{Wood'z Journal Act 2}

[woodyloveslinkin]

Okay so today was Melbourne Cup day. Kez won best female award and Kelvin won best male award, dammit everyone dressed either up or down for the race that stops the entire nation for a whole two minutes, lol. I wore my black dress today, which was new.

 

We took a whole bunch of pictures, one of them find highly amusing because we labelled it "The Drinker's Association of Marcus Evans" lol, that one had Kelvin, little Kiwi Nick in it (lol we bag him out so much for being a kiwi), Kez, Sheika and I in it along with a whole bunch of other people. I saw the picture on Sheika's phone and I was like "Why does Kelvin have his arms around me?" Lol. We both look like we're pregnant in half the photos and I'm going to post them probably tomorrow. I can't seem to find Sheika on facebook but I found Abby

 

And for my horse, came #10 and I'm sending it back to the Blood and Bone factory. Or failing that the glue factory for coming pratically last. For a race that stops the nation for only two minutes, it was well worth the early clock off of work and all the food and drinks that we got.

[woodyloveslinkin]

Daniel calls up, and his number appears as private on my lunch break today.

 

Me - Hello?

Daniel - Hi. How are you?

Me - Doing great without you. Yourself?

Daniel - Okay I guess. I miss you. A lot.

Me - Pity.

Daniel - Why is that a pity?

Me - Should've thought of that before you called the cops.

Daniel - I know it was an overreaction and I'm sorry for it.

Me - As I've been saying all along, it's too late to say sorry.

Daniel - You know I'm going through a lot of trouble with my family so yeah, give me a break.

Me - You knew that I was on anti-depressants when everything fell through and you didn't give me a break. I got arrested because of you and got taken to court twice by you, so why don't you give me a break instead for once? I'll give Heather a call up to come and pick my stuff up from my place and she can drop your stuff back when she comes back from Bathurst after the holidays. No arguments, it's going to be done my way for once. You don't like it? Tough luck.

 

*hangs up*

 

My day summed up.

[Ravynlee]

*applauds*

 

I sincerely am proud of you. About time. Smartest thing you've done in ages. Congrats. :friends:

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Wow

I guess Imma agree with Rav!

:thumbsup:

[Peterdea]

Well, I don't think that guy would have known what to say after that anyway... hahaha

[woodyloveslinkin]

Yeah I was pissed off that day. I have a reminder on my desk saying "YOU DO NOT NEED DANIEL" and it's usually sticked to my calender which I am constantly looking at and writing stuff down on the notes parts. I like that flicky calender, it has odd sayings for the day at the bottom of it, but some are useful though.

 

But its still hurting a lot, I guess. I do miss him a lot and I just miss his company. He wasn't all bad, there was some good in him. I usually tell myself when I get to the stage of wanting to call him up and have a chat to him, that I got out of there for a reason. I know I was pushed out but I could've stayed in Wagga, but I didn't.

 

Well today started off really shit. The traffic on the M2 was bad this morning but managed to grab a seat on the backseat of the Express Bus that went through the Lane Cove tunnel and decided to get off a stop before Town Hall (Queen Victoria Building) and walk the extra distance. I grabbed some stuff from Woolies and walked down to McDonalds to get my morning mocha. I walked back up the hill and went into work. It started off really dull for me because my leads were shit and I had started to lose motivation. But I soon found my motivation when I started to get good leads. At the end of the day I got my first comment from Jenna -

"Congrads! That's the best pitch I've heard from you all week!"

 

Ali, who's the IT guy really likes me and it's kinda weird. He gave me some lollies today out of the blue. I was on the phone to someone and because he can see me directly from his desk, he told me through pointing that he had bought some lollies for me. And he wanted to go down with me to talk to me on my break but I ended up going down with Simon instead. And he brushed my arm when he was walking past me and I was on the computer getting some pretty fucking good leads.

[woodyloveslinkin]

Well Monique and I met up today and bummed around in the park, eating chips and other crap. I haven't seen her for a while. My God! My daughter has changed! *sniffles* It make me cry when I see kids grow up. *lol* The only daughter I haven't disowned/abandoned.

 

Am doing my nails right now, a bright red and watching Dancing With The Stars. Gay show.

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Well Monique and I met up today and bummed around in the park, eating chips and other crap. I haven't seen her for a while. My God! My daughter has changed! *sniffles* It make me cry when I see kids grow up. *lol* The only daughter I haven't disowned/abandoned.

 

Am doing my nails right now, a bright red and watching Dancing With The Stars. Gay show.

uuhh gotta post a pics of your nails

lol! I've been watchin that show on croatian tv it was pretty cool xD especially some dancers haha

[woodyloveslinkin]

My nails is nothing exciting. Sorry I'm really down right now. I hate my job already and I'm ready to quit. I'm just so down right now. I forgot to take my meds last night and this morning, and I had a panic attack today at work and then I was ready to resign. But I have to stay in this job for mum but currently gonna look for another one.

 

[MrsBennington-Delson]

aaww I'm sorry Sarah *hugs* don't be so down

[woodyloveslinkin]

*hugs back*

 

I woke up this morning and I felt like shit. I explained to mum how I was feeling and I called up my boss and said to her that there had a family emergency so I had the day off today and try to get myself back together. I mean, I'm struggling emotionally and financially right now. I don't get paid until the end of the month and the work load is starting to take its toll on me. I'm in the market for a new job.

[woodyloveslinkin]

well i quit my job yesterday, wasn't making me feel good but kinda depressed. am in bathurst right now and im sleeping over at my sister's place tomorrow, so that probs mean with huon being away she and josh are gonna get drunk.

 

omg, blaze has grown up so much, my cat, and miffy, the other one, is being evil as usual. man, i'm tired.

 

and oh, i wish daniel would just leave me the fuck alone. he sent me a txt message 5 in the morning, this morning. ugh.

[Ravynlee]

well i quit my job yesterday, wasn't making me feel good but kinda depressed. am in bathurst right now and im sleeping over at my sister's place tomorrow, so that probs mean with huon being away she and josh are gonna get drunk.

 

omg, blaze has grown up so much, my cat, and miffy, the other one, is being evil as usual. man, i'm tired.

 

and oh, i wish daniel would just leave me the fuck alone. he sent me a txt message 5 in the morning, this morning. ugh.

Dan probs? So I take it you've been txting back?

Wow, obviously you haven't learnt a damn thing.

 

Have fun at your sister's.

 

*hugs* for Blaze and Miffy. Providing they don't claw your eyes out

[woodyloveslinkin]

I haven't had credit to even talk to him so I don't know why he's suddenly talking to me.

 

Blaze is the one that wants to be in the middle of everything and Miffy is the one that attacks Blaze for being in the same room as her.

[Ravynlee]

I haven't had credit to even talk to him so I don't know why he's suddenly talking to me.

So the first time he emailed you after you left and you deleted it I bet he texted you and you replied, thinking you'd be civil. What part of 'NO CONTACT AT ALL' and 'COMPLETELY CUT HIM OUT OF YOUR LIFE' didn't you get? He didn't get the message before and subtleties obviously don't work. SO he keeps texting you AFTER he had you thrown in the slammer TWICE - he has some of your stuff - why the hell didn't you tell him from the very start 'NO CONTACT at all whatsoever under any circumstances' and MEAN it? You've always sent him mixed messages and you love the drama, there's no other way to explain it. You keep making the same damned mistakes with him. I'm sorry but you ask for what you get now. If you really wanted him out of your life I mean seriously as you once claimed you would have told him 'Text me again I'll report you to the authorities, this is harrassment.'

You like being the victim, that much is clear.

No, I can't even apologize anymore for sounding harsh. Depressed or not you asked for it. You keep letting him in to your life and wonder why you can't get past him. Wow. No brainer. So much for making a clean break and a fresh start in Bathurst. You didn't solve anything, you took the dramas with you. Period.

[woodyloveslinkin]

For the record, I never said no contact with him to his face, and I cut him out of my life completely automatically after the mental shit that i went through when i came home. Especially after the shit that he gave me about "I want you back here" (I of course retorted by saying "there's an AVO out against me prohibiting me from coming near you to start with ...") I deleted his number out of my phone so I wouldn't be tempted to ring him and the only contact I've had with him was some financial matters that he still owes me about, even that I wasn't civil about. I didn't take the dramas with me, and I even warned him the last time I spoke to him about contacting my family and what the consequences of it would be. Trust me, even though the memories are there, I don't have his number anymore, I can't go on not answering private numbers in which he always appears on as and I just know his number by the amount of 4s in it, and I only have his email for the time being until I get the money that he owes me due to financial struggle my mum is currently going through and my mum is currently at me trying to get the money that he owes me. Trust me, I have a psychological assessment on 2nd December thanks to that bastard who put me into a women's refuge for three days.

 

So don't think for one second that I haven't learnt my lesson and I haven't had credit since I left Wagga and that's been nearly over a month now. The main reason why I haven't had credit is that it would prevent me from talking to him and I don't think he's worth calling from my landline to be honest.

 

If he calls me, fine I'll just waste his credit. Pick up and then hang up repetively, I'll be evil and I'll be a bitch, that's nothing compared to what he makes me feel right now. That's one thing I don't like being told right now, is that I haven't learnt by lesson, when I have. I simply ignore him until it advantages me to some point and right now, the only point of contact I have is trying to get my money back that he owes me. I've already arranged for Heather to get my stuff back from him and vice versa.

[Ravynlee]

You know he's not giving you the money back, right?

He's a control freak. This 'debt' is something he can hold over your head and keep you tied to him. I told you before it's best just to let him and it go. As hard as it is financially (and I don't doubt it is hard, even for your family) that a clean break is the best way to go. Besides you can't PROVE he owes you money unless it's physically documented and even if it was he's not going to give you anything easily because he doesn't want to let you go. That's what I mean about clean break. The stuff he has of yours is GONE. The money he owes you is GONE. Move on. And tell him if he gets in contact with you again in any way shape or form you'll get harrassment charges against him. Play his rules for once.

[woodyloveslinkin]

If that stuff of mine ends up being GONE I won't be the one that'll end up losing the plot at him. My good flannlette sheets my grandmother gave me are worth more than him right now + other stuff. And like I said before, on the other page, he's going to do things my way for once wither he likes it or not. And I know he has my money, he leaked to my mother that he's earning over $800 a week, in which $400 of that is mine.

 

Well, reality is yes I know he doesn't want to let me go, pity, really, I've let go of him and now have my eyes softly on another guy for the time being. Sure, the memories are still there but seriously, the shit was too much and I left too late to avoid being hurt.

 

 

I paid the bond for his place and he owes me it and I'm going to get it despite when people might say! And he knows that I paid for his place I just have to wait until he gets paid next so he can put it into my bank account and then he'll be history in my books.

[Ravynlee]

Like I said, good luck. You're dreaming, but good luck. Don't be shocked if it doesn't work out the way you planned.

[woodyloveslinkin]

Well he should've packed all my stuff when my dad came over to get my stuff but he didn't pack all of it. That's the main thing that pisses me off.

[woodyloveslinkin]

Oh and I managed to convince Josh, my childhood friend to join LPF. Hello Josh (guitar-hero-01).

[woodyloveslinkin]

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Just found my wedding dress. Traditional Indian red and gold.

http://images.exoticindiaart.com/saris/black_valkalam_sari_with_modern_weave_on_border_yq37.jpg

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My bridesmaid's saris - My sister, Beck, Anakita, Heather, Merissa and Tabitha.

 

LOL I have no life. No I have to find a man who's willing to have a traidional Indian wedding.

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My husband wears this.

 

and the rest of the men wear whatever.

[woodyloveslinkin]

^ that was totally brought on by a LPA thread btw.

 

Anyway, last night was awesome. Josh and I caught up, had dinner at his place, played Singstar - Pop Hits and fully sucked at Guitar Hero 3. Kept losing to his little sister, Heidi. One of the best songs on Singstar that I rocked was Hit Me Baby One More Time but failed at Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne. I did okay at Beautiful Day by U2. Yeah last night rocked!

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Singstar is so freakin great

good to hear you had so much fun ^______^

[woodyloveslinkin]

Here are some of the photos from yesterday some are kinda bad -

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Heidi and Me - I've known her since she was in kindagarden and now she's in year 8

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Josh (guitar-hero-01) and his dog Pixie - lol my rat's name is Pixie

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Ben running away from the camera

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Me playing with the flash

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Half of my face...