeezy]

I think he calls you....I mean...if he really cares about you he better should....

[Shadowed Heart]

Guess what everybody! I'm so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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He didn't call. He didn't call.. He didn't call me... I really can't get it. Why?

I'm so confused...

[Shadowed Heart]

Whoa, I just found this email from him... Gee... Makes me cry now. Because I'm not sure if he's lying?

 

From : Will Sanborn <**********@gmail.com>

Sent : Friday, December 1, 2006 4:37 PM

To : "Marissa Hansen" <shadowed_heart317@hotmail.com>

Subject :

 

Inbox

 

 

My love for you is purer than gold

It is so delicate, no one can truly behold

Alas, I have saw the look of one as beautiful as thee

Certainly no one can come to disagree

 

My love for you is more than a trice

It has been befuddled before, exactly thrice

Only if you could possible know

How my face would simply aglow

 

My love for you is forever pure

One such as I can only endure

As the tears fall down my face

I can only wish that it could erase

 

My love for you is no more than this

I would be left behind in an eternal bliss

Watching the world melt slowly away

Only to see you brighten my day

 

 

I really really wanted you to know that I can never stop loving you, that you are the only one for me. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and I am willing to do anything to make sure that happens. You are the only one that has ever loved me, and you are the only one I have ever truly cared about. No one will replace you in my heart. Sweetie, I don't know how to express my love for you at all. And I didn't know what to do to show it. I decided to write this poem for you anyway. I love you soooo much and i want to see you soon

 

Love Always and Forever

~Will

[stupidsoul1]

Oh honey *hugs* sorry to hear that.

 

I hate it when guys do stuff like that..it's so hard to know if they like you or not.

[that-chick]

w0w thats a nice poem/letter

 

but he never called and that seriously sucks

guyz can be stupid some times

[Shadowed Heart]

Sometimes... For this one. I think it's alltimes. He's changed a whole hell of a lot since I met him... Hm...

[Jeezy]

well...for guys it's a tough thing to actually call someone...it's always better if you see the person that you are talking to....I don't think that it means that he doesn't love you anymore....

[Shadowed Heart]

Well... Hm... I don't know...

[Shadowed Heart]

He called everybody

We talked all night. Well.. Until about 11pm.. ish. I kinda feel bad though. I probably got him in trouble.

[Jeezy]

He called everybody

We talked all night. Well.. Until about 11pm.. ish. I kinda feel bad though. I probably got him in trouble.

cool....that he finally called....how did you get him in trouble?

[Shadowed Heart]

His dad has to pay for the phone call...A long distance phone call. But he told me he didn't get in trouble... Hmm... Bleh. People join my writing competition!