My Greatest Dream in Life
- Thread starter wez
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Well, after careful consideration of how to make my dream come true, I've concluded that I'll start making payments now on a retirement kennel at an animal shelter.. and with a bit of luck... I'll get dementia by then. Well on my way.. shouldn't be a problem.
Hope they feed and hose me down now and again...yay me.
Hope they feed and hose me down now and again...yay me.
phreakwars
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All my hopes and dreams were shattered back in 97' by a ***** named Jacky Strong.
I have no ambitions in life, other then to see my baby, Madison, again one day.
***** anything else in life. Nothing is more important to me, even my own life.
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I have no ambitions in life, other then to see my baby, Madison, again one day.
***** anything else in life. Nothing is more important to me, even my own life.
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phreakwars
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No, I'd rather not. All it does is stir up underlying rages, and depression that I have. It's best for my own personal mental health that I let it go. Even though that is almost impossible. I have not been the same since. I've had enough medication and therapy to try and cope over the years. I have trained myself to remain complacent to some degree, but my overall mental focus has been forever inhibited because of it, it is beyond my mental capacity to overcome it, no matter how much I wish to. I actually really wish I could, I was a straight A student, scored 1362 on my S.A.T.'s, and had many ambitions in my life. But now I live with the reality of PTSD and I hate it. It has a tendency to interfere with my life when I don't want it to. It is beyond my control and that burdens me, but worse, humiliates me, because I know it takes over who I really am..
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sheik-yerbouti
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My dream is to win the European Lottery. The last one had a first prize of ?100,000,000. Not sure how much that is in the colonies.
Then I'll buy a nice eatery/hotel in NH for Caron, and a room full of medical books for Wez,together with a ginger tom cat called Marmalade.
Then I'll buy off that beetch Bender knows. The deal is she gets a fistful of the green stuff for signing over Bender's daughter.
TJ gets a new bible, and a free placement at a local charm school, together with some coaching in English comprehension. That ought to make him a likely candidate for re admittance to BS.
There will be of course, a bendy boned nympho for Hugo with a masters degree in sexual naughtiness, and a penchant for ball licking.
I'm thinking Chi would like a new dress or two. For Em, I'll buy a Canadian ice hockey team, and her own stretch of prime salmon fishing river.
Snaf gets a huge boat to start up his new career as a charter skipper offering halibut fishing for the tourists.
Old Salt gets a spent battleship moored somewhere pretty.
Royal Orleans gets a helicopter gunship, fitted out with a bazooka with a wide ejection port
No idea what Eddo wants !
I just want a cold beer under a coconut tree in the land of smiles, and a view which goes on forever toward The Bay of Bengal.
Then I'll buy a nice eatery/hotel in NH for Caron, and a room full of medical books for Wez,together with a ginger tom cat called Marmalade.
Then I'll buy off that beetch Bender knows. The deal is she gets a fistful of the green stuff for signing over Bender's daughter.
TJ gets a new bible, and a free placement at a local charm school, together with some coaching in English comprehension. That ought to make him a likely candidate for re admittance to BS.
There will be of course, a bendy boned nympho for Hugo with a masters degree in sexual naughtiness, and a penchant for ball licking.
I'm thinking Chi would like a new dress or two. For Em, I'll buy a Canadian ice hockey team, and her own stretch of prime salmon fishing river.
Snaf gets a huge boat to start up his new career as a charter skipper offering halibut fishing for the tourists.
Old Salt gets a spent battleship moored somewhere pretty.
Royal Orleans gets a helicopter gunship, fitted out with a bazooka with a wide ejection port
No idea what Eddo wants !
I just want a cold beer under a coconut tree in the land of smiles, and a view which goes on forever toward The Bay of Bengal.
I know the feeling.. All too well. I lived a lie for 20 years to prove to myself I wasn't living a lie.. hahaha.. wtf?
It was beyond my mental capacity to cope any longer and understand as well and it wasn't until I lost control of my emotions after not sleeping for 6 days and woke up in a psych ward in Fargo N.D. on my birthday that it began to make sense.
The only way for me was total forgivness.. For everything.. for everyone.. Mostly myself. It's not like it was a conscious decision either.. Quite the opposite. It just hit me like a ton of bricks.. Forced it's way out of somewhere. All the sudden I was at peace with everything that ever happened in my life and knew I was the only one to blame for all of my pain, And forgave myself.. And got out of my lie/life and went back to school. Still a work in progress and always will be.. Hard not to let 20 years of self induced pain creep back in sometimes but fortunately it doesn't last for eternity anymore. Hope I never go back there again.. Not fun to live in a black hole feeling all alone.
I have vague memories of that week of no sleep.. Telling (Sasha) " I just want my life to be real" Begging her to just stop the nonsense.. I told her I was dying.. and I was.. But alas, wasn't meant to be.. She could never willingly give up the "power" I gave her over me and I couldn't lie to myself or shut up anymore.. So I took it away, and said goodbye.. And I'm sorry.
You know.. If it wasn't for Hugo I never woulda made it.. I owe that man my life.. Literally. One little thing he said to me was all it took.. "Wez is a dumbass"..
... His first words to me... My very first visit to an online forum...He was right... I was a dumbass.. Not that I aint anymore.. Just a happier dumbass, thanks to him.. hahahaha
Best of luck to you Bender.. Try not be too hard on yourself.. After all.. we're only human.
ImWithStupid
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Would that be, "Who's the Boss", Alyssa Milano or "Poison Ivy 2", Alyssa Milano?Pretty sure eddo would be happy with a pizza, burrito, 12 pack of Coke, a day of Nascar and Alyssa Milano.. Right eddo?
hugo
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I missed my calling. Should have been a shrink. I could listen to someone for an hour then reply "Your problem is you are a dumbass. That will be $100."You know.. If it wasn't for Hugo I never woulda made it.. I owe that man my life.. Literally. One little thing he said to me was all it took.. "Wez is a dumbass"..
He was right... I was a dumbass.. Not that I aint anymore.. Just a happier dumbass, thanks to him.. hahahaha
ImWithStupid
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That's pretty much all Dr. Phil does and he's made millions off of it.