Hyper
mature.
- Joined
- Dec 13, 2004
- Location
- Phoenix, Arizona
So this is just a conversation from AIM i had with a good friend.
About my current situation in life.
Do me a favor, do not send her an IM.
only myself {UNITED BY FIRE} if that
I'm posting this here for that reason..
it's very long.
United by Fire: rawr
CassieLurvesYou: Heyy.
United by Fire: what's up?
CassieLurvesYou: Nothing really, you?
United by Fire: a lot
CassieLurvesYou: Oh?
CassieLurvesYou: How was your night out with Felicia?
United by Fire: oh that was absolutely great. i'm falling hecka fast for this girl, and she's fallin hecka fast for me. it's great. but she's not the problem, in fact, if it weren't for her being in my life, i'd be hecka depressed.
CassieLurvesYou: Oh, well all of that sounds great, lol. :]
United by Fire: lol..
CassieLurvesYou: So then what's up?
United by Fire: okay, here it goes.
CassieLurvesYou: Ok.
United by Fire: now, i know you know for a fact, that when jackie and i broke up, i changed.
CassieLurvesYou: Yes.
United by Fire: now, mostly because i had fallen hard for her, really hard. and by the end of the relationship, we started messing around.. sexually.
CassieLurvesYou: Yeah, see that. . didn't know. Haha.
United by Fire: well you do now
CassieLurvesYou: Yes.
United by Fire: and so we cut that off right away. as soon as we broke up, we drifted apart, and then boom, she was with bryan. well, me, being the arrogant male i am, i was still curious, regarding all the sexual things we'd done. so naturally, and stereotypically, i wanted to do it more.
United by Fire: therein lies the problem.
United by Fire: see, i don't know if you know this, but didi wanted to be with me before she wanted to be with brandon {yes, this is about them}
CassieLurvesYou: Yeah, i had heard about that vaguely.
United by Fire: so, she started all this dirty talk blah blah blah, i ended up giving in, she became the second person i messed arond with. this was before her and brandon started dating, no harm no foul. so, after her and brandon started dating, i pretty much called it quits with didi {hence the whole brianna fiasco}
CassieLurvesYou: Wow, didn't know that either. But okay.
United by Fire: well, apparently he didn't satisfy her like that. now, i bet you don't know this, but she isn't a virgin. well, she started wanting to do things again, which, her having a boyfriend, made me not want to do it. ESPECIALLY because her boyfriend is brandon. well, that didn't stop her, she was persistent. and then, brandon and i got into an argument. because he repeatedly used me just to see her, that sparked the bigger problem.
United by Fire: so, once that happened, i gave in to didi. i know, i'm a horrible person blahblah, i've condemned myself enough for those action
United by Fire: she cheated on brandon twice. with me.
United by Fire: at least twice*
United by Fire: i don't care to go back and specifically remember how many tims i betrayed a best friend
CassieLurvesYou: Waaaiiiit.
United by Fire: but this was already after he started hating on me. so i was.. hating him back, and that's how i ended up backstabbing him.
CassieLurvesYou: So, okay. I get Didi's not a virgin. Yeah, that's a shocker. Are you saying that you and her had sex? Or you just fooled around some more. .
United by Fire: no. i am still a virgin. something she's wanted to change for a while. we did nothing more than what jackie/brianna and i did
United by Fire: anyways
United by Fire: so that happened. and then i called it quits again. i started coming to my senses. knowing that brandon would not forgive me for it, ever, but i couldn't keep this going.
United by Fire: so i stopped.
United by Fire: the day i told her that, marks the day that brandon got pissed off at me again. that day where didi brought up jackie, and when he was pissed because of how i treated her, that was her reacting against my not wanting to continue that
United by Fire: but by this time it was too late. brandon was already more whipped than an S&M fanatic.
United by Fire: i figured that out, so i didn't tell him.
United by Fire: and apparently, unbeknownst to me, she told me to keep it quiet, and she would do the same, as along as i never spoke to her about it.
United by Fire: fine, i decided not doing anything, and.. well, not tlaking about it, it would all go away
United by Fire: i promptly stopped texting didi
United by Fire: so, today she te\ts me for the first time
United by Fire: in a while
United by Fire: and she starts asking provocative questions, so i said *jokingly* oh yes, i'm so extremely horny
CassieLurvesYou signed off at 11:32:05 PM.
United by Fire: ooh
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About my current situation in life.
Do me a favor, do not send her an IM.
only myself {UNITED BY FIRE} if that
I'm posting this here for that reason..
it's very long.
United by Fire: rawr
CassieLurvesYou: Heyy.
United by Fire: what's up?
CassieLurvesYou: Nothing really, you?
United by Fire: a lot
CassieLurvesYou: Oh?
CassieLurvesYou: How was your night out with Felicia?
United by Fire: oh that was absolutely great. i'm falling hecka fast for this girl, and she's fallin hecka fast for me. it's great. but she's not the problem, in fact, if it weren't for her being in my life, i'd be hecka depressed.
CassieLurvesYou: Oh, well all of that sounds great, lol. :]
United by Fire: lol..
CassieLurvesYou: So then what's up?
United by Fire: okay, here it goes.
CassieLurvesYou: Ok.
United by Fire: now, i know you know for a fact, that when jackie and i broke up, i changed.
CassieLurvesYou: Yes.
United by Fire: now, mostly because i had fallen hard for her, really hard. and by the end of the relationship, we started messing around.. sexually.
CassieLurvesYou: Yeah, see that. . didn't know. Haha.
United by Fire: well you do now
CassieLurvesYou: Yes.
United by Fire: and so we cut that off right away. as soon as we broke up, we drifted apart, and then boom, she was with bryan. well, me, being the arrogant male i am, i was still curious, regarding all the sexual things we'd done. so naturally, and stereotypically, i wanted to do it more.
United by Fire: therein lies the problem.
United by Fire: see, i don't know if you know this, but didi wanted to be with me before she wanted to be with brandon {yes, this is about them}
CassieLurvesYou: Yeah, i had heard about that vaguely.
United by Fire: so, she started all this dirty talk blah blah blah, i ended up giving in, she became the second person i messed arond with. this was before her and brandon started dating, no harm no foul. so, after her and brandon started dating, i pretty much called it quits with didi {hence the whole brianna fiasco}
CassieLurvesYou: Wow, didn't know that either. But okay.
United by Fire: well, apparently he didn't satisfy her like that. now, i bet you don't know this, but she isn't a virgin. well, she started wanting to do things again, which, her having a boyfriend, made me not want to do it. ESPECIALLY because her boyfriend is brandon. well, that didn't stop her, she was persistent. and then, brandon and i got into an argument. because he repeatedly used me just to see her, that sparked the bigger problem.
United by Fire: so, once that happened, i gave in to didi. i know, i'm a horrible person blahblah, i've condemned myself enough for those action
United by Fire: she cheated on brandon twice. with me.
United by Fire: at least twice*
United by Fire: i don't care to go back and specifically remember how many tims i betrayed a best friend
CassieLurvesYou: Waaaiiiit.
United by Fire: but this was already after he started hating on me. so i was.. hating him back, and that's how i ended up backstabbing him.
CassieLurvesYou: So, okay. I get Didi's not a virgin. Yeah, that's a shocker. Are you saying that you and her had sex? Or you just fooled around some more. .
United by Fire: no. i am still a virgin. something she's wanted to change for a while. we did nothing more than what jackie/brianna and i did
United by Fire: anyways
United by Fire: so that happened. and then i called it quits again. i started coming to my senses. knowing that brandon would not forgive me for it, ever, but i couldn't keep this going.
United by Fire: so i stopped.
United by Fire: the day i told her that, marks the day that brandon got pissed off at me again. that day where didi brought up jackie, and when he was pissed because of how i treated her, that was her reacting against my not wanting to continue that
United by Fire: but by this time it was too late. brandon was already more whipped than an S&M fanatic.
United by Fire: i figured that out, so i didn't tell him.
United by Fire: and apparently, unbeknownst to me, she told me to keep it quiet, and she would do the same, as along as i never spoke to her about it.
United by Fire: fine, i decided not doing anything, and.. well, not tlaking about it, it would all go away
United by Fire: i promptly stopped texting didi
United by Fire: so, today she te\ts me for the first time
United by Fire: in a while
United by Fire: and she starts asking provocative questions, so i said *jokingly* oh yes, i'm so extremely horny
CassieLurvesYou signed off at 11:32:05 PM.
United by Fire: ooh
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