.:C'est la vie:.

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Aww cool pics... your friends look nice... you look really grown up! haha xD

oh **** no I look so freaking awefull! xD

lol check out those sexy germans.

hahaha :lol:

 

[diana]

Nice pics...^^

 

[MrsBennington-Delson]

thankies Di ^^

 


oh ****... I got out of bed at like 11:30am or 12 and since then I'm bored and dunno what to do... -.-


and I have no idea what I should do today! My bf is going somewhere blabla so I'll have to bore myself alone muh... lets see...


maybe spamm around on LPF =P nah jk


if I spam something than its my journal xD lol

 

[diana]

Ha ha, girl...I know how it feels, lol...

Go eat...I'm gonna go to lunch now... Oh, or go check my journal...that should take awhile...XD

 

[MrsBennington-Delson]

haha oh well I will go eat something I'm hungry!!!


but I wanna go out too meh...


ok I will ^^ haha *looks* oh yeah that's gonna take a while xD lol

 

 

[diana]

Haha...

Meh, I guess I'm still gonna be hungry for a little while...that restaurant I wanted to go to is closed... I think I'm gonna eat kebap or somethin' later on after school...

 

[MrsBennington-Delson]

I'm still hungry xD lol


I wanna go to the McDonalds but no one wants to go with me :'( lol


uh a kebab would be great too tho!! ^^ yummy lol


you got school?

 

[Sygy]

look at all that f00king booze behind u

 

[diana]

Lol, yeah, I got school...it's the end of the holidays...

Anyway...I'm gonna go and get that kebap soon...and then go out with some school-mates...^^

 

[MrsBennington-Delson]

look at all that f00king booze behind u

its not mine plus we didnt drink it haha ^^

Lol, yeah, I got school...it's the end of the holidays...Anyway...I'm gonna go and get that kebap soon...and then go out with some school-mates...^^

oh poor you


ah coolness hope you have fun!! ^^

 

[MrsBennington-Delson]

New shiz


It's sunday, last day of holidays and tomorrow's school again -.-


So far my holidays were good I might say the best ones I ever had


bout yesterday: wasn't really doing anything, went to this football thingy my bf had, later on went home and I dunno I was kinda down the whole day not just bc I was tired and the weather was ******, also bc I havent really seen my bf since wednesday and it made me meh bc we didnt really have time for each other yesterday... but meh... in the evening I went to the disco with my friend Vika and met some other girls of her... was pretty cool


http://i141.photobucket.com/albums/r50/draco-jojo/999977.jpg


I look kinda strange


whatever lol

 


Today I won't be doing anything... I'm actually supposed to do some stuff for school tomorrow but I don't really feel like doing that plus I know I won't


prolly also won't see my bf bc he has some football thingy again and I have no idea when he'll be home... meh... at least I hope he'll text me later on or something otherwise I'll be like >


yeah I know that's me ^.^ first getting all ****** and then melting away ^.^ lol

 


oh well that's it I guess if there happens anything like WOW I'll let ya know lol

 


cheers


:friends:




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[Sygy]

that girl in the middle has awesome eyes. did u get ur hair highlighted again? it looks to good to be like that still after like 4 months

 

[MrsBennington-Delson]

that girl in the middle has awesome eyes. did u get ur hair highlighted again? it looks to good to be like that still after like 4 months

yeah I cut and highlighted it again a bit last year =P on 31st lol

so yeah I actually wanted to check out lpf and stuff but I cant I feel so freakin bad bc my bf told me that he wants to talk with me and im really kinda scared that he'll break up (what i think he wants) but i dunno... -.-

oh *** whatever **** =(

 

[diana]

Ah...well, I hope it all turn out good for you...

 

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Ah...well, I hope it all turn out good for you...

I hope so too...

I gotta vent a bit... well our convo today was like this (we were chatting):

me: (I first didn't want to write anything but I was hyper and thought it wouldn't be bad so I wrote as a hey a line from a german song going like=) Hello again, I wanna see you again, wanna stand face-to-face with you, cause it was so long aaaaagooo... sorry but I had to do that lol

Dan(10mins later): hey (when he answerd that I knew something was wrong bc he never just is like 'hey' especially if I do something like what I did he'd be more like 'haha hey sweetheart' or something like that...)


me: everything ok?


Dan: Idk... you?


me: hmm well till now good... whats wrong?


Dan: well I gotta talk with you


me: ok thought you'd want to (I knew it bc I had this feeling that I'm suffocating him kinda although I was doing everything I could do not to do that!)


Dan: ...


me: I'm suffocating you right?


Dan: yes a bit... but I wanna talk with you face-to-face


me: ok


Dan: gotta go


me: ok bye


Dan: bye

 


that was it... now I don't know when he wants to talk or anything else... hmm... I was thinkin about it the whole time and I'm not an expert bout relationships or anything but either a) he wants to break up or b) he wants to tell me whats wrong so we could solve the problem and not break up... he actually confused me with that "yes a bit" bc if its just I bit I think he might rather do 'solution' b)... =/


I dunno... I talked to my dad and he said pretty much the same that he allready told me once before...


so yeah... right now I actually feel... well... it hurts but I'm not like "omg if he breaks up its all my fault!! Im so freakin dumb!! I should cut myself and die!" (ok this was maybe a bit hardcore but I hope you get what I mean) I mean yes it hurts if he'll break up bc (although we maybe just know each other for a month) I fell in love with him and stuff but I see this as an experience... people who have been in this kinda situation maybe understand what I wanna say but its not like I'm saying "omg I regret ever being with him, kissing him, makin out with him etc etc etc"


...this all kinda sounds stupid but meh... -.-

 

[diana]

Hmmm...yeah, it cannot really be anything else but those 2 things you wrote...so, go talk to him...

If he breaks up...I'm sure it's gonna hurt but yeah, I'm happy to see how you're thinking...now I'm sure you're gonna be alright...^^

 

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Hmmm...yeah, it cannot really be anything else but those 2 things you wrote...so, go talk to him...If he breaks up...I'm sure it's gonna hurt but yeah, I'm happy to see how you're thinking...now I'm sure you're gonna be alright...^^

well I won't litterarly go and talk to him bc I'll wait untill he tells me when to come etc...


but yeah... oh and he still hasn't called me or anything and it's 7:45pm... if he doesn't give me any sign tomorrow I guess we're done... can't be ****** with running after someone just to be disapointed or something...


sorry all that negative stuff but I just feel like **** atm

 

[Jeezy]

I honestly don't see a reason for him to break up with you...

 

[LPShinodaFM]

1. Your pic is sexy.

Sorry about your bf :[ If he doesn't call you back by today try calling him and asking what's wrong. If he honestly feels like it's just over, then well... i'm here to hug :] But don't just assume that everything's over when he hasn't said it, alright? He might just need a little space, doesn't necessarily mean he wants finish. Good luck my joosss. ;p

 

[diana]

1. Your pic is sexy.
Sorry about your bf :[ If he doesn't call you back by today try calling him and asking what's wrong. If he honestly feels like it's just over, then well... i'm here to hug :] But don't just assume that everything's over when he hasn't said it, alright? He might just need a little space, doesn't necessarily mean he wants finish. Good luck my joosss. ;p

Hmmm...yeah, that gave me a thought...maybe he's testing you...so...don't do anything...let him do the 1st step...don't call him or anything...he'll do it...at least eventually...

Idk...it's just a thought...