[Ryan's Journal 2.0]

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Well here it is.

 

 

Entry #1

July 18, 2006

Mood: Meh

 

I recently took a personality test... which kinda freaked me out. It has showed me how much of a negative person I am, lol. Here's the results.

 

Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

 

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

 

Extraversion results were low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

 

 

trait snapshot: messy, depressed, introverted, feels invisible, does not make friends easily, nihilistic, reveals little about self, fragile, dark, bizarre, feels undesirable, dislikes leadership, reclusive, weird, irritable, frequently second guesses self, unassertive, unsympathetic, low self control, observer, worrying, phobic, suspicious, unproductive, avoidant, negative, bad at saving money, emotionally sensitive, does not like to stand out, dislikes large parties, submissive, daydreamer

 

Meh, I guess it's mostly correct, but very extreme. I'm not that wierd. I LOVE large parties, haha. And I'm not THAT secretive and quiet... but compared to most people I guess I am. Just not to people I really know.

 

I guess that wasn't exactly the best way to introduce myself... haha. Maybe it's time for a personality change. XD

[Shadowed Heart]

No Ryan! Noooooooooooooo I love you anyways.

[misery]

You should hook up with that test, I'm interested now.

 

Those things are hardly ever all that accurate, so I wouldn't worry about it too much, lol.

 

Oh, and nice to see your journal up and running

[Phranka]

haha mine were pretty good..

everyone should make that test :0

 

nice new journal Ryan...

[Vash_the_Stampede]

*taints journal*

Haha

What's up yo?

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Whoa, fast comments. I like. Haha.

 

Riss - Aw, I love you too.

Matt - Here's the link: http://similarminds.com/global-adv.html. It's freaking long. Haha

Franka - Thanks.

Josh - Now did I say you could taint my journal? haha, nothin much is up.

 

I recently got Guitar Rig 2. I had to go to the coffee shop like two times for the whole program to download. Pretty cool program; plug your guitar into your soundcard, and... yeah. You get every sound imaginable.

[misery]

My friend has something like that. But not quite that extensive, lol.

 

Thanks for the link, btw. I'll have to take it in a bit, LPF is getting hectic right now and I want to keep up

[Shadowed Heart]

Whoa I know, I left for 5 minutes and I came back and I'm like OMG What did I miss??

lol

No my <insert adjective here> loser friend. Stop cheating.

*pfft*

Ignore me.

^_^

(BTW I forgot the word you said after I said I was teh emo bitcch. lol)

[Shadowed Heart]

Ryan! Get On Msn!

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Entry #2

July 30, 2006

Mood: tired

 

 

Ah... I just got back from my week long vacation at Orlando, Florida. I was actually born there, and three years ago I moved to Mississippi, so me and my family were visiting and stuff.

 

One of the days, I went to Islands of Adventure. Finally got to ride The Hulk. Oh how much fun it was. I rode the Hulk three times. It's just so much fun. The coaster starts going upward through a tunnel, and the next thing you know... you've blasted off from 2 mph, to 40 mph. It's a very intense blast. It just shoots you. Then once you're out of the tunnel, you're above the whole theme park.. and it's just awesome. Then you've do an inverted downward fall, and it's just great.

 

So..er.. yeah. I had a great time. I also went to Wet 'n' Wild. Pretty fun there too. It has some crazy water rides... like Bomb Bay. You climb with huge thing, then you get into a box at the top (it seems like you're a hundred stories high) and then it opens beneath you and your sliding almost vertically down this HUGE slide. I swear it gave me the hugest wedgie I've ever had.

 

My favorite ride at Wet 'n' Wild was The Black Hole. You climb to the top with a blowup raft that has two seats... and then you and another person go down a tunnel in PITCH BLACK. You're going about 40 mph in complete darkness in a small tunnel. It's a blast. Very fun.

 

The rest of the trip I was basically visiting family and riding around town looking at things, and staying in a hotel. What sucks is that the room had a horrible WiFi connection so I couldn't surf real well and YouTube videos were going slow. Oh well.

 

Oh yeah, 14 hour trip from Baldwyn, MS to Orlando, FL. Bleehhh. I hate hotel beds.. I was so glad when I got home last night that I got to sleep in my own bed, haha.

 

[Ryan]

[Vash_the_Stampede]

Sounds fun. I need a vacation... Lawl

[crazy robster]

Hey Ryan!!! New journal at last!!! I stopped by to say hi and leave a cookie! lol Glad you had fun, it must have been great!! Cya!!

[misery]

Lucky bastard I've never been to Florida.. hell, I've never been further east than about 200 km from where I live. Been further west though.. lol. But yea, like Josh.. I could really use a vacation.

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Thanks for all the comments.

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Entry #3

August 6, 2006

Mood: Anxious, sad.

 

 

Tomorrow. School. High school. Freshmen. 9th grade.

 

Those are all such horrible words! AHH! As you've guessed, school starts tomorrow where I live. I'll be in 9th grade... first year of high school. Now nobody say "high school is so great you have so much freedom!" Because that is so wrong. The high school where I live is like elementary school. Omly 3 buildings, and they paddle you here. And let's face it, it's Mississippi, and the teachers are complete illiterate red neck cock-bombs.

 

Oh how I miss being home schooled. Or I'd at least like to go to a normal high school. My sister's high school in Florida was huge and had over 2000 students. They could eat lunch outside, bring electronics without getting in trouble, skip classes and not get much touble, leave school during lunch, and a lot of other stuff. My new high school is nothing like that. It's elementary, I swear. No freedom. You're not even supposed to bring any type of music player on the bus. You can't wear jeans with holes in them. (I have a few pair, I do it anyway). At lunch, you can't be loud, can't leave, have to stay seated, can't sit where you want, and a whole bunch of other whacky shit.

 

I wan't to move back to Florida..

 

Sorry for my ranting.

I'll post back tomorrow, maybe, and tell how my first day went.

 

 

Ryan

3:11 PM

[misery]

Your sister's school sounds like my school Except my school only has like 750 people.. freedom-wise, it's the same now Seeing you get screwed over kind of makes me appreciate it a bit more, rofl, so thanks I guess Your school sounds a little too restrictive

 

Well, hope all goes well ttyl.

[Shadowed Heart]

Ahh.. Already. Damn school.

[Phranka]

ewwwww school.. I have to get back in a week ;_;

 

new school no one to know.......... there goes little antisocial franka again >_<

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Entry #4

August 8, 2006

Mood: tired

 

I know I said I'd update on the first day of school, but I went all over town getting supplies and crap, then went to bed.

 

Basically, school sucks pretty bad. I've disliked it very much so far. I mean, we get detention if we have to go to the bathroom during class. (in certain classes). And it's 9th grade... rediculous.

 

Well here's my almighty schedule:

 

Algebra 1

Biology 1

Comprehensive Health

Nutrition/Wellness

Mississippi Studies

Technology Discovery

English 1

 

For the second semester, Comprehensive Health will be replaced by Driver's Ed. (Whoohoo!), MS Studies will be replaced by World Geography, and Nutrition/Wellness will be replaced by Personal Development.

 

All my teachers are so vague about what we need for supplies. A few of them have said "you just need something to write with, and something to write on." Well okay then. I had to buy my own agenda to keep up with everything. I mean all these homework assignments on the first and second day... how do people keep up with it?! Blah.

 

Oh well, my cafeteria has an Icee machine now.

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Well I drove my fourwheeler over my friend Jonathan's house. Hung out most of the day. The clutch in my fourwheeler is very worn out.... so you can image how slow I went.. haha. I was in like 5th gear doing like 30. The thing wont go anywhere no matter how high I rev. I need money for a new clutch!

 

Ryan

10:22 PM

[Shadowed Heart]

Lol, you can legally drive a fourwheeler down there!?!!

I can't, err, I can, but not legally. Or around here. Have to be camping and unsupervized. Damnit.

Haha. I start school in like a week.

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Thanks for the comment; I was waiting for one so I wouldn't have to double-post... haha. But then I completely forgot about my journal... bah.

 

Actually, I don't think I'm legal to drive a fourwheeler, haha. I think I have to be 16, but I live out in the backwoods boonies in the middle of nowhere and if a cop sees me, he probably wouldn't do nothing... plus I look about 3 years older than I am, haha. But I get my permit in January, (when I turn 15) and then my license when I'm 16... THEN I'll be legal when I drive my fourwheeler.

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Entry #5

August 20, 2006

Mood:Tired, bored, stressed. The usual.

 

Well.. my first year of high school is pretty lame so far. I have seven actual classes... instead of cool exploratories like PE and Study Hall. Their listed above. Biology is probably the worst class ever. I might actually fail it... but so far I've got an A. I get like 30 problems every night for homework, along with every other class.

 

But enough of my bitching about school. Everyone's probably sick of that, because everyone does it so much, haha.

 

Well I've been hanging out with my friend Jonathan a bit more. Hadn't seen him all summer... and he lived like 2 miles from me. (a short drive on my fourwheeler or bike).

 

But here's an interesting/lame story: I was on my way back from Jonathan's house on my fourwheeler, and I forgot to turn my gas on. Me and my forgetful ways. So it started sputtering, and then a car was coming my way. I tried to reach down and switch it on, but was forced off the road and I stalled. Then I turned it on... but my fourwheeler wouldn't start! I was pretty sure it was in neutral because the gear shifter wouldn't go down any further, and it still wouldn't start, and it showed it wasn't in neutral. So.... I got off of it and jumped on the gear shift lever... and boing. It was into neutral. I have a faulty lever so it's REALLY hard to shift it at certain times, haha. (you can tell I'm the an expert on mechanics, so my usage of words might seem a bit... weird.) Actually, my whole fourwheeler is faulty... it's a late 80's model so it's pretty old. Kawasaki 220 Bayou. Light blue, kinda smallish compared to most fourwheelers. And since the clutch is worn out, in last gear while revved up to the point of almost exploding, it only travels at like 20-30 mph.

 

Hmm, Prison Break starts Monday. Greatest series ever. I will finally have something to look forward to on Mondays now, haha.

 

Gah, I really have nothing exciting in my life, do I? I really want to post something interesting, but I'm blank. Well once I get a car, I'll get out more.

 

 

[Ryan]

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

As much as I hate double posting, here I go.

 

Entry #6

August 27, 2006

Mood: Blah

 

...Well the past weekend has been a trip. Did a lot of things I haven't done before. (Not drugs, you sillies. ) It was just wild.. for me.

 

First, it was Friday night. I went to the first football game of the school year. Me and Jonathan got picked up by Jeremy and his dad. So we went to the ball game and talked most of the time. My school lost, and I was like "Yay!" because I hate my school.

 

Well, the drinks there were $1.50 for a bottle of Coke. So me, Jonathan, Jeremy, and another dude named Kendal and hit girlfriend went out of the ball game, and went through some woods, and ended up by the high school. Jeremy called his friend to come pick up us and take us to a store so we could buy some drinks and get them cheaper. Well we waited on the edge of the school parking lot... and smoked some cigarettes. I'm a light smoker, but I smoke a bit often. So we smoked on school property, and that was awesome. Hopefully they don't have us in camera, haha. If they do, then they can fuck off.

 

Then Bubba picked us up and drove us to the store, and I got a big bottle of Pepsi for $1.39. A smaller bottle at the game costs $1.50. That's totally gay.

 

So me and Jonathan were supposed to spend the night a Jeremy's. Well it turns out completely different than that. Kendal decides he wants to spend the night, and then we all decide to spend the night at Jonathans. Now the only person I really know is Jonathan, lol.

 

The game is over, and we get in two seperate cars and go get Kendals stuff. We all go to Jonathan's. His mom says NO. Then we go to Jeremy's. Bubba takes Jeremy and Jonatha in his car, and since my fourwheelers was there, I took Kendal and we brouth Jonathan's guitar.

 

Kendal's showing me his huge CD college while everyone is outside hooking some nice speakers in Bubba's car. I call my mom and take 10 minutes convincing her to let me spend the night. Finally, everyone decides to go to Bubba's to spend the night.

 

We all pile in Bubba's car and drive to his house about 10 miles away. It's like 12 AM now. We chill for awhile, watch some of Scary Movie 4... and then Bubba takes Kendal and Jeremy to this creak under a highway bridge on his fourwheeler. He comes back and picks me and Jonathan up. We teach Kendal how to ride a fourwheeler and stuff... and then push it down into the creak (Which barely has water, but it HUGE, about 50 to 100 feet wide) and after multiple tries, Bubba get's it back up. Well he pushes it back down the path again. And get's it up again. Then pushes it back down. Well it's fucking hot out and Jonathan takes his shirt off... and basically tells everyone to take their shirts off because we're making him hot, Lol.

 

Then Bubba takes up back to his house (which is about a mile back) 2 by 2. This time is was me and Jeremy. We get back, and Bubba leaves to get the other two. We talk about fourwheelers and stuff, and I don't know very much about machinary, but oh well. The eventually come back like 10 minutes later because the other guys hid from Bubba, haha.

 

We go back into the house.. and I'm fucking hungry. So we all go in and sit down. And turn on Little Nikky. I almost fall asleep like 5 times. Jonathan does fall asleep, and Kendal slaps his balls and wakes him up... it was kinda funny.

 

It took Bubba like 2 hours to make us some fucking food. Lol. Now I really nauseated, feel like throwing up. But I'm hungry. So I eat sowly... it was nuggets and fries. well I go outside... and sit on the steps. Jonathan comes out and sits with me, and I'm like "mehhhhh I'm so tired.....". Jeremy and Bubba come out and they get on the fourwheeler and go back to the creek after we all talk and stuff about things you shouldn't know. I don't know where Kendal went, but Jeremy and Bubba go back to the huge creek. Well Kendal shows up again. (i think he was in the bathroom) and we get into Bubba's car and lay down, and listen to some music. After a while, it starts getting lighter outside.

 

Me and Jonathan walk to the creek, and leave Kendal, lol. We get there and walk across the creek, and stuff. We find out that they had rode the fourwheeler out of the creek a lot... and then they role it down and it flips, and the gas tank busts. Bubba and Jeremy try to climb the side of the creek, but fail. They were basically rock climbing, lol.

 

Finally Kendal shows up, and start riding the fourwheeler... and we're like "hey it's got a leak, you'll go poof!" He finally hears us. We tell him to go get the car and bring it here. After a while of doing chillin, we get into the car and Bubba starts doing doughnuts. It was awesome. After a while we go back to Jeremy's house (it's like 8 AM now) and chill there. Everyone starts taking turn on my fourwheeler and crap. Me and Jonathan go back to his house on my fourwheeler, and everyone else goes home. We ride through some trails, and I finally go home.....

 

I eat, get online...then take a shower, and then go to bed at about 11 AM. I then sleep almost 24 hours and wake up at 9 AM, and it's Sunday. Now my mom thinks I did drugs or something, lol. She has no idea I was way the hell 15 miles in out in another city. Haha.

 

Boy am I worn out.

[Ryuku]

Whoa...

Ryan did something...

*gasp*

Haha

Sounds like you had a good time.

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

You read that?! I bet you didn't read all of it, haha.

 

Yeah. It was fun until I got tired. Then it got boring. But remember, I said it was wild for me Jonathan was like "wow it's so cool being a teenager" because it was craziest thing we've ever done. (Going in someone's car we barely know, doing illegal activities on school property, going to a creek 15 miles away from home... and not telling our parents, lol.)

 

The part that sucked was that I was the youngest. Jonathan is almost 15, Jeremy, Kendal, and Bubba were all 17. And I'm 14. Bleh. I ALWAYS hang out with older people, so it's normal. I just can't relate that easily.

 

Can't wait to get my permit in 4 months. I don't care if anyone isn't in the car with a license, I'll still be going around my town and hanging out with friends more.

 

Well this post turned out to be a bit longer than expected.

[Ryuku]

I'm hurt that you didn't think I read that... Well, I did.

*stomps*

Lawlz

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Ow.

 

Haha, I believe you. ^.^