My ex.. yeah, theres alot of reading here. lol.

[allieking]

one question...do you love him?

[Black_Angel]

I still think I'm a little to young to properly know what love is, but it certainly feels like I love him now. He's like always on my mind and everything and I know it's not a silly infatuation like most of my other "crushes" have been.

[allieking]

love is when you can imagine spending forever with someone, when you need them with you, when they are on your mind all day everyday.

[Black_Angel]

Ahhh well, it sure is love then =(

[allieking]

well i say tell him!!!!!! do it before its too late. oh and send me an invite to the wedding!!!!

 

good luck babe, hope he knows how lucky he is to have you

[HaziLPTonz]

w000 yer

 

good luck you 2! ^^

 

alls well that ends well

 

 

or w.e

 

ahaha

[Friðbjörn]

I don't exactly think it's polite to make fun of it...

[Black_Angel]

Meh it's okay, I don't think he meant any harm or anything.

 

Haha thanks Allie but I wouldn't go buying your fancy hat just yet!

 

 

Annnd yeah no more news about this... hmm..... there'd better be a good reason for this or I shall not be pleased!

[Victim]

Maybe try calling him, instead of just relying on texts. Sometimes my friends don't get their texts till like 2 days later..

[Black_Angel]

Yeah I could try that... I just really hate calling people lol. It's like this weird thing I've had for ages, I get nervous about it and everything! :/

But yeah I'll give it a couple more days and if theres no luck I'll have try and pluck up the courage to call ^^

[Victim]

Yeah, I know how you feel.. I hate using the phone, thats why I text so much, lol.

[Black_Angel]

Mark replied!!!!!!!! At last.. gosh. ^_^

I'll tell you guys more about it later.. I have to go the gym now!

[allieking]

see told you that you should contact him, hope it all goes well.

[MrsBennington-Delson]

omg thats so great to hear! ^.^

[Black_Angel]

Hehe, this is what he said; Hiya so sorry i havent kept intouch bin so busy an me msn is broke :-( but i will phone i miss you too so much i havent forgotten you thats for sure. love from mark xxx

 

He's been working alot I think, he works on the jetskis and all the water activities down in Jersey and it's the peak of the tourist season atm... but yeah I'm just soooo happy he replied and that he still cares about me ^_^

 

I told him that he didn't have to phone.. just to get his msn fixed, cause I know he'll find it hard to call me after all this time since he never called last time he said he would.

 

 

 

Right, about Matt. To be honest I am thinking of finishing it with him, not really because of Mark, just because of how I've begun to feel about him. I don't know, maybe I'm looking too much into stuff, but it just seems like he's taking me for granted and he's not really bothered about our relationship anymore. Like when we were just friends he used to talk to me all the time and everything but now it's like we're not even friends anymore. I confided in my friend Paul about this and he told me to "not settle" for him (Paul thinks I'm too good for Matt, looks-wise), so yeah I told Paul I'd think about it, and I have, but I'm not sure how to go about it lol.

 

OMG SPEAK OF THE DEVIL.

Matt just called my mobile lol.. I didn't answer.. I'm such a bitch. I just don't think I can face him right now.

[MrsBennington-Delson]

so glad to hear that ^.^

 

well I wish you the best! with Mark and Matt...

[Friðbjörn]

so you'll be in touch with mark now?

 

 

anyway it sounds like it's time to end it with matt, yeah...

[Black_Angel]

I'm hoping so, unless he goes awol again! lol.

[allieking]

there is no point being with matt if mark is the person you wanna be with hun. and yeah you should never settle for anyone, you should be with someone because you wanna be.

 

hope you and mark work out, just gonna go out and buy my hat lol

[Black_Angel]

Haha xD Thankyoou.

 

Well it's over between me and Matt now.. It was hard but I did it.

[Friðbjörn]

does that make you feel any better? obviously it hurts, whether you were really into him or not, but you know what I mean...

[Black_Angel]

It does make me feel better yeah, because I wasn't like in love with him or anything, just a crush, but it kinda faded anyway so yeah it was for the best.

 

Wow I don't know if that made sense or not hah :|

[Stenners]

Well done, u did a hard thing and thats end something! You took the bull by the horns n threw it in the lake! The Bull is now wet and shall no longer trouble you...as ya know bulls shrink in water... innit!

 

Anways more seriosuly better now then later because it just hurts more in the long run & you would of been tied down in a realtionship you dont want (in other words no fun for u)

[Black_Angel]

ROFL

Thanks Matt =]

[Clogz]

Yo.

I broke up with my girlfriend of 1 year and 4 months in this last febuary...that was one of the hardest things I have ever done. It was an awful breakup and she ended up having a schitzophrenic breakdown or something...she literally went crazy and scared alot of people. I almost called the cops on her because she was harrassing me and telling me all kinds of really disturbing stuff.

 

I just ranted. Sorry.

 

The hardest part about the break-up was that I really did like her, even though it wasn't meant to be. I wanted to stay friends...I valued her at most as a dear friend. But, yeah...that 'friend' thing never really worked out.

 

Its been hard moving on...I've had to deal with alot of feelings that resurfaced not just for her but with other ex's. its totally normal to miss your ex, and want to be with them again. Don't think that somehow missing them = loving them...cause it doesn't. It really feels like it, but in the end it is different.

 

if you can stay in touch, that is awesome. Hopefully you two will build a positive friendship.

 

Just don't feel bad about those feelings...if it wasn't meant to be, they will fade in time.