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...495... lol..? xD

Well, I generally don't really mind if someone is smoking...since I was also kinda smoking back then...but I would pretty much mind if my bf smoked... Yeah, thanks...=) I'm also still waiting for results of that theory exam I'm failing, lol...w/e... Oh, you were horse riding? Didn't know that...nice...

...493... Omg, hahahahaha...I have nothing like that...lol...xD

...491... Omg, a ceiling cat...o.0 Stop scaring me...xD

...489... Ah, Jess, don't play an innocent girl...=P

I'm okay...getting a bit sleepy already, though...at least my eyes are...

...486... Ah, the horny people of LPF...=))

Jos, cute cutie...^^ FireHawk...it's awesome that it's mustang...but too bad I don't like that kinda shape at all, lol...=P Maja...fun pics...and your hair really is huuuge...o.0

Update: Today we got the results of the Friday's exam...I got it 40/90 points... Now, the sum of the everything at this subject is 118 points...it's a bit complicated so I'm not gonna explain to you everything...but the main thing is that tomorrow morning I'm going to see the professor and ask him if I can participate in the theory exam next week...if not...well, then I'm gonna have to take the whole exam over again and shit and I don't want that at all...so I hope all goes well... The weekend was pretty much interesting... On Saturday I went to the riding club where I used to ride all those years...I helped with the preparations for the competition which took place here on Sunday...I was really tired...I mean, I'm not used to working like that anymore...but it's okay...gotta start with that again, hehe... So on Sunday (yesterday) I went to that competiton to help around but I ended up helping Urban (my former trainer and the owner of the horses I was riding for about 5 years...) and one girl with the horses Urban is riding now...like 3 of them, lol...it was actually nice to be in touch with him again since we haven't seen eachother for quite a while...and we used to be very close back then...ah, the good times... However, it ended like that that we came up with the idea that I could ride there as well...the thing is that this 60-year-old man (Darko) has a lot of horses...8 of them are for riding...and only 4 riders...and horses aren't so bad at all... So yeah, I'm gonna start riding there...hopefully next week...the club is located around 15-20 km from my home...it's not too far but still...it is worth it, though...after all, I'll be riding for free (at least I think so, lol)... I can't wait!^^ Oh, and now to the most shocking thing that happened to me this weekend... Yesterday I got this message on my cell phone from a guy I know...who is also my neighbour kinda...the message was something like that: "Hei! I just wanted to tell you I like you and stuff...and I want to know if you'd be with me " After I read that I was just like wtf and then just like started laughing my ass off!! I mean, I still can't believe he sent me this...who on earth is still writing shit like that at the age of 20?!? It's just so hardcore directly written and Idk... Okay, I must admit, I was suspecting he might be starting to like me so it was not such a surprise but anyway...blah...x) I wrote him back that I can't say anything right now and that we should talk about it and stuff... The thing is that right now I'm not ready for any kind of real relationship...cuz of Mitja, of course...I mean, what happened with Mitja was just too much...actually I'm kinda scared to get into a close relationship (emotionally) cuz I feel like I'm not in a state when I could trust and believe to someone...it's just like that... Plus, there are quite some other things about that guy...1st he's smoking and I find that gross (I mean kissing and shit...yuck...)...2nd he's very calm...and I feel like I need a more lively guy beside me...3rd he's my neighbour and not sure that's so good, lol...blah blah... Whatever, I just know I'm not able to be with him...at least not right now... Oh, and I went to see Randi and her foal yesterday! I saw her after almost a year! It was a very emotional time for me...at one point I just felt like crying but I hold myself back...awww, she's such a sweetheart...of course she's not as beautiful as she used to be cuz noone is grooming her and stuff but I'm sure she's enjoying her retirement...=) And her little baby...he's so cute...<3 Awww, it really was nice...^^ I hope it was not the last time I saw her... Anyway, that's enough for now...be good...

Good luck with the studying and the exams!^^ *hugs*

Ah, congratz for going to the concert! Happy for you...^^

Thank you...^^ Update: Well...actually, it went pretty well...the exam wasn't so hard...so there's still hope for me...and I'm in a good mood...^^ Plus, I'm going home to Celje today...Idk why, but I'm sick of Maribor right now...=P

I'm a bit tired but okay nontheless...

The Poet and the Pendulum - Nightwish

Exactly! If that wasn't the case, I wouldn't have one... However, it's nice to see a new journal...enjoy it...=)

Sweet, Frib, I'm happy for you...^^ And concerts in August...that's so awesome!

You have to get to that concert...don't let them stop you... Ah, good luck with that exam...=) Oh, and I think anyone thinks about something else than exam when there's an word "oral"...=P

Thank you, Jossy... ^^ *hugs back* It's hard for me to think like that since I'm not a very egoistic person...so I'm not dealing with it like that...but yeah, thanks for an advice anyway... Update: I was at uni for the while day today...from 9am till 8pm...not cuz I would have to...but cuz some of us gathered together and were doing homework and studying Discreet structures for tomorrow's exam...oh yeah, it was exhausting...I still have to go through some theory though...and then studying again tomorrow morning from 8am till the exam which is at 2pm... Oh well, wish me luck for that one...I'm really really gonna need it...

...299... Uhm...cuz we have nothing to say really..?

Why thank you...^^ Yeah, for sure...=)

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Heh, he's gone for about a year so no, he won't come back...and he didn't run away...I don't know...he simply disappeared...=/ I got a feeling I'm gonna get myself a cat somewhere soon though...=) Awww...yes, in our minds...^^

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Update: Uhm...I think it was Saturday night...I had an emotional breakdown... The situation was something like that: Mitja started the chat with me on msn...and when I talk to him I still feel kinda bad...so I did once again...and then a song "Hate Me" from Blue October came up on my winamp cuz I had it on shuffle...I love that song...it's so fuckin great...if you don't know it, listen to it... However...I really listened to it...and then suddenly the whole thing made me burst into tears...I was just so sad and Idk...I could relate to the song so much and it also made me realise that I'm not even close to getting over Mitja...I miss our relationship...miss him...it was simply too much to get it over just like that... So...I talked to Mitja...told him I'm crying...he asked me: "You still haven't got over us, right?"...I answered: "I guess that really not..."...and then I told him I still feel bad when we talk...or when I come in touch with anything relating to him...he said that he felt that and that that's why he haven't been clicking me on msn a lot... Then I told him what's really been killing me all that time...that is the fact that he always seemed like he's totally got over me and felt nothing towards me...he told me that he kinda got a bit over me before he even left me...naturally, he had more time...plus, he wasn't shocked like I was...BUT...no, he's still not completelly got over us and stuff...he explained me a lot...I felt much better knowing he still has some feelings for me...even though that seems a bit selfish but hey, it's how I feel...plus I don't feel so weird anymore...questioning myself what's in his head and stuff... At the end...he said he's going to sleep cuz it was too much...he felt bad too...and I actually apologized to him...for bringing it up, I guess... Oh yeah, and we kinda got to a conclusion that maybe for some time it would be better if we wouldn't talk...it would be easier for us...and really, I haven't seen him online on msn for 2 days now...I'm just afraid that we're gonna part too much and therefore never be friends anymore...I don't want to lose a person like he is...even though he broke my heart...he's still a good person and friend... Meh...I better stop with that shit...only making myself to feel bad again... However, for the last week, I haven't been sleeping really well...have been waking up early...and the last few days having troubles with getting asleep (even at fuckin' 2am)...I don't really know why, though...I guess the whole thing right now has an effect on me... Uni is doing okay...for now...today we had this little exam at Programming...I think I did fairly well...but we'll see... On Friday and then the next week we're having the 3rd/last round of part exams...if all go well, I'll finish all of the subjects...so wish me luck with that...but there's a big possibility I'm gonna fail at Discreet Structures...but even that's not gonna be a disaster...I mean, having only one subject left for the summer to pass is great actually...most of the students have a lot of work left for the summer... Oh, and one more thing...Cavalera Conspiracy are comming to Maribor to that club we usually go to dance and stuff on 12th June...and at 1st we were all like: "We have to go!" but I'm afraid the ticket is a bit too expensive for us right now...27€...I know it would be awesome to see Max and shit but...I'd be broke then...again...so Nina and me kinda decided today that we're not going... Possibly you don't know about that band cuz it's fairly new...they released their 1st album this year...check it out...there're like the Cavalera brothers, the guitarist from Soulfly...and one another guy...I think...w/e...I'm not really that familiar with that scene too much actually... Anyway, that was a pretty long update...sorry for it...if you read it all, you're awesome...=) I'm off to bed now...it's 1am...hope I'll fall asleep soon...'night!

Aww, Jos was drunk...^^ =P Nice you're having such a great time... Hmmm, about Fish...Idk what to say...but somehow I'm not having a good feeling about him... And, I gotta say...it's good you're staying away from the computer/internet...I know it's weird for me saying that but it's a fact...don't get me wrong though...I love seeing you here...