[Chapter 1]
Everything is blurry. The black object sways in my hand, pointed at my face, I can barely keep from shaking. My eyes are half open, as the light in my cold, lonely apartment room hurts. "**** it", I say to myself. I grip the cold black, metal object that will end it all. My head whips to the left and I almost fall off my chair, "Is someone there? Hello?" It's starting to get bad now. I can barely keep my head still. What makes it worse is the whole room is spinning. A rainbow is starting to outline what I see through my eyes. Something moved again, I am sure. "Who the **** is there?", my words slurred. I put my hand on the arm of the chair to get up. As I turn, my body goes limp and I fall. The gun falls out of my hand. I stumble getting up, "I gotta gun!" I pick up the 9mm Pistol I bought from a guy at the factory two years ago. I look into my bedroom there is no one there. As I scan the room I see her picture. Paige. My exgirlfriend. The wild girl, who made me become a drug and sex addict. I grab her picture and roll it into a ball. If it wasn't for her I would still be at college earning a degree, so I could make a living. I make my way, stumbling, back to the chair. My head is starting to feel worse and I am sweating. The odd thing I love the feeling and don't want it to end. The only thing that bothers me is I have taken many pills before and this is the first time my stomach feels like it is about to blow up. Other than that I am loving the feeling, but hate everything and everyone. I look directly at the tip of the gun, its loaded and ready. Everythings starting to go black, I start breathing heavy. "****!" I am about to pass out. I point the gun between my eyes. I put the finger on the trigger and take one last breath. I pull. *click* "****, empty..." I pass out and fall to the floor.