alright man I can tell you exactly what it is that bothers me.
There's a girl that really cares about you and that looked forward to finally meet you after one year and she was willing to give everything up for you if she would've had to.
And then like 2 weeks before you meet you go and tell her..I'm sorry I can't come...i feel like I wanna stay home....and oh yeah btw...I fell in love with a girl here ...so things between us won't work out.
So you basically break her heart and she has to go through probably one of the hardest weeks in her life.
And you just come in this thread here and say things like "Oh hey I feel great, I had an awesome day"...
And you say that like 3 days after you broke her heart
that's really disrespecfull if you ask me.
Sounds like you don't even care about how you made her feel.