.:C'est la vie:.

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Diablo 2 is for your PC it's a good game to get into. I got Tekken 5 the other day for $20.

oh!! xD

hmm well I might check it out some time :thumbsup:

 

 

Right now Im just doin some paper shiz I need for my visa... so for now it looks like I'm gonna be away for xmas and new year heh

and uhm... yeah its tuesday -.-

gaaahhh oh well.. x) lol

 

 

[MrsBennington-Delson]

ello

there's actually nothing new or exciting happening in my life... I'm kinda sick that's why I wont be going to the Oktoberfest tomorrow as I planed and it sucks bc whenever I feel like doing something I cant for some reason and then also all the people I wanna do something with or just like invite over or something dont have time bc they're busy -.-

oh well...

I just had a huge depressing moment a few minutes ago and actually vent it off on myspace so you can be happy bc I wont do so on here since I got the feeling everyone's sick of it what I am actually too...

don't got school tomorrow so Imma just enjoy the day, at least try to...

oh well hope you guys are all doin good

[woodyloveslinkin]

I hope you get better

[diana]

Well, that really sucks...*hugs*

Hope you'll feel better soon...

Are you planning to go to the Oktoberfest later then?

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Thanks girls

 

Well as much as I'm informed this weekend it's the last week so I guess next year =/

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Update

 

mmhh been a while...

 

well there's nothing happening besides of school school school lol

 

uhm... I had my first dancing lesson today in school and its pretty cool :thumbsup: we're doing like jazz ballet kinda thing which is pretty intresting I liike it...

 

and I think that I got some plus points at my maths teacher bc I was doing exercises we were supposed to do in school the next lesson at home lol and today again I said how you can get the result of some term but he didnt expect me to know it so he was all like "uhm ´hey thats right!" lol xD

cool thing is that he just turned 29 and (unfortunately) married 2 weeks before he turned 29 (which wasnt too long ago) xD but he's not attractive anyway since he's a redophile and teh Jos is scared of redophiles :rofl:

 

my dad was bitching at me again for spending to much time at the laptop ... meh...

Im trying to control that...

 

and Im not allowed to go out this weekend lol

bc of teh laptop thingy and shiz...

 

Im workin on the LPF Sims Project and its pretty cool so far ^^

Did expect so many to enter ok not much did enter but I thought just the ones who play Sims like Rav and Sarah wanna do that x) LOL

oh and one more thing... there's this german community thingy Im on and my ex-bfs little sister added me as a friend and send me a message like "hey josi how are ya? I added you as friend hope you'll accept its" and I was a bit like "uhm... huh?"

I mean I always liked her she's really a cute girl and since she's on the same school as I was on we pretty much saw each other every day... but I remember how Dan's (my ex-bf) family was talking about his ex before and after me again LOL and yeh x)

I just hope they're not talking about me like that LOL

 

 

so yeh that's it I guess

[diana]

What's redophil?

 

Cool that you're good even though you're so busy with school...=)

 

Oh, and what LPF Sims thingy?

[MrsBennington-Delson]

What's redophil?

 

Cool that you're good even though you're so busy with school...=)

 

Oh, and what LPF Sims thingy?

redophil = a guy with red hair who likes little kids/girls xD

 

LPF Sims Project = you post a pic of yourself and I make a Sim outta you and then play lol

So like all the LPF ppl meet in the virtual world of teh sims xD

[diana]

redophil = a guy with red hair who likes little kids/girls xD

 

LPF Sims Project = you post a pic of yourself and I make a Sim outta you and then play lol

So like all the LPF ppl meet in the virtual world of teh sims xD

Ah, okay, lol...x)

 

Too bad I don't play Sims then...=)

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Ah, okay, lol...x)

 

Too bad I don't play Sims then...=)

Oh I said it wrong, I play it xD

It's more like fun for you guys seeing with what I come up and how your Sim life developes lol

[diana]

Oh I said it wrong, I play it xD

It's more like fun for you guys seeing with what I come up and how your Sim life developes lol

Hm...then if it's still possible, you can do me (lol@the phrase :lol:) also...just tell me what kinda pic it has to be...

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Hm...then if it's still possible, you can do me (lol@the phrase :lol:) also...just tell me what kinda pic it has to be...

Just check out the thread

http://www.linkinparkforums.com/showthread.php?t=17534

:thumbsup:

[diana]

Just check out the thread

http://www.linkinparkforums.com/showthread.php?t=17534

:thumbsup:

Oh, okay, cool...I looked for it but didn't find it...

(wasn't looking that hard either, though...x))

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Oh, okay, cool...I looked for it but didn't find it...

(wasn't looking that hard either, though...x))

haha no problem

 

I read the first chapter of the book Twilight yesterday and its great imo! I just love vampires prolly gonna buy it :thumbsup:

 

then I'm kinda having a problem with decided what to do the weekend x)

my parents are going to austria, visiting some friends and I first didnt want to go with them because their daughter is 20 so I thought I'd be a burden on her but today I read on facebook that she left me a message and asked if I'm coming too bc if so we could go out together which made me all hyped up bc I think that if she's 20 we'll get into some cool clubs and could also stay longer than midnight muahaha

but a friend (I actually met her just once) invited me for her birthday today so I dont really know what do do

I'd kinda rather go to austria bc I really haven't seen our friends for ages! and my other friend lives like 60km away from me but we could still catch up and go shopping and stuff way easier than go to austria so I guess Imma go to austria but I still dont know

 

[Friðbjörn]

some dilemma you have on your hands there

 

so whats up anyway? is this the only journal surviving?

[MrsBennington-Delson]

some dilemma you have on your hands there

 

so whats up anyway? is this the only journal surviving?

OMG FRIIIIIBBS!!!!!!!!!!!!! *tacklehugs*

heeeeeeeey thereeeeeeeee!!!

 

How are you?? Where have you beeeen?? =O

 

to answer your question uhm I dont really know x)

Everyone's quite busy with school/job or something and I try to drop by and say something just like some sign of life thingy I guess xD

[Friðbjörn]

hey beautiful

 

oh me, I've been around XD

 

mm yeah I hear everyone's real busy and that this place is per se almost dead =_= thats sad...

I hope ATLien's idea becomes alive one day...

[MrsBennington-Delson]

hey beautiful

 

oh me, I've been around XD

 

mm yeah I hear everyone's real busy and that this place is per se almost dead =_= thats sad...

I hope ATLien's idea becomes alive one day...

aaawww :o did you steal that charm from Jona or did he still it from you? haha

Yup... haven't seen LPF that quite as it's now... its kinda scary

but I also hope that ATLiens ideas are going to get alive sooniiiish haha

 

I've been seeing you on msn a lot, wasn't sure if I should msg you tho xD haha

silly me haha:-|

[Friðbjörn]

aaawww :o did you steal that charm from Jona or did he still it from you? haha

Yup... haven't seen LPF that quite as it's now... its kinda scary

but I also hope that ATLiens ideas are going to get alive sooniiiish haha

 

I've been seeing you on msn a lot, wasn't sure if I should msg you tho xD haha

silly me haha:-|

hahah I dunno which came first, the hen or the egg

 

yeah, even when I left I felt it was on a low, now it's much worse, much fewer threads updated, a lot fewer people online...

 

 

oh I must be blind:-| cause I hadn't noticed you much online, oh well lol

[diana]

Well...yeah...Austria sounds more interesting...

Good luck! =)

[MrsBennington-Delson]

hahah I dunno which came first, the hen or the egg

 

yeah, even when I left I felt it was on a low, now it's much worse, much fewer threads updated, a lot fewer people online...

 

 

oh I must be blind:-| cause I hadn't noticed you much online, oh well lol

haha!

 

ah its ok haha dont worry :thumbsup:

Well...yeah...Austria sounds more interesting...

Good luck! =)

haha

well so did I but plans changed and Im goin to my friends bday

she said we'll prolly visite a croatian disco! I've never been to one so I cant wait

hehe

So yeah I'll be gone from tomorrow evening untill sometime sunday =)

 

nothin more to say... been busy with school the whole day =/

[Jeezy]

well so did I but plans changed and Im goin to my friends bday

she said we'll prolly visite a croatian disco! I've never been to one so I cant wait

hehe

So yeah I'll be gone from tomorrow evening untill sometime sunday =)

 

nothin more to say... been busy with school the whole day =/

 

 

have fun !!!

[diana]

Croatian disco? That exists?

Cool...=)

Have fun! You deserve it after all that school-work...^^

[MrsBennington-Delson]

have fun !!!

thanks!

Croatian disco? That exists?

Cool...=)

Have fun! You deserve it after all that school-work...^^

 

yeah we have them here in germany haha like they're playin croatian music and stuff should rock haha

 

oh well and we've been out last night xD

and we got a bit tipsy hehe

was huge fun tho

 

weee!!

[MrsBennington-Delson]

lil huge update

 

For those who don't read my myspace blog and feel like reading what happend last weekend here you go:

Back home!

So I'm at home again

It feels like it's been a week! Damn haha

But it was so much fun

My friend Ana Marija celebrated her 17th birthday (or beerday how I say xD)

I was staying at her's from friday evening till today noon

On friday we were first chilling in a croatian bar which I liked heaps bc we don't have any croatian bars here in my town!

Cool thing was we got all the drinks without paying and that's bc she is workin there on weekends haha

So yeah we first chilled there with Ivo and then at bout 10.30pm 2 of her friends joined so it was us 4 girls and 1 guy haha

We went to another bar and stayed there till 1am

Unfortunately I had a few drinks too much haha so I was a lil tipsy *innocent* wasn't too bad tho...

We had fun and it was a great evening! (Pics in the album 'Party!')

well the next day we were just chillin at home at first and then loooads of the family's friends came so it was pretty much full house xD haha

We then went to Ulm shopping a bit (I didnt by anything tho gotta save some money for something special hehe) and when we got back we didn't even have enough time to do anything else than get ready haha

First we were supposed to go to a party but that didnt work since her friend who was with us, didnt have an ID - but we decided to go to the bar we were the night before so there we pretty much were just chillin and confused ppl around us by not talkin german haha (btw you gotta know that friend of mine is also croatian ;P)

I noticed some brits in teh bar hehe they were too old tho for my taste xD so I didnt try to communicate with them haha and one of them was staring at me when I was walking towards the toilet weirdo haha

And yeah that's it

I got to know some croatian guys (they actually added me on facebook xD lmao) and yeh I'll deffo go visit her again (it was the 2nd time ever that I saw her and 1st time ever that I was in her town)

 

next point:

Seems like I'm emotionally fucked up when I'm at home... shouldn't it be the other way? Like you're happy whenever you return home no matter if it's just from school or something else?

I felt so great this weekend! Didn't think or care bout anyone and now I get home and I'm all depressed again... my heart feels empty... I miss everyone who means something to me

and I little something I wrote out of my mind:

My heart is breakin

and it starts aching

without any sign of life

I just dive into the ocean

of dead souls

trying to find a reason why

I ain't alive

and some kinda song I wrote today:

(version 1)

Here I am

there you are

staring through my soul

while I'm fallin apart

 

Holding me

breakin' through

with my heart so torn

by lovin' you

 

Still you stay

opened arms

never letting go

never leavin' my heart

 

So where are we now?

Can we stand the ground?

 

You're the one

here with me

always there for me

when I need to break free

 

When you go

I miss you

feeling lonely

and confused

 

So please stay

Oh just stay

one more night with me

cause I wanna say

I love you