{Wood'z Journal Act 2}

[Ravynlee]

Wow you have an amazingly short memory span - way back when you and Dan first had 'issues' I told you what Centrelink would do. Regardless whether or not you two are a couple the government has this illusion that a man and woman can't live together without there being something intimate taking place - the fact you slipped up is as stupid as their point of view is. You should have known what was going to happen. Since you and he have a history the government will forever suspect a relationship between you two, even if you never got back together.

Oh and don't be surprised if you don't get a 'surprise' visit from a centrelink officer either at some point. If they suspect you are with Dan and lied about it they will (and can by law) rock up unannounced on your doorstep and try and catch you off guard. You've been warned

[woodyloveslinkin]

I didn't even think for a second that they would percieve us that way. Ugh. Too tired to bitch on about centrelink, because of them I had a massive panic attack last night. The government should burn in hell for that reason. But Daniel apparently is going to go in and legally prove that we're not together anymore and I don't know, I got lost in translation about him and April apparently being together because they are both on the lease.

 

On another news, here I am waiting for Hannah to come and stay for the weekend. She was meant to come at 2 pm when both I and Dan were sound asleep (he's been sick the entire day and me, well I didn't get to slip to 6 am and got woken up several times after that) and it's nearly 5 pm now and she hasn't come. God fucking dammit, I can't go out to do the shopping until Hannah comes. Ah she's just walked throught the door!

 

Beanie's being the evil bastard cat as usual. He went on a savage rampage aimed at me and Katie. Stupid cat.

[Ravynlee]

Well... good luck with that I suppose! Have fun

[woodyloveslinkin]

I'll try too (emphasise on the word try)

[Ravynlee]

Hey woman clear your inbox

[woodyloveslinkin]

Hey woman give me a reason

[Jeezy]

Hey woman give me a reason

 

I could give you a good one !

 

lol

[woodyloveslinkin]

If you're a woman Jeezy that makes Rob Bourdon the sexiest man alive.

 

(..............................................................................not going to happen)

[Ravynlee]

If you're a woman Jeezy that makes Rob Bourdon the sexiest man alive.

 

(..............................................................................not going to happen)

You're just in denial... admit it.

 

And I guess that means no random PMs for you then, huh? Meh, so be it then. Your loss

[Jeezy]

If you're a woman Jeezy that makes Rob Bourdon the sexiest man alive.

 

(..............................................................................not going to happen)

 

lmao..ok...

[woodyloveslinkin]

You're just in denial... admit it.

 

And I guess that means no random PMs for you then, huh? Meh, so be it then. Your loss

 

I cleared it anyway :X and no I won't admit it! :-/

 

This is the sexiest man alive

 

http://www.evous.fr/musique/sites/musique/local/cache-vignettes/L260xH304/brian_molko-dd7ee.jpg

 

What am I doing? Get stuck into chocolates at 11 am. Yum yum, part of my breakfast. About to have a shower, wake Daniel up and go outside for a cigarette, normal routine. Hannah's having fun on Sims 2.

 

Well last night was rather fun. I nearly got broken bones including a broken nose. Daniel and I were fooling around and acting like siblings attacking each other and pulling each other's hair. I grabbed his leg hair and pulled it for one time so he got my pony tail and pulled it until one of us let go of one another. I also managed to hit my head on the wall because we're basically sleeping on a mattress on a floor with covers with the powerpoint right above our heads. I can't count the number of times Daniel has hit his head on that. We stayed up last night playing Guild Wars and watching the newest episodes of DBZ. Man, Gohan as a teenager looks like a poof.

[woodyloveslinkin]

Oh well bye bye life in Wagga, I'm off to make another life in Sydney/Bathurst with Mum and Dad and try to get some help with my depression.

 

One thing I hate about Daniel (Mum told me on the phone tonight as she spoke to him again) - He says that he regrets a lot of things and that I'm supposed to automatically love him for it. I'm sorry, but what we did to one another last night, (how many broken pieces of wood were there btw after that night? We smashed up some chairs at one another) that's a sign for me to get out. For good. Like Heather said with concerned eyes and an expression on her face that told me she wasn't joking - Don't let him bully you like this. I've had enough. I'm not coming back to Wagga, ever, period. I'm not even going to give Daniel any recognition in the future if I see him on the streets. I don't fucking care if he asks me to marry him, all he'll get is my brother's fist in his face. Of course, if my brother can't get the message through to him, just wait to Dad gets pissed. I don't understand him at all. He said to Mum that he was happy that I was going back to Bathurst - yeah, so I don't have to see him again.

 

But what do I do about our rats? I might end up just leaving them with him. But Trixie's not his! She's mine! Pixie's his. Fuck I hate emotions. I hate men. I hate them all. The only good ones are Mendes, my brother and my Dad.

 

It's going to be hard seeing him at court on Tuesday. Mum and Dad are coming down tomorrow afternoon, well, now it's 12 am so this afternoon, lol, to come pick me up and they are going to come to court with me. I just feel like punching him in the face for making me believe he was actually sincere about our relationship. Fuck, the last couple of weeks we were together!

 

Like my sister said on the phone, she's been through it as well. Luke, her ex, needed to support her while she was losing the plot and she needed support, but she couldn't support herself by her own let alone support him. I couldn't support Daniel emotionally and that was the sadness of our relationship. She said that I'm not a bad person, people who make bad choices are not bad people or criminals. I can't help but to feel like a criminal. No matter how much I socialise I still find myself teary and more isolated.

 

The instance that I knew I had done something wrong, was when I realised I shouldn't have turned my back on my mother the first time around when she was offering to take me back to Bathurst, and that I needed her and the support she provides for me. I said to my brother I felt really guilty now for doing that, and he said he had done the same thing but it was involving his drug addiction and that it's okay.

 

Everyone tells me that it's going to be okay, but like Beck put it, you may hear it but you may not think that everything is going to be okay. My sister should know this. She was mental instituanlised for a year for what a dumbfuck did to her. She was slitting her wrists badly and she was about my age when it all happened. She couldn't leave the hospital as well.

 

I was afraid to get help and still am.

 

I told him various times what my friends thought of my relationship with me and that I was only "just kidding myself" with trying to get anywhere with him. I should've listened and I should've stuck by what I previously thought about him, when shit had hit the roof. He just can't support me like my family can. And I think what hurts the most is that I don't want to admit that the past 24 hours has happened the way that it did, it was a nightmare that I never ever want to go back again and that's why I'm choosing to leave Wagga and never come back. Because I'll be tempted to talk to him again.

[woodyloveslinkin]

Why the fuck do I suddenly like Xena Warrior Princess? lol. I'm downloading an X-Files episode with Lucy Lawless in it now.

[woodyloveslinkin]

omg, I found a picture of me when I was in year 10 with my two year 10 best friends, Yvette and Anthea and I even found one of me and Stupidsoul1 (aka Fiona) together as well. Gotta scan that in sometime.

[woodyloveslinkin]

I got a job working for Marcus Evans!!! Maybe I can travel overseas with it. I sure hope so. Oh and I'm back to living with my mum and my grandmother. And we're going to be back and forth between Bathurst and here. The job is in the CBD on Bathurst St (hehe)...so fuck yeah! It's time to contact Ashton and Monique to catch up and celebrate!

[woodyloveslinkin]

Ugh, I hate it when they say I have the job and another person is saying that I haven't. Got the interview tomorrow at 11 am.

[Jeezy]

Ugh, I hate it when they say I have the job and another person is saying that I haven't. Got the interview tomorrow at 11 am.

 

good luck !

[woodyloveslinkin]

thanks! I got the job! The job is sales executive working downtown in the cbd on bathurst st. The pay is quite good and I start tomorrow from 10, that's the training until Friday. Next week I start from 8.30 am to 5.30 pm. The pay for the first two months is $2500 (paid monthly though) + any commission I get, and the base rate afterwards is $1000 + commission.

 

Well I had lunch with my brother today that was interesting. He told me a tale of how he snuck into a Disturbed concert once and he's got tickets to see NIN and depending how it goes I might be going to see NIN live!!!!!!!!! I swear a couple of my friends will kill me for not taking them.

[Ravynlee]

Two things to say - Congrats about the job! And NIN - when are where damnit?!

[woodyloveslinkin]

Sydney Entertainment Centre or somewhere, not sure....my brother deliberately held the details away from me and still complaining that he can't get me tickets because he spent the rest of his money on his ticket. Dammit! I want pay day to come now!

 

Today was great! But am exhausted and pissed off.

 

The bus on the way in was slow and dull. The M2 was stacked with pile ups. And when I got into town I walked straight past the building lol. I had to go back and realised where I was. The bus back broke down two stops before my stop and I had to walk in the rain. I got into the training & convention division but was hoping to get into sponsership but *meh* I'm happy.

 

I am waiting for some photos to upload and I'll post em later. I'm on mum's stupid slow dial up because I can't pick up any wireless networks at my nan's place. And mum's at one of her groups tonight. I basically walked through the door at 6 and mum went out the door ten minutes later.

 

 

edit- I have red streaks through my hair now.

[woodyloveslinkin]

http://www.offtopic.forum/data/MetaMirrorCache/0dfc7ac4882a001bb11012bbd0aeb888.jpg

 

My work uniform lol! I feel like such a snobby little bitch that works in the CBD of Sydney that works in a prestige office.

[Ravynlee]

better uniform than mine sweet

congrats again

[woodyloveslinkin]

Thankies! *hugs* I posted the two other pictures in the member's thread pic. Not the best pictures though, I was rushing to take them cos I had a flat battery.

 

Am watching two and a half men now.

[woodyloveslinkin]

well today i got my desk at work, i found out that Jenna is my team manager and that i got my own phone extension as well. but i have to read a whole heap of paper work and sign a contract which i have to get mum to interpret. but jenna let me and rod off early this morning I got the best sales pitch today in our practice As jenna put it on our ciggy break -

"you like sales cos you can bullshit?" *nods* "that's the spirit!" lol

[woodyloveslinkin]

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

lol im still on lpf

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

ive toally forgotten about tht

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

hey remmeber tht night we went to urs to the pl and tht women tried to hk us up w/her son

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

no lol

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i dont remember that i remember the pool

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

was it you that we went into the pool with glowsticks?

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

um i forget

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

lol

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

and ur mum caught us haha

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i cant remember lol

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

remember jessica devai?

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

oh god yes

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

and how margaret and us made her cry?

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

and we got stuff on our fileapparenlty

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

we were mean

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

we all got into shit for it

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

yeah we had a record because of that fat bitch

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

haha i no

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

than we got into trouble for bullying matt and phillip

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

haha were u thre when phillip bought 2 smokes for $10

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

hahaha no

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i smoke as well btw bad habit

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

yeah he bought 2 for $10

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

he got ripped!

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i bummed four smokes today

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

very gd, yeah i smoked for a while

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

gave up

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

hmmm yar

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

u still living in northmead?

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

nope i live in winston hills now

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

oki

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

n u no my parents seprated nd divorced

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

yeah

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

same here

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

you should come back to lpf just to leave me a messsage in my journal when im not on msn

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

yeah i should, i went to there concert last yr

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i couldnt cos i was in the middle of my hsc

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i went to nightwish this year

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

that was a freaking awesome concert and going to nin soon

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

oh cl

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

you heard of Nightwish?

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

yeah

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

one of my fav bands

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

the smashing pumpkins, placebo, nightwish and the white stripes are my fav bands now

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

i liek smashing punpkins

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i missed out on their concert this year

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

im hoping to scab tickets to go see seether in a couple of days

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

cl

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

what else has changed?

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

nothing much really my sister had a baby and my brother's getting married

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

oh congrats

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

yeah how is um ewin?

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

is it?

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

ewin? wasn't that the p.e. teacher's name?

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

it's Huon!

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

thts right

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

we siad it sounded liek ewin

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i know i got bagged out for being apparently related to the weirdest teacher ever

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

and i remember we had a crush on mr parsons from music

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

hes long gone

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

Huon is 3 now and you had a crush on my brother!

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

haha tht ws ages ago

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

thats still disturbing two of my friends had a crush on my brother ewwwwww

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

remember that time we were playing in the elevator and ra suddenly appeared?

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

haha yes

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

elevator was fun

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

and we were like "ahh fuck"

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

haha

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

runing up and down the carpark

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i vaguely remember that

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

do u remember throwing crap into the pool?

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

i think so

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

remember anthea?

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

yes i do, i ran into her a few times

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

its nearly been two years since i've spoken to her

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

we had a massive fight and we stopped talking to each other

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

oh really? sorry to hear, i remember our fights in h.s

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

remember margaret? the most important aboriginal in the world!

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

yes she waw

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

was* still is

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

and matt had a crush on her sis

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

what was her lil sis name again?

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

abigail?

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

no um

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i remember margaret almost wanting to throw up all over matt when she found out

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

trish

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

yeah it was trish

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

haha lil matt hasnt changeds

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

he is still nerdy as ever

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

monique and i are in frequent contact still

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

yes

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

he oved des sister

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

my god! roxy and gabby have changed dramatically!

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

yes they have

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

along with helena!

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

fuck helena was a skinny metalhead and now she's got meat on her

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

yeah

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

they grew up

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i couldn;t believe it when i saw her

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i remember my "goth" days

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

yeah

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

u were pretty threre

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

and my mike shinoda obsession

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

god yes

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

u had ur lil album

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

with pictures

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

i had him in my wallet

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!!

|[ Smbubie needs her buba |] says:

i remember haha

Sarah is just awesome at everything says:

what about the shayne phase?

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im still in contact with him