MrsBennington-Delson

wtfh????? geez that be like all day long orgasms? isnt that girl exhaustet in some way? O.o

Uhm for 3 weeks... but I got Sat and Sun free and Mon-Thu I gotta work from 6am-2:15pm and on Fri just till 12pm Today was actually fun. I had to do some more stuff than I did yesterday but thats good bc the time flies by so quickly ^^ And I was talkin to my bro who is also working there (but just this week since he already worked 3) and he was like "Your aim is to gain money and not work" which is actually true... bc they don't have much work so you actually do some job you need like maybe 20mins for you finish it in 2hrs lool and considering all that I get a looot of money... for actually doing "nothing" if I may say so... haha yeh I guess you can ^^ I mean we all know you arent gay lol so its ok So btw that guy (Martin) wanted to meet me while I'm on holidays and off from school... like go shopping together or visite the Legoland... but dunno... I mean he's really nice and I like him but I honestly gotta say that I don't feel very comfortable thinking of meeting him or like lets say doing something with him by myself :S I wouldnt mind meeting him at some party but like dunno... is that normal? O.o Oh and I got all Sims 2 Expansionpacks :D:D hehe besides of IKEA-Acessories or how its called ^^ and in like a month or so the new one (Appartment Lifes) will be released and I'll get it hehe So yeah you actually can see me being histerically happy about that xD lol And right now I'm drinkin a scottish soft drink which is very yummie and originally from Scotland ^^ my bro got it when he was there at the beginning of august... its called IrnBru. If you ever get to drink it you should try... it tastes like bubblegumm lol At last I decided to make a new sig for myself and thought maybe of a revival of my "colord jos" sig... maybe you remember it dunno... doesnt matter... but dont think that Im doing it bc I think im so freakin beautiful or smexy or something I more like doing it bc I want other ppl and newbies to know who I am and shiznit... lol whatever >.< *sings* Now you're gooone, I realize my love for you was strooong and I miss you here now you're gooone x)

Tired -.- gaahh...

Yeah thanks a lot for em ^-^ I saw it x] I know! I mean I'm not even talking anything about him or something, I don't get it either But for me it's deffo over... no feelings at all for him... Imma say I might would love him again if he'd want to date me or so but I dont wanna talk about what might could be bc we're all living in the here and now not in the there and tomorrow... that actually rhymes ^^ lool Well I can't really tell you a job... but I'm working in a metal company and they do trollies mostly but also other stuff... maybe you know it its called Wanzl... you should check your trolly when you're going shopping somewhere, there might be Wanzl written on it, since they even send trollies out to Australia ^^ So yeah my first day was quite ok... bit boring since I didnt have to do much... uhm my feet hurt bc of those security shoes we gotta wear or whatever x] What else... oh yeah I'm still chattin with that guy I've met on the train like 2 months ago or so and uhm thats him if you wanna know: http://i141.photobucket.com/albums/r50/draco-jojo/martin.jpg this might not be the best pic but yeh ^^ lol thats pretty much it

Aw sounds great ^^ nice that you had fun and hehe bout your herpes x] poor you and Jure ^^ lol

Thanks everyone <3

oh jesus lol well Imma check it which one it is and then send it to you

So they're up on facebook too ^^ Now the review(I'll keep the thing about croatia short since there wasnt anything huge happening): well it was great! the weather was amazing and the water warm every day I barely went out although I wanted to go out every evening ^^ lol I dont wanna blame my friend who was with me but she was never in the mood to go somewhere... but well its not that bad Ok so uhm I got to know this one girl living close to Munich and I first thought it'd be cool and stuff but it turned out almost like hell -.- She was so annoying! She was talking so much unbelievable shit that I was just like "ah yeh sure"... well anyways we went out one night and met some guys. one of them is actually living very close to my city which was great so yeah the thing tho was the she got to go out with them and I didnt... its not bc the guys didnt want me to go with them it was bc that girl, called Julia, was telling them that I have a headache and cant go bc of that, and ok that was true but they went out almost every day or at least meet each other at the beach or so and she just asked me like 2-3 times if I wanna go with them and those times I really couldnt... and yeah for some recent reasons and problems I've been having with my old friends and stuff I just didnt care much bout them and bout meeting the guys or so since they knew where I was at so they could have come and ask me themselves. But fortunately I've been mailing Jakob, that guy who lives close to me, and I explained him that I didnt like Julia and that its not their fault and stuff bc he and the other guys seemed very nice, and he said that he and the others liked me to and also were always asking for me but Julia was always saying something like that I'm in pain or soemthing so I cant go. So yeh... I wrote him then "well we both know the 2 clubs empire and w3. so maybe we'll see each other sometime there" and then he answered "yeah for sure! we can hang out together then of course" and that made me kinda happy bc he's showing that he'd like to hang out with me or whatever ^_^ lol well we'll see but dont get me wrong I dont wanna date him or anything just to clear things up... Im actually not in the mood to date anyone or anything... maybe thats better ^^ Well now lets go back into my past... My neighbor and good friend Elena was freaking happy about me being back because she was missing me soooooooooo much as she says lol well anyways we were talking bout stuff that has been happening here and since her bf broke up with her like a week ago and stuff we kind started talking bout guys well I said that Eschi (old friend of mine and stuff I guess you already know him lol) was chatting with me and stuff and that he started talking about Fish and how he had an accident but is all good. And then she told me that recently she was at a friends bday party and Fish was there too... and she was asking him what has been with me back then and why it didnt work out, and he said that he really liked me a lot and that I really ment something to him and that he knows that he hurt me a lot and that he's really sorry bout that. He also said that he didnt want to date me bc he had the feeling that it wouldnt work so he didnt want to hurt me if he'd break up (if we would date each other) and then she said that sometimes you just gotta try and maybe it works out, and he was like "yeah but I would have the feeling that it wont work out and then I'd hurt her." I'm not sure what to think about all that anymore... you know its now like the 3rd or 4th time that whenever this topic seems to be forgotten someone has to bring it up again! and like the best thing is that everyone is asking him and always first talking to him and then telling me what he said and shit I really dont see the logic behind all that. Plus, I also said that to Elena yesterday, that its all sweet and nice if he liked me that much and if hes really sorry bout hurting me but why aint he saying that right into my face? and honestly... idk... I kinda have the feeling that he cant let that go for some reason... I mean idk... Its like he's having 2 selfs and one is like the "official" Fish everyone knows as the big seductor or macho or wahtever and the other one is the real him... its actually like Golum from LOTR O.o well whatever... I think I'll never get to know the truth about what he really feels for me or idk what... and Im not even sure if I want to know it... Im not even confident enough to go to him and just once talk and finally clear things up... I seriously dont know what I should do... well anyways my summer holidays were great! and the few days in Zagreb too Tomorrow Im starting work and I actually cant wait although I wasnt too exited bout it ^^ lol Right now Ill go take a shower and then go to see Vika my besht frend so see ya =D =/

hmm well maybe your mum is right? =S dunno... I think you should think about that and decide yourself bc as I use to say no matter what you decide it'll be good since its your decision =)

no not yet but I'll prolly upload them today

nice pics Di! =) lol @ your shirt Tomer x] heh aaww so sweet LP_Soldier ^^ That piercing suits you Sarah =) looking great! mooooost recent of teh moi =) http://img50.imageshack.us/img50/5470/dsc02299gd0.th.jpg

Update coming tomorrow (or lets say today since its almost 1am x]) since I'm too tired to write that much right now ^^ hehe You're welcome! I thought since I wasnt able to send you some lp shirt or so I at least could send you a post card oh and I unfortunately didnt get you a shirt or something bc I figured that there were no LP shirts or anything related to LP and I wasnt sure if you'd like to wear a croatia shirt (like with the map of croatia on it or soemthing) =/ sowwy so uhm yeah Im back and I got some pics up on myspace http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=129457117&albumId=1944467 or here: http://www.wiealt.de/index.php?show=usr&id=41395 I prolly wont be uploading any on photobucket bc its takin too long etc ^^ hehe me lazy ass

uh yeah new phone ^^ great! and cool pics!! seems like you guys had a fun time btw is now everything cool with you and Jure again?

good a tad tired ^^

lol shveet ^^

Aw Di =( *hugs* Imma agree with the other ones try to think of something happy more often and stuff...

haha sounds great! I know how much this means to you so its really awesome

thanks guys well Im back on sat or sunday, so a looong update and new pics then!!

thanks well Im still in croatia but now in Zagreb staying at my friends going to a cafe soon so I just dropped by to say im all alive and great and shiz and yeah Ill check lpf when I got some more time so see yall!! wuvs

aaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwww ok ok Imma stop haha you too are soooooooo cute *__* <3 ^-^

aaww lookin so cute you two ^-^ makes me wanna tackle hug you guys xD lol jk jk ^^ lol good to see you happy

LOL that convo is way too genius :lol: LMAO

thanks lol

Yesterday I've been to a disco called Empire... it's like the 2nd around here besides of W3 where I usually go to. Well it was great! The disco is so big and the main floor is so freakin smexy great music and everything! The evening started fucked up tho bc the security guy was kinda bitching at one of my friends bc you usually have to give him your ID card and then pick it up when you leave but he gave it back to her so she asked confused if he doesnt want to take it and he was like "Well if you're too stupid to shut up" and grabbed her ID card... I was like wtf?? O.o Well after that everything else went great we were dancing and yeh... drinking lol I had 3 bottles of Desperados (Tequila falvourd Beer *__*) and idk why but I've been kinda drunk x] well dunno... one bottle has 5,9% alcohol and yeh... dunno LOL after that the girls came over at mine's and we were sitting outside just chilling... one of them lives right next to me and one's were also just a few streets farther away so it was no problem for them going home at like 2am or so ^^ so yeah its been cool Today I've been just chilling at the laptop all day lol Deleting Sims Clothes and shiz and yeh... in the afternoon my friend Carina was over and we were chilling together watching vids of Jeff Dunham on youtube, cool dude you should check him out :thumbsup: and then a bit later I finally managed to pimp my dads surfboard with a hello kitty xD lol I'll try to post a pic tomorrow =) So yeah tomorrow I'm going to the grammar school I'll be going to next year to finally give em my certificate and all those paperstuff they still need from me... and then I gotta pack allready because: I'll be gone for 3 weeks in 2 days. Going on vacation to Croatia <3 Pros: - I'll try to get drunk as much as I can - I'll try to do so with my parents xD lmao - I won't see HIM (by that I mean a male person... the people who know me know whom I'm meaning ^^) all those 3 weeks - I'll spend money on random stuff like necklaces *_* - I'll freakin have fun! - I'll be wanting to have some summer affaires (which prolly won't happen as long as there are no Americanos, Brits or Aussis or maybe even Frenchies =O xP) - I'll do whatever the fuck I want ^_^ Cons: - I don't have my girls with my (yes and mostly I'll miss my neighboriiiiiiiiiiiiin Elle ) - If I get drunk (what will so have to happend) I'm praying that it won't end up like everytime which is either I'm getting aggressiv or I'm all emo (and all that just bc of HIM yep...) - After those 3 weeks I'll have to go working for 3 weeks -. - If I run out of money x.X - If someone txts me I don't want to be txted by xP Oh oh and one more thing I've been still chatting with that guy I met in the train a while ago... and he's pretty cool I like him ^^ he's been also joking and being like "well dont you remember we're married" and that kinda stuff which I kinda like and somehow I'd love to flirt with him and stuff but then again I kinda can't for some reason Idk why... either its bc back in my had Im thinkin like "god he's 22 you can't do that!" or maybe theres something else I dunno... w/e... lol So yeah thats it

Monday My week flew by so fast. I couldn’t even realize what has been happening the past days. Almost a week ago Brad told me that the doctor in the hospital said I’ve been pregnant. I first worried a bit since I just came over here and I’m not sure if it’s that good to already take a break from work and everything but I can’t wait to get my baby! Brad is more than happy about this and is probably more excited than I am haha! The last week I’ve been working at school, visiting the doctor once again to check everything again and make sure that I’m pregnant. Beside of those happy moments I’ve had this past week, I also had a very terrifying one. My mother called and said that one of my good friends was sick and that the docs are not sure if she’s going to make it. It was shocking for me because she’s the only one out of my whole family (besides of my parents and brother) who was there for me whenever I needed help. I’ve also decided that I’ll go over to Europe to be by her side now. “Babe…?” Brad lay down the papers while I was working on my laptop. “Yes hun?” I replied continuing with my work. “Can you take a break from work? Just for a minute?” “Yeah sure… uhm… wait a sec.” I mumbled and typed the last sentence. Saved and pushed the laptop aside. “We know each other for a fair while now right?” “Yeah we do.” I snuggled against him. “And you know I’ve been loving you since I first saw you, right?” “So have I. Now what’s the matter darling?” I looked up at him. “Jos” he stood up from the couch and got down on his knees. I felt my heart racing and butterflies literarily having a race in my stomach. He took my hand “Jos… Would you like to marry me?” My heart exploded, the butterflies in my stomach started to fly around like crazy and in general my insides felt like they were having a huge party. “Brad I... I…” I started to stutter. He looked at me with his sparkling brown eyes, waiting for an answer. I started to cry, sank down on the floor and kissed him. “Brad I love you! And of course I’d like to marry you!” I kissed him once again passionate. “Oh Jos I love you too!” We both hugged and hold each other for a while. We spend the afternoon together lying on the couch doing nothing, just enjoying each other’s presence. Suddenly the phone rang. I stood up and walked towards the kitchen where the phone was hanging. “Delson Fischer.” “Jos is it you darling?” I heard a female voice say. “Yes it’s me. Mama?” “Hey my sweet I have to tell you something.” “What happened Ma?” “It’s because of Kirsten…” I listened to what my mum had to tell me and couldn’t believe my ears. “Ok. I… Listen I’ll try to get a flight as soon as possible.” “Sweetheart listen I know it’s hard for you but don’t get upset too much you know it’s not good for the baby. And rather stay over if it’s not good flying pregnant.” “Mum I… I’ll call you as soon as I know if I’ll be able to fly over ok? Take care of ya love you.” “Ok sweetheart. Take care of you too and great Brad.” I hang up and leaned against the wall. “Jos you ok? What happened?” I couldn’t answer. It felt like I had a rock in my throat. “Jos? Babe?” I heard Brad walk towards me. “Brad I have to leave. I have to go and see Kirsten.” Was all I could get out of my mouth and even that hurt like hell. “What happened?” The rock was still there not wanting to move. My eyes were full of tears as I looked at Brad and started crying. Brad held me so I couldn’t fall even if I fainted. “Mum said that it’s pretty sure that she won’t make it.” “Jesus… Hey… babe… “ he held up my head. “We’ll go together ok? I don’t want to go through that alone.” “Ok…” I sniveled and hugged him. He kissed my head and hugged me tight. And once again my life seemed incomplete and broken. It’s like it’s been in the past: Amazing, touching moments filled with happiness get cover by pain, loneliness and anger. I hoped this will end, this nightmare I can’t get out, but it doesn’t seem like I’m able to. My heart and soul are completely lost but then again found. Maybe this trip back home with my love will brighten up my past and make me face all the pain I’ve been through. Make me stand tall over everything I’ve been through and maybe even make me forget all that. Maybe. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- *So teh Braddles and teh Jos are gone on vacation once again* Bon Voyage lol