Peteopia

[Peterdea]

I really need a good sleep. I'm pretty much dying here. My eyes hurt but my brain says "don't sleep... don't sleep... don't sleep..." This is getting really fucked up now...

[MrsBennington-Delson]

aaww poor Pete...

Im sorry that I can't help you =/

*hugs*

[Peterdea]

I'm sitting here... waiting for a certain person to call me so I can tell this certain person what I need to tell them.

That's the simple part...

This guy has been calling me constantly for a long time now. On top of that, he does the same to Laura simply to try make me angry, I mean whatever me and Laura had, it is gone now but, while it lasted he was always there.

I have to tell him to get fucked, since nothing else seems to work. Even though I could give a shit about Laura, I may as well try to get him to leave her alone to. But I doubt it.

Funny how when friends are going to turn on you they all seem to do it at the same time... Funny that. It also pisses me off.

But overall, I still have my sisters from LPF, Clint and Ash. All I need really...

Lol on another note, I got followed by four metros the other day. fucking assholes. If I hadn't gone to my mates place they would have followed me until there was literally no one around. Scum...

[woodyloveslinkin]

*hugs pete* remember! keep your chin up and sing this song -

MMMBOP!

[Peterdea]

Haha yes! Mmmbop... the only thing missing is an all male-brother-incest-orgy... which I don't want anywhere near my journal anyway... LOL

[woodyloveslinkin]

Why not? Lol.

 

http://i.esmas.com/image/0/000/005/764/370x270_hanson.jpg

[Peterdea]

LOL hmm i don't know... maybe it could have soemthing to do with me not being homo, me not wanting or supporting incest in any way, and the way that orgys aren't really something that belong in this thread... theres RED ROOM for a reason... LOL

LOL AHHH SCARY PIC!

[Peterdea]

I've been writing a bit

 

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REBORN V2

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Verse 1

The one hidden truth,

I got my proof,

I can't believe,

You'd do this to me,

What started as trust,

Turned into rust,

Your such a fake,

How much did you take?

Now I feel this pain,

It hurts in my brain,

I'd broken down,

You left me to drown,

From really fucked up,

I stood back up,

I'm here to warn,

That I've been reborn!

Chorus

I'm want revenge,

Time to avenge,

My heart is torn,

Now I'm reborn!

Verse 2

I'll fuck with your head,

You'll wish you were dead,

I'll burn a hole,

Right through your soul

One searing pain,

And you are to blame,

Your on your own,

So very alone,

When you messed with me,

You didn't see,

I never bled,

In over your head,

The day that I snapped,

I had to come back,

I'll win the war,

You still want some more?

Chorus

I'm want revenge,

Time to avenge,

My heart is torn,

Now I'm reborn!

 

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BURN

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I watched it all

Your defeated now

All the lies have come back

Come back to bite you

Come back to ruin you

Come back to show you

There's no way out

 

The pain on your face tells it all

The pain, the hate, the cuts, the scars, the mess, the lies, the test, you fail, you lose

Your all out of options it seems

No luck, no time, no break, no save, no ease, no team, no rights, your out, your gone

 

I laughed at you

What chance do you have?

I heard all that you said

I heard all your lies

I heard all your screams

I heard all your pain

I heard it all

 

Do you really think no one heard?

The crap, that you, told me, and all, the times, you thought, I had, no clue, I knew

That you had stabbed me in the back

So now, I'll say, it's time, to break, and you, will know, just how, it feels, to be

ALONE

 

I'll leave you

I'll watch you

I'll see the flames

And all I'll do is watch you burn

 

I'll watch, I'll see, I'll laugh, I'll jump, I'll point, I'll scream, I'll fuel, and you, will burn

 

The pain on your face will tell it all

The pain, the hate, the cuts, the scars, the mess, the lies, the test, the luck, the time, the break, the save, the ease, the team, the rights, the hunt, the kill, the waste, the crap, the point, the knife, the freeze, the gas, the taste, the burn, the heat, the fire, the ghost, of you, is lost.

 

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I WANT

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I sit here falling apart,

Every hit that I take,

Every hit that I take,

Every stupid mistake,

Come's back to bite me,

But still,

But still your always there,

But still your always there,

But why do you care?

no reason to care...

 

It makes me so damned angry,

The way that you care for me,

Do you think that I need you?

I know you don't need me to,

Tell me why the hell you try,

Let me destroy your blue sky,

 

You stare at me,

I stare right back,

But this is wrong...

 

It was wrong how,

We stand from a distance only to see,

Everything fall,

But now it's time for me to set us free,

Now it's my time,

I'm going to make a difference right now,

Watch me ignite,

The fuse which in the end will not allow,

For you and me,

To know each other ending all the pain,

All that matters,

Is for me to finally become sane,

And as for you,

Take the weight of the world off your shoulders,

So you relax,

You just let me take care of these boulders,

Soon I'll Be Gone...

 

I'll take all the pressure,

And I'll take all the guilt,

But you'll take something,

You'll take what I don't want

And all that I don't need,

Try to let it help you,

Or it will drag you down,

And I won't be around,

To help you get back up,

So goodbye forever,

Go and have a good life,

I'll live the way I want,

Which is without you there...

 

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there they are!

coolies!

 

--Peterdea--

[woodyloveslinkin]

Very interesting Pete. But nothing can beat Mmbop.

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Come's back to bite me

You know why LOL

[Peterdea]

Very interesting Pete. But nothing can beat Mmbop.

true that!

You know why LOL

ouch

[Ravynlee]

Someone feeling a tad aggressive lately huh? Well I have to say, whether deliberate or not, I get a sense you're venting - something happen little brother, to break your happy vibe? (Want big sis to kick their ass? ) But seriously, whether it's creative license or regurgitating some inner demons, it does pack a punch, but for my pic I like the last one, I want. Short sharp stanzas that rhyme read aloud like punches, good for aggressive writing, but the change of tempo (I assume it's lyrics, this last one reads like lyrics) it felt more... heartfelt, less defensive, if you get my drift.

Here;

Take the weight of the world off your shoulders,

So you relax,

You just let me take care of these boulders,

Soon I'll Be Gone...

Now that was a pure gem. Worthy of mention. I got a lot more out of that than I did putting the rest of the above together. Nicely done.

[Peterdea]

Someone feeling a tad aggressive lately huh? Well I have to say, whether deliberate or not, I get a sense you're venting - something happen little brother, to break your happy vibe? (Want big sis to kick their ass? ) But seriously, whether it's creative license or regurgitating some inner demons, it does pack a punch, but for my pic I like the last one, I want. Short sharp stanzas that rhyme read aloud like punches, good for aggressive writing, but the change of tempo (I assume it's lyrics, this last one reads like lyrics) it felt more... heartfelt, less defensive, if you get my drift.

Here;

Now that was a pure gem. Worthy of mention. I got a lot more out of that than I did putting the rest of the above together. Nicely done.

Yeah shits hit the fan recently between me and a friend... as for you beating someone up... hmm... hahaha!!! nah i can fight on my own

I also like the third one. I wrote it with less rage in my head. but after venting all that I'm happy

[Peterdea]

another song... maybe I should make a thread in the writers? meh...

This one is called "Are Things Better Up There (Dedicated To)" and I wrote it about my friend who lost his mum recently. Like, last weekend recently not a few weeks ago or anything like that.

Well, I can't say I care to much what anyone thinks other then him himself, as it is for him... But here it is anyway...

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It hurts me,

too see,

this right in front of me,

 

Where are you?

I can't find you...

I need you here,

Just reappear,

Please hear this,

I need this,

 

Reappear, reappear, reappear

Reappear, reappear, reappear

 

Unexpected,

And so unwelcome,

Unneeded,

I'm so defeated,

Where are you?

Are things better up there,

Compared to down here.

 

So many years down here with me,

Now you're gone and I'm in disbelief,

How could this happen?

How could this be?

This isn't the last you'll hear from me...

[MrsBennington-Delson]

wow

[Peterdea]

this ine is obviously different from anything else I've ever written... Think I should post all my songs in a thread?

[MrsBennington-Delson]

this ine is obviously different from anything else I've ever written... Think I should post all my songs in a thread?

sure! =)

of course only if you feel like sharing but all your songs are awesome :thumbsup:

[Peterdea]

done it... doesnt feel right to put them on display like that, I personally don't think they deserve a thread, other then maybe the last one which no matter what anyone says about it, I am proud of.

[Peterdea]

I caught up with Caine today, my once friend Lincoln's brother. It's cool to chill with Caine, I barely get to see him and he's one of the coolest people I've ever met. He is pretty much in a prank war that isn't going to end with Ash... Very funny.

I lost 2 games of Star Wars Battlefront II and I was forced to drink a can of beer (I hate beer... makes me feel sick), but I only had a small amount of time to do it, or else I'd have to drink another one... So bad...

Ash and me drank scotch. He can't take it very easily but it's no big deal for me. Caine filmed us drinking it thinking it'd be hilarious, but I did tell him it's nothing exciting.

I live such an amazing life huh? lol.

[MrsBennington-Delson]

do you got pussy beer down under? xD lol

 

hehe is that vid available for public? xP

[Peterdea]

do you got pussy beer down under? xD lol

 

hehe is that vid available for public? xP

beer... i hate the shit... tastes horrible. pussy beer is just boring lol. lite.... zzzZZZzzz

 

the video is on Caine's phone. I'll ask if he's got it next time I see him if it's important that you see it.

[MrsBennington-Delson]

beer... i hate the shit... tastes horrible. pussy beer is just boring lol. lite.... zzzZZZzzz

 

the video is on Caine's phone. I'll ask if he's got it next time I see him if it's important that you see it.

lite ?? well u're right but theres also a uhm well not lite but still pussy beer kinda thing xD at least we got taht over here ^^ its tequila flavoured beer it has 5,9%

 

yes me wants ^_^

[Peterdea]

well assuming Caine wasn't bored by it... It shouldn't be too hard to obtain.

[MrsBennington-Delson]

well assuming Caine wasn't bored by it... It shouldn't be too hard to obtain.

gooooood

[Peterdea]

Going to the rugby today. Not really the coolest thing for me but still, it'll be pretty good.

Got a lot of Smashing Pumpkins music, I lost all mine in a virus... lol