[Ryan's Journal 2.0]

[ImTheOneThatFalls]

Hello there sir.

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Hello there miss.

 

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Entry #7

Aug. 31, 2006

Mood: Hyper

 

 

AFI just won "Best Rock Video".... and I'm hyperventilating. I really didn't expect them to win. I was saying over in my mind "RHCP or Green Day will definately win"..... well let's just say I did vote more than any nornal person should. And since AFI is my favorite band of all time, I'm pretty freaked out right now. I know, I'm acting like a teeny bopper, but I don't care.

 

The reason I'm posting this is here, is because it's the only place I can express my excitement... and stuff.

 

 

Well anyway, about my day. Schooled blew, I went over Jonathan's, came home and watched the VMA's. Whoo. Fun. And AFI won........ _O_ I'm stilled amazed. Their fanbase is fucking awesome. I love us. I have this weird urge to listen to "I wanna Mohawk"

 

[Ryan]

[Ryuku]

Congrats?

 

Lawlz

You need to get on MSN more often nukka.

[Sygy]

sorry i came her to be nosey *looks around*

 

 

ooooooo u smoked!!!!! thats bad

[Shadowed Heart]

Hey Face! <3 you, geton MSN> *eats you*

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Well, I might as well write a short entry. Lol.

 

Entry #8

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Didn't go to school today. Felt like shit and I have a bad cold. But I was being a retard anyway and went to Jonathan's on my fourwheeler, knowing it was pretty damn cold outside. So I think that might have made it worse. Oh well, if I get sicker, means I get to skip more school. Well after I got over Jonathan's, I found out he wasn't there, so I sat on his porch for like 3 minutes, and my cousin came over on her fourwheeler... also looking for him. So I ride back to her house... and then her dad said something about keeping afterbirth and throwing his brother away instead, and something about DVR and we were talking about sattelite companies. Lol... yeah.

 

Now I'm watching Mind of Mencia, but not really paying attention... and waiting for South Park. Booyah.

[Shadowed Heart]

Poop Ryan!! Feel better and slap your uncle for making no sense! Lol. AND get on MSN ^_^

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

You know, maybe I should get on MSN. I might after I write this entry.

 

 

Entry #9

Oct. 21, '06

Mood: Tired, happy.

 

Meh... I just woke up. Went to bed at about 4 AM...so yeah.

 

Kinda got some stuff last night. I went crazy. I guess I'll list what I got:

 

South Park Season 8 (couldn't find 6 or 7. That pissed me off. I went to two Wal-Marts! I've already got season 1 through 5)

Led Zeppelin DVD (live)

Led Zeppelin IV

NDS game: Meteos (Sweet puzzle game. Loads of fun.)

NDS game: NFS: Most Wanted (Shit game, gonna trade it or something)

I think I got something else too. Oh well. I found this shirt that said "Silence is golden, but duct tape is silver" and because it was totally, completely lame, I was gonna get it... but I forgot.

 

Meh, I can't wait to go back to the mall to get me some more pants... I'm running out because 1) I started school and we're not allowed to have holes, and like 2 of my pants do, and 2) like 2 pair have almost gotten to small. And I think I'm missing one pair.

 

Also, I've got two chicks after me. But I don't really want to go out with either one of them. Doesn't suck when the girl you want to go out with is trying to make you go out with her friend? BAH! I was actually supposed to go to the mall with one of them, because a few of my other friends were coming, but that never happened. Nobody called me or anything to tell me what to do.

[Shadowed Heart]

*burp* <3<3hehe<3<3

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Entry #10

December 1st, 2006

Mood: Pissed.

Listening to: Weak and Powerless - A Perfect Circle

 

 

I'm starting to wonder if I really even have friends. Or if they just pretend. There's only one person that has the logic to really be my friend, and that is Dustin. I've actually thought Jonathan and Jeremy were my best friends, but I guess they're not. It seems like they've been brushing me off the past day. First, I asked Jonathan if I could spend the night at his house this weekend. (I know that sounds immature, but there's really nothing else to do out here in the middle of nowhere) He said that his parents said no... And his parents are fucking tools. So that is actually believeable. So it's Friday, and I call up Jonathan to talk on the phone because I'm bored. And I keep hearing these noises, and I know for a fact that Jeremy's over there, and I had been told earlier I could come over. So I act like I don't know. Finally, his dad supposedly says he has to get off the phone. Well, I get an idea. I call Jonathan back and ask "hey what's Jeremy's number, I forgot". I KNOW he knows. Well he said "I dunno..." and gets off the phone real quick. Well I call back and say "Hey, Jeremy's dad says he's over there." (and I never actually called him because I really didn't know his number) And he's like "ooohhh.... shit." and I'm like "yeah. Nice. I just asked if I could spend the night, and tell me "no" and let Jeremy come over." Well he blames this on his dad, and says that Jeremy asked first, and that his dad said if I spend the night that it would be too much company. Well that's actually believeable. I mean it really is because his dad sucks, but I just don't know if I can believe his since he hid it the whole time.

 

Well Jeremy has his cell phone with him, and he tells me to call him since Jonathan can't talk on the phone. So I call him, and I can hear Jonthan talking on the phone again with another person, when his dad just told him he wasn't allowed to talk on the phone. WTF. Then I talk to Jeremy for about 30 minutes, and finally he says he's tired and he's gonna go. So I call Jonathan back up and he's like "why aren't you talking to Jeremy anymore?" And I'm like "he said he's tired and doesn't wanna talk anymore".... and Jonthan says "dude, he's on the phone with someone right now". So I'm like "wow, you guys really suck. I'm just gonna go" and he asked if I want him to call me back later, and I reply with "I don't care *click*" and I hang up.

 

I know this whole thing is immature... but still. I'm just going to ignore Jonathan on the bus for awhile and see what he does. I mean he's been my best friend for a while so this is sorta a weird big deal for me.

 

 

On the other hand, this Christmas seems like it's going to be pretty cool, but small. I actually didn't ask more much because I don't want my parents to waste money on crap I don't need, plus there's not much I wanted. Just a Gamecube game, 3 DS games, a DVD, and I think a CD. I think I might be getting some pants or something.

 

There's a couple more things on my list. My mom actually has a list of 20 things, but I think most of them are small. So I'm not getting to much, but I know I'll be content with this Christmas.

 

Blah.

[Shadowed Heart]

I KNOW DUSTIN!!! He's fun. But uhm.... I'm sorry Ryan. *hugs* Rissy will always love you. <3

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Thanks. Dustin talks about you at school. He says you're cool and stuff. And it's the truth. Haha.

 

But I'm still pissed, and a bit hurt. I've done nothing to them, and as far as I know, I've been a better friend to Jonathan... I might not know about cars and guns as much (as Jonathan and Jeremy are both rednecks from hell, which is what they constantly talk about), but me and Jonathan have been really best friends, like we tell each other crap that we'd never tell anyone else.

 

I just really don't know what's up. Maybe he's telling the truth... maybe he just didn't want to hurt my feelings and his dad really said that only one person can come over. But I did ask first, I asked like a week ago if I come come over and spend the night, and he said yeah. Then I asked again later in the week and he said yeah. Then I asked Friday, and he says no. (we were on the bus) and I'm like "hey ask your parents if I can spend the night, I'm really bored." and he's like "No... blah blah jeremy" and he cuts off his sentence and doesn't say anything, then gets off the bus. So I'm like "what the fuck." Then when I call him that night and everything gets out in the open, he says Jeremy asked first.

 

I'm taking this to far, I know. But I just cannot stand rejection, of anykind. I hate rejection. It's the worst feeling to feel like you're not good enough for something. Blah.

 

At least Christmas seems like it will be good so far.

[crazy robster]

Awww Ryan that sucks hardcore...I'm so sorry to hear that because I totally understand you! Just today I was wondering if I actually DO have any good friends around me (and I'm not talking about my LPF friends, you're all awesome) You know what I mean... I'm talking about people who are here, people I can hang out with and stuff... But you know what? You've done nothing wrong and if they are asses you'd better show them you don't need them. Don't let anyone tread on you, be friends with those who really deserve it. The rest of them can pity themselves for being such morons...

[Shadowed Heart]

Nope nope not too far!!! AND!!!

 

Dustin talks about you at school. He says you're cool and stuff. And it's the truth. Haha.

He does, does he?

Meh. He's cool! ^_^ <3

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Entry #10

December 19th, 2006

Mood: Full. Not hungry. That's not really a mood though. Kinda in bad mood.

Listening to: The Last Kiss - AFI

 

To state bluntly, I'm trying to get fat. Sick of being skinny and scrawny and weaker than everyone. So my plan is to get fat, and build muscle, and to overall become bigger. So I will drink lots of milk, and TRY to eat about 4000 calories a day. Probably only be able to do 3000 though. And then after I start gaining weight (I already weight 165, but that's only because I'm tall) I'm gonna lift weights and crap.

 

I had no breakfast, except for a banana, and a cup of juice, so that didn't work out. That's less than 200 calories. Then I had lunch, and I really don't know how many calories it was. Probably around 500.

 

Well, now for my late lunch, I've eaten about 800 calories so far. And I'm going to eat a small pizza worth 400. So that'll be 1200. And then 2 cups of orange juice is 1400. (I'm out of milk, damnit)

 

Now for dinner, I dunno if I'll be able to eat that much. Hopefully it'll work out though.

 

 

...Me and Jonathan made up, I guess. I'm still confused. He seemed eager to start hanging out with me again, and he explained himself (still don't know if he's lying) and just.. I dunno. But we're going hunting this weekend. Back behind his house is a buncha woods with deer, and since he's so redneck, I thought I go hunting with him. It's actually quite fun. You get this rush... because I went yesterday, but we didn't get anything.

 

 

Well, that pizza is waiting. Bleh.

 

 

Edit: Holy crap, if I take another bite, I swear I will vomit. I've eaten like 1300 calories. I ate 6 pretzels (200 calories), a 6 oz. can of tuna (180 calories) with 4 tbps of mayo (150 calories), some crackers with that (about 160 calories), 2 cups of orange juice (about 200 calories), and a small pizza (400 calories) Well, that actually doesn't sound like a lot, but trust me, it is.

 

I wish dinner wasn't so soon. >_>

[Stllmn8j]

I tried doing the exact same thing for wrestling and ended up losing 5 pounds lol

[Shadowed Heart]

Hehe Ryan getting chubby?

Cute. <3 u

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

,...well. Call me rtard whatever. I've gotten frunk for the first dtime. drukb. Adn I have to say. It's beem a hell of a night. My friend daredd me to chug some of his dads beeer that was in the garage. no onbe was home.... so i chuged like 3.5 beers. i ddin't thnk it's do anything. then i got aa little buzz. Than I layed down. started cracking up abit.... started getting woozy. I got back up and was lke "ohhluu shit!" I trried walking ib a straight line. and I could bately could my sefl up. jonathan had to hold me up.. .then iwwwas all hugging him for some reason. then he hasd to go and he drove me home and onwe I'm all aloone.

 

now I jusst oggohope my momand sister downt get home and this will waer off. how th fuck long does it dotake for this tto wear off.? I Thought gettug drybj only lassted a while...

 

Well...i've tried weed, bbeer... and thatt's abo8it it. And sseroiously, i don't really see the point in tmhe. I'm done epxeriemnenting.no more.

[Stllmn8j]

id give it a few hours man,but u gonna be hungover for about 4 days if that was ur first time

[Jeezy]

wow..seems like you really got drunk...

how much did you drink...

 

I can barely read what you wrote...lol

[GraDoN]

LOL u got drunk on 3.5 beers ? ill drink 12 and a few shots then im drunk well i got a little LITTLE drunk this holiday fo the first time but boy i drank alot lol

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

Well I'm skinny, and it was my first time. Probably my last, haha. I didn't think 2would do anything (plus they were Keystone Light... nasty shit), and then I started getting wobbly and buzzed. Then Jonanthan dared me to chug another one. So that was three.

 

He puked after only a half of a 12 oz beer. I mean he really puked. I gagged, but I managed 3 and a half. I puked the other half of the 4th one.

 

I barely even feel a hangover. I guess I didn't really get that drunk (Im mean it was only 3.5 beers, but I did chug them), but I was drunk enough to where I could barely walk. Haha, Jonathan was like "dude, quit talking, you speech is really, really slurred."

 

Then he had to drive me home because his parents were almost home. And when I got home, I got online for a bit... went to bed and passed out like instantly.

 

Blah. Beer taste like pure SHIT. Fucking nasty. I don't know if I can ever drink another one.

[Stllmn8j]

Beer does taste like crap,reminds me of my first time. Twas cheap vodka(8 bucks for a huge plastic bottle) and it tasted like pure hairspray lol

[GraDoN]

Beer does taste like crap' date='reminds me of my first time. Twas cheap vodka(8 bucks for a huge plastic bottle) and it tasted like pure hairspray lol[/quote']

LOL you made me cry there haha and ya beer tastes like shit pee but i like ciders!!

[Shadowed Heart]

*tsk tsk* Ryan you dumbass. P