my diary , Why .........

[powerxxx]

my diary

 

i don't want to write ,

today was ,,, awefull ,confusing, and. and i don't know.......

i promised that i wouldn't write till i held the promise i made

it seems like i'm gonna break that promise

 

i ...

i.....

don't know what to do anymore

i'm lost

 

my mind ..

i can't think well

i am confused

 

i am sitting here

thinking why

why couldn't i do anything to you

although i hated you

i despised you

and wanted to make you suffer

 

today when i saw you

i intended to hurt you

i intended to make you feel

 

i screamed at you

telling you

i am not different

i am a person just like you

that i have feelings

that i have imotions

 

before i said that

i hated your eyes staring at me

the eyes that were filled with hate

the eyes that have despised me

 

but why have your eyes changed

after what i said

 

why did i feel that you were afraid of something

that you were sorry for something

 

that view

made me stop from talking

made me stop doing anything

 

i just stood in my place

wondering

what have i done

 

i only said the truth

and that changed too many things

 

i wanted to hit you

i wanted to hurt you

 

but my mouth didn't move

my body didn't move

i just,,, i just ..

i just stood in my place

 

i saw you there standing watching me

with all the fear

with all the sorryness

 

why ,,,

why ...

did you change in an instant

 

i feel ......

i feel ...............

like i've done something wrong

like i am afraid of something

 

what am i afriad of

what am i losing

 

i don't know

i can't even realize the facts about my self

i just can't figure out why.......

things have turned this way..

i just sit here and wonder why

 

my diary

[Jeezy]

wow...you are so talented...