.:C'est la vie:.

[diana]

Well, sweet...hope you're having fun in Croatia! Didn't know you're already there...=)

[MrsBennington-Delson]

thanks

well Im still in croatia but now in Zagreb staying at my friends

going to a cafe soon so I just dropped by to say im all alive and great and shiz

and yeah Ill check lpf when I got some more time so see yall!!

wuvs

[Jeezy]

good to hear from you again

 

keep having fun in Croatia

[diana]

Nice...keep on having fun! ^^

[MrsBennington-Delson]

thanks guys

well Im back on sat or sunday, so a looong update and new pics then!!

[diana]

thanks guys

well Im back on sat or sunday, so a looong update and new pics then!!

Yay, looking forward to that! x)

[FM2005]

Jos I got your postcard! Wow that place is beautiful. I showed a couple of friends and they all want to go to Croatia now haha, that beach looks awesome!

It was nice of ya to send that Ill have to send something back soon

 

Just saw the pics a page back, your just a little cutie arent ya haha

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Yay, looking forward to that! x)

Update coming tomorrow (or lets say today since its almost 1am x]) since I'm too tired to write that much right now ^^ hehe

 

Jos I got your postcard! Wow that place is beautiful. I showed a couple of friends and they all want to go to Croatia now haha, that beach looks awesome!

It was nice of ya to send that Ill have to send something back soon

 

Just saw the pics a page back, your just a little cutie arent ya haha

You're welcome! I thought since I wasnt able to send you some lp shirt or so I at least could send you a post card

oh and I unfortunately didnt get you a shirt or something bc I figured that there were no LP shirts or anything related to LP and I wasnt sure if you'd like to wear a croatia shirt (like with the map of croatia on it or soemthing) =/ sowwy

 

so uhm yeah Im back and I got some pics up on myspace http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=129457117&albumId=1944467 or here: http://www.wiealt.de/index.php?show=usr&id=41395

 

I prolly wont be uploading any on photobucket bc its takin too long etc ^^ hehe

me lazy ass

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

Are they up on your facebook?

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Are they up on your facebook?

no not yet but I'll prolly upload them today

[MrsBennington-Delson]

So they're up on facebook too ^^

 

 

Now the review(I'll keep the thing about croatia short since there wasnt anything huge happening):

well it was great! the weather was amazing and the water warm every day

I barely went out although I wanted to go out every evening ^^ lol I dont wanna blame my friend who was with me but she was never in the mood to go somewhere... but well its not that bad

Ok so uhm I got to know this one girl living close to Munich and I first thought it'd be cool and stuff but it turned out almost like hell -.- She was so annoying! She was talking so much unbelievable shit that I was just like "ah yeh sure"... well anyways we went out one night and met some guys. one of them is actually living very close to my city which was great so yeah the thing tho was the she got to go out with them and I didnt... its not bc the guys didnt want me to go with them it was bc that girl, called Julia, was telling them that I have a headache and cant go bc of that, and ok that was true but they went out almost every day or at least meet each other at the beach or so and she just asked me like 2-3 times if I wanna go with them and those times I really couldnt... and yeah for some recent reasons and problems I've been having with my old friends and stuff I just didnt care much bout them and bout meeting the guys or so since they knew where I was at so they could have come and ask me themselves.

But fortunately I've been mailing Jakob, that guy who lives close to me, and I explained him that I didnt like Julia and that its not their fault and stuff bc he and the other guys seemed very nice, and he said that he and the others liked me to and also were always asking for me but Julia was always saying something like that I'm in pain or soemthing so I cant go. So yeh... I wrote him then "well we both know the 2 clubs empire and w3. so maybe we'll see each other sometime there" and then he answered "yeah for sure! we can hang out together then of course" and that made me kinda happy bc he's showing that he'd like to hang out with me or whatever ^_^ lol

well we'll see but dont get me wrong I dont wanna date him or anything just to clear things up... Im actually not in the mood to date anyone or anything... maybe thats better ^^

Well now lets go back into my past... My neighbor and good friend Elena was freaking happy about me being back because she was missing me soooooooooo much as she says lol well anyways we were talking bout stuff that has been happening here and since her bf broke up with her like a week ago and stuff we kind started talking bout guys well I said that Eschi (old friend of mine and stuff I guess you already know him lol) was chatting with me and stuff and that he started talking about Fish and how he had an accident but is all good. And then she told me that recently she was at a friends bday party and Fish was there too... and she was asking him what has been with me back then and why it didnt work out, and he said that he really liked me a lot and that I really ment something to him and that he knows that he hurt me a lot and that he's really sorry bout that. He also said that he didnt want to date me bc he had the feeling that it wouldnt work so he didnt want to hurt me if he'd break up (if we would date each other) and then she said that sometimes you just gotta try and maybe it works out, and he was like "yeah but I would have the feeling that it wont work out and then I'd hurt her." I'm not sure what to think about all that anymore... you know its now like the 3rd or 4th time that whenever this topic seems to be forgotten someone has to bring it up again! and like the best thing is that everyone is asking him and always first talking to him and then telling me what he said and shit I really dont see the logic behind all that. Plus, I also said that to Elena yesterday, that its all sweet and nice if he liked me that much and if hes really sorry bout hurting me but why aint he saying that right into my face? and honestly... idk... I kinda have the feeling that he cant let that go for some reason... I mean idk... Its like he's having 2 selfs and one is like the "official" Fish everyone knows as the big seductor or macho or wahtever and the other one is the real him... its actually like Golum from LOTR O.o

well whatever... I think I'll never get to know the truth about what he really feels for me or idk what... and Im not even sure if I want to know it... Im not even confident enough to go to him and just once talk and finally clear things up... I seriously dont know what I should do...

 

well anyways my summer holidays were great!

and the few days in Zagreb too

Tomorrow Im starting work and I actually cant wait although I wasnt too exited bout it ^^ lol

Right now Ill go take a shower and then go to see Vika my besht frend

so see ya =D

=/

[diana]

The pics are great! I commented some...^^

 

Uhm...damn...not the Fish again...I mean...it really should be all over till now, I think...cuz I feel it's not doing good for anyone and I don't really know why people are bringing it up again and again..? Like, who cares...what's been done is done...period...(my opinion)

 

However, it's nice to hear you had fun...=)

 

What are you going to work??

[MrsBennington-Delson]

The pics are great! I commented some...^^

 

Uhm...damn...not the Fish again...I mean...it really should be all over till now, I think...cuz I feel it's not doing good for anyone and I don't really know why people are bringing it up again and again..? Like, who cares...what's been done is done...period...(my opinion)

 

However, it's nice to hear you had fun...=)

What are you going to work??

Yeah thanks a lot for em ^-^ I saw it x]

 

I know! I mean I'm not even talking anything about him or something, I don't get it either

But for me it's deffo over... no feelings at all for him... Imma say I might would love him again if he'd want to date me or so but I dont wanna talk about what might could be bc we're all living in the here and now not in the there and tomorrow... that actually rhymes ^^ lool

 

Well I can't really tell you a job... but I'm working in a metal company and they do trollies mostly but also other stuff... maybe you know it its called Wanzl... you should check your trolly when you're going shopping somewhere, there might be Wanzl written on it, since they even send trollies out to Australia ^^

 

So yeah my first day was quite ok... bit boring since I didnt have to do much... uhm my feet hurt bc of those security shoes we gotta wear or whatever x]

What else... oh yeah I'm still chattin with that guy I've met on the train like 2 months ago or so

and uhm thats him if you wanna know: http://i141.photobucket.com/albums/r50/draco-jojo/martin.jpg

this might not be the best pic but yeh ^^ lol

thats pretty much it

[diana]

Okay, nice to hear that about Fish...=)

 

Ah, I see...well, I hope you won't be too bored at work since I know how bad that is...>_>

How long will you be working anyway?

 

Well, probably really not the best pic...but he looks okay, yeah...

[Jeezy]

that dude looks good....

 

can i say that?

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Okay, nice to hear that about Fish...=)

 

Ah, I see...well, I hope you won't be too bored at work since I know how bad that is...>_>

How long will you be working anyway?

 

Well, probably really not the best pic...but he looks okay, yeah...

Uhm for 3 weeks... but I got Sat and Sun free and Mon-Thu I gotta work from 6am-2:15pm and on Fri just till 12pm

Today was actually fun. I had to do some more stuff than I did yesterday but thats good bc the time flies by so quickly ^^

And I was talkin to my bro who is also working there (but just this week since he already worked 3) and he was like "Your aim is to gain money and not work" which is actually true... bc they don't have much work so you actually do some job you need like maybe 20mins for you finish it in 2hrs lool

and considering all that I get a looot of money... for actually doing "nothing" if I may say so...

that dude looks good....

 

can i say that?

haha yeh I guess you can ^^

I mean we all know you arent gay lol so its ok

 

So btw that guy (Martin) wanted to meet me while I'm on holidays and off from school... like go shopping together or visite the Legoland... but dunno... I mean he's really nice and I like him but I honestly gotta say that I don't feel very comfortable thinking of meeting him or like lets say doing something with him by myself :S I wouldnt mind meeting him at some party but like dunno... is that normal? O.o

 

Oh and I got all Sims 2 Expansionpacks :D:D hehe besides of IKEA-Acessories or how its called ^^ and in like a month or so the new one (Appartment Lifes) will be released and I'll get it hehe So yeah you actually can see me being histerically happy about that xD lol

 

And right now I'm drinkin a scottish soft drink which is very yummie and originally from Scotland ^^ my bro got it when he was there at the beginning of august... its called IrnBru. If you ever get to drink it you should try... it tastes like bubblegumm lol

 

At last I decided to make a new sig for myself and thought maybe of a revival of my "colord jos" sig... maybe you remember it dunno... doesnt matter...

but dont think that Im doing it bc I think im so freakin beautiful or smexy or something I more like doing it bc I want other ppl and newbies to know who I am and shiznit... lol whatever >.<

 

*sings* Now you're gooone, I realize my love for you was strooong and I miss you here now you're gooone

x)

[diana]

Well, that sounds good about your job! And woot, a lot of money...sweet...:ok:

 

Of course it's normal you're feeling uncomfortable meeting Martin...I mean, he is older and you saw him once (right?) in your life...so, if you're not sure about him, you better don't meet him (alone)...=)

 

Yeah, I know what you mean with the sig...

[MrsBennington-Delson]

 

 

 

Well update...

I've been working the whole week and it was actually good

Me likes the place and everythings cool... when I compare it with the 3-4 days work I had to do in hospital like a year ago or so, I like the job I'm doing now waaay more!!

Oh well but still not my "dream-job" =) I know I'm meant to be a teacher *__* LMAO

So besides of that uhm nothing much has actually been happening... When I got home my bro startet fucking around and getting on my nerves like uber hardcoreness!! I even started crying bc I couldnt stand his "gosh you're so week you cant even defend yourself with words, only thing what you say is "shut the fuck up" or "fuck you" all the time!" -.-

After that I've been that pissed off and also hurt that I wasnt able to do anything! Whatever I started I kinda fucked up something... I was kinda re-decorating my room and a few things went wrong -.- and in the end the door of my closet was broken or something -.- meh... well then for some reasons I was browsing my old comments on a german site I'm on pretty often... and then saw like the first comments I got from Fish and jesus I never felt so depressed I guess <.<

To all that Sabrina txt me asking me if I want to go out with her and Hüfti tonight to a disco 'O.o Hello? a) it was like 10pm... untill I get ready its like 11pm and then I gotta go home at like midnight again? no way... b)I think they just txt me bc no one else wanted to go with them or they realized now that its way more fun if they go out with my since I'm dancing all the time and shiznit... and c) after all, do they really think Imma go and run after them and be like "Oh hell yeah Ill be over in a sec"? well if they do so than they're wrong bc Im not doing that... my last txt back was like this "sorry but not tonight... its too late for me plus Im already going out tomorrow... but as I already told you, you can come tomorrow" but they didnt answer... and I'm pretty sure they didnt answer that one bc Sabrina is celebrating her bday tomorrow (which im like 99.9% sure about) and she doesnt want me to knwo that... for whatever reason... I guess she thinks Ill be pissed bc she didnt invite me but even if she did I probably wouldnt even have gone or just drop by for like an hour or so and thats it...

so yeah ^^ lol

tomorrow Im going to the disco called Empire Should be fun!! and I cant wait!!

[woodyloveslinkin]

I hope you have fun at the Empre Jos!!

[diana]

Ah, I kinda got the feeling how you felt when your brother was teasing you...I'm sorry it happened that way...*hugs*

Well...have fun today!! ^^

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Thankies girls *hugs*

 

 

Yesterday evening:

When I finished with getting ready my mum and I left home and picked up my Vika... All the way (its like a 20mins drive to the disco) Vika and I were talkin bout how its gonna be and stuff... well when we arrived there I realized that I forgot my ID and without it I can't get in -.-

My mum drove us then back home... I was so fustrated bc I've been looking forward on this night for like 4 weeks!! Well luck didnt leave me completely, what I was thinking first since on Friday kinda everything went wrong... I txt my sis telling her that Im not able to come and bla bla then she called me and said that her bf and her could pick us up and that its no problem at all, so they did that! And while Vika and I were waiting for them to come we went to our garage where my bro was celebrating his 20th bday (such an oldie xD) and had 2 shots of a croatian brandy or something ^^ soon my sis and her bf arrived and picked us up. When we got there, we stood in line and waited for the security to let us in... and the guy looked at my ID and gave it back to me without giving me a paper fillet (?) which you actually get if you're under 18... I looked at him and said with a smile "Uhm ain't I gettin a fillet??" He looked at me confused and said "are you under 18??" I grinned looked at my ID and answered "well as I know I am" I gave him my ID and he looked at it again "Oh well true... Well sorry then I gotta keep it" he smiled You gotta know that my croatian ID looks like the german drivers ID so since you can't have a drivers ID under 18 he thoguht I'm 18 xD which would have actually been cool since I could have stayed longer than midnight but this time it wasnt possible anyways since Vika was with me and she had to leave at midnight ^^ oh well next time maybe :-P

So yeah we've been dancing the whole time which was freakin great since I didnt do that for like yeah... 4 weeks or more ^^ lol

I got a self-made voodoo doll from my sis ^^ its supposed to show my perfect bf... fun thing is that she cut out Fish's face out of some pic and glued it on the voodoo doll and she's the one who is always like "FORGET HIM!!! HE'S NOT WORTH IT!!!" and like that lol

oh well...

 

Oh and I now got all Sims 2 EPs!! Literarly ALL :D:D I know I'm a freak lol

 

what else...?

well I cant think of anything right now but if you wanna know anything (doesnt matter what ^^) just ask

 

[diana]

Hehe, well, great you had fun!

And lol @ the voodoo doll...

[MrsBennington-Delson]

 

Don't have much to say...

I got myself all albums from The Used and they freakin rock! I love them They were great live but I somehow didnt manage to get any of their albums or songs (I just had one song...) so yeh ^^ lol

Uhm plus I just saw that I wrote like 2 stories while I was on vacation ^^ nothin huge or special... dunno... meh... if anyone's interessted I'll upload them...

[woodyloveslinkin]

I wanna see the stories Jos

[MrsBennington-Delson]

I wanna see the stories Jos

oh... okiiies :o

well uhm I'll post them in separate threads... btw I decided to not publish one story bc I wrote it after one situation that happend to me some months ago and I wrote how I felt about it and now that I dont feel about it the same way as I used to I simply wont publish it lol