haha!! lol :lol:
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oh well this is fucked up I gotta confess... just when I thought everythings great and no one could ever fuck me it what happend? yes it happend -.-
It's about Dan of course... yesterday I went out and saw him which was, of course, first a weird feeling but I didn't care much bc I was hangin out with my girls and had fun, and we even danced! It was shitloads of fun BUT then... we were about to leave and I went to the guys to say bye; Dan of course too... we hugged said bye and said a few words (I unfortunely can't remeber -.-) but like very friendship like not like "yeh go fuck you" or something (lol) well anyways... when I walked out with my girls my mood started sinkin from "uber-happy-let's-party-everythings-great" to "Dan-you-are-an-asshole-I-hate-you" (well not literarly but meh..) I was actually dancing in the streets we where on the way to the place where our parents were about to pic us up and shout "Asshole! you fuckin asshole!!" which honestly I have to say was probably looking pretty funny but it was just a way for me to get rid of all that aggression I kinda had inside suddenly...
anyways a few minutes later Hüfti and Sabrina got picked up from their parents and Vika and I were waiting for my dad to come... and what happend? yes I was close to tears... I didn't cry untill I came home which means I cried last night and even this morning...
so to sum everything up: I've seen Dan which I was freakin scared of, didn't care at first but when I left it kinda hit me... so right now I actually don't know if I just want him back or if I maybe even still do care about him (=am in love) but just can't face it to myself and yeh...
I hate it... -.-