Hy's Journal

[Hybrid Soldier]

Well, if you couldnt have told, I am back.

 

I am starting to feel so much happier, I'm becomming alot more of a social person. I remember back when it was hard for me to fill a top 8, so i ahd to use 1 top 4, then i was amazed when i got to a top 8 and then muccccchhhh latter(about a month ago) i got to a top 12 and last week, a top 16, and since then ive been on and off of a top 20. That might seem kinda weird to some fo you, but to me it means alot. It means that I am actually talking to people, getting to know them, instead of just keeping to my little circle of friends.

 

I will elaborate soon enough.

[Jeezy]

^^sounds pretty cool...

 

I think it's good for you

 

go on like that

[Hybrid Soldier]

Yeah, it is for sure.

[Hybrid Soldier]

well, im back again

 

had to leave because of grounding, long story there, but ill let ya'll in on some of it:

well, theres this girl named teresa that i really liked, well, she came to the party. I brought $100 worth of booze to the party. She is typically a good girl, doesn't drink, none of that. Well, the week before at my house, we got her to drink(she didnt know actually until we told her), and she drank at that party. Well, since i was really wasted, I decided to tell this girl marie a "secret," by secret, i mean yelling "I like teresa!" at her with teresa sitting near me.

 

so, many theories as to why she hates me now:

1.the one everyone says, "how would you feel if you found out one of your good friends had feeling for you?" well, i cant relate to that because i sure as hell wouldnt ignore them completely and treat them like shit

 

2.a combination of things, maybe she liked me, maybe she didnt, but based on what she said to my best friend "you two scared me," means, she saw shit she didnt want to see, thenn she heard i liked her, and maybe she had a bad image picturing us going out and me being wasted

 

3.she realized peer pressure is a bitch, shes never drank before, and shes to immature to take blame, she saw things and did things she didnt want to, and its so much easier to blame the supplier than to blame yourself.

 

any ideas?

[Hybrid Soldier]

So, its kinda akward if one fo your best friends calls askign advice for breaking up with another one of your best friends

 

Haha, I've helped her out with everything, almost always involving relationships iwth my friends

 

And so, I'm feelin nkinda bad about that, because I'm in mammoth, Kay(the girl) is apperantly kinda sad about it, and ricky(the guy), well i dont know, and I wanna be able to help nthem, but i cant, so im just like sitting here worrying

 

and yeah, the other girl still wont talk to me

[Hybrid Soldier]

so, rickys fine with it, and i havent talked to kay about it, so im feelin fine

[Hybrid Soldier]

I dont wanna go to school...............

[Vash_the_Stampede]

I don't either, lol.

But hey, at least for me, it's almost over... ^_^

[Hybrid Soldier]

Jackass.

 

Haha, I want to go back for friends, but then again, I get to hang with friends on vacation as well, but its more consistent at school. But also on vacation you can exclude certain people from hanging with you, as opposed to being forced to sit next to the 500 pound chick that looks like a man, whos name is earl and smells like french fries.

[stupidsoul1]

Some guy named earl fucking stole my phone and my wallet at a party!

 

 

So i guess that sucks to be you, but congrats on getting more sociable.

But remember the more friends you have to lift you up, the more friends you have to drag you down.

 

 

Good luck though

[Hybrid Soldier]

Haha, yeah, thanks.

 

You know, ive always said that you cant be in love if youve onyl gone out 1 month or so. I realize now how wrong that is, I never truly considered what happens before the relationship.

 

Now, based on what ive said before, many fo you are thinking this is towards teresa, but ti isnt, strangely enough, its about kay. See, I've alway thought it strange how much I had feeligns for Teresa, and I realized why I did, and I know this si true because my feelings magically faded once I realized this. Well, when Kay satrted going otu wtih Ricky, I knew that I couldn't go anywhere with Kay relationship-wise, so I moved to someone else, Teresa, but now that Kay is single that doesnt matter.

 

Now, no I am not going to try and ask kay out, I am at an ideal point with her, I really have no desire to ruin it by trying to go farther. See, I come to Kay for EVERYTHING, and her the same, and you know, it just wouldnt be right not being able to come to Kay for advice for anything, and I couldnt if we were going out.

 

Yeah, I'm pretty damn satisfied.

[stupidsoul1]

I am glad you feel that way.

 

I know what you are talking about with that love thing, i also got why they say there is 3 kinds of love.

 

You are a good kid , i am pretty sure things are going to get sweet as for you.

And since you are getting more social you will meet 100s of teresa's.

and maybe a few more people similar to the real kay that you can actually go out with

[Hybrid Soldier]

Right now I really dont care to see things better, things are pretty damn great right now.

 

I mean, teresa not hating me, garrett not being such a jackass, ricky not being grounded, all of that would make things better, but I dont need it, im like really honestly happy.

 

I'm actually being productive, doing my homework, going to every class, havent drank since Alli's party, just good shit.

[stupidsoul1]

yayy

i hope things keep going good for a while.

[Hybrid Soldier]

Guess whos back?

[Stllmn8j]

Guess whos back?

 

I'm assuming it's you?

[Hybrid Soldier]

Yep

 

So, recently(about a month ago) I devoted my life to Christ, I'm gonna get baptised soon.Everythings going pretty well, a good deal or moral dilemas, alot have gotten the best of me, but I'm doing alot better.

[Stllmn8j]

Yep

 

So, recently(about a month ago) I devoted my life to Christ, I'm gonna get baptised soon.Everythings going pretty well, a good deal or moral dilemas, alot have gotten the best of me, but I'm doing alot better.

 

That's really good to hear,I just got baptized about a year and a half ago. I think it's a lot more special doing it when you can actually know what's going on

[Hybrid Soldier]

Yeah, our pastor really pushes that if you were baptised as a young child, you should do it again now that you know exactly what it means.

[Jeezy]

Yeah, our pastor really pushes that if you were baptised as a young child, you should do it again now that you know exactly what it means.

 

I should get baptised again I think...must be a great experience

[Hybrid Soldier]

Good mood. Which is good since about just this time yesterday I was crying.

[LÎnkinPärkExtreme]

Good mood. Which is good since about just this time yesterday I was crying.

aww that's no good what was the matter?, but anyway.. I'm happy!