Phi's journal

[Pheonix791989]

im tired my shoulders hurt from moving boxesand such. been working on a new story for my own means and its all original. its pretty good so far. prom's gonna be a blast in two weeks. im ready for it and Jimmy is excited. Shawns going with our friend dana. but its all gonna be good. im workin with a head ache and then i have to find some place to put my tournament medals. I won the tripple crown. first in fighting, first in forms, and first in breaking. I then got seccond in wepons and seccond in my 1-steps. loads of fun.

 

[Pheonix791989]

i noticed something something about drummers. I was watching something on the RHCP and Chad the drummer likes to sport the backwards hat as well. its weird but reminds me of rob. strangle enough alot of the drummers that I know around school wear the backwards hat when they play including myself. we now have a drummers club and this guy named Shawn Adkins who is the drummer in a hot local band is our leader. im a shoe in for next years high hat position. but hey its a;ll good

 

[Ravynlee]

Wow - someone's been busy lately, 'eh? Ah, it's all good indeed.

Funny thing is I didn't have much to do with drummers or even muso's really prior to my work. And by that stage I'd been a Rob-sessor for a few months, and I started noticing things myself. Now I know about 3 or four drummers (one who thinks he is but only when he's drunk if you know what I mean) but only one of them wear a cap, and it faces the right way 0_o The other two are O-natural no headgear at all. I'm thinking as I've always suspected the backwards cap is more of an American identity than a professional one. Even skaters and stuff round here wear their caps sideways or at strange angles, but barely backwards (at least around here where I live)... *** knows. I'm not and have never professed to be any kind of drummer. ***. As if, white gal here aint got no rhythm! Rob would laugh at me or be so insulted he'd push me off the stool... XD

Anyhoo, trophies sound swish. You're proud of your achievements and that's a good thing. Some people I know get a trophy and it's like the world must now drop to their knees and... yeah, pride has it's place where it's due. There's such thing as a bad winner, but you don't strike me as that type. Would like to see them... have to imagine it!

Well have fun at your prom. All of you. Sounds like it'll be a blast. Take care, talk again later,

*hugs*

-Rav

 

[Pheonix791989]

thanks rav. its good to know your still lurking around the forums still *im still working on the next part of im just a kid look for more drama* I've been reading back on alot of my old stories and im trying to get inspiration for this blink 182 story that I've been kicking ideas around for a couple of months now but I cant seem to come up with anything. it sucks.

nothing much but school today then a field trip tomorrow to help specail ed kids with the arts program. its going to be fun when me shawn david and ed are gonna work the same booth. poor kids. nah we're doing oragami cats and dogs, pretty simple. Got the prom invitation yesterday and I also found out that Jimmy and I were nominated for prince and princess. weird but itd be total anarchy and chaos if we won XD. well im outta here for now

its all good

 

[Ravynlee]

No probs. Have fun. Swish! Take it easy. Talk again laters!

*hugs*

-Rav

 

[Pheonix791989]

helping the specail ed kids was so much fun. they are a whole **** alot smarter then some of the other kids that I know. Jimmy and shawn swear up and down that I should become a specail ed art teacher. i mean i like working with kids and Im good at it but i dont know if id become a career.

I found my inspiration for my blink story. *evil laughter* cant wait to pen it. its going to be really good. I had a weird dream about Jimmy which I shall not write about here but only mention. Jimmy and I are hoping to start a family once were outta North carolina and out in cali. for the job I want, itd be so much fun and a **** of alot easier to get a job.

 

[Ravynlee]

Best of luck there on both accounts!

*thinks about it*

Jimmy's a nice guy (that I know of - and he's an Aussie so that's a plus) so you have my blessing on the family thing. Haha. Feel better now? 0_o

Hi Jimmy! *waves at screen like she usually does*

But anyway, glad y'all had fun on trip. What job do you want?

 

[Pheonix791989]

i want to engage in industrial graphic art. *i wanna make skateboards* oh rav, my blink story is going along swimingly and thanks for the help. watching Blinks whats my age again. its giving me ideas for the next part of my blink story. Heres the gist of the new one: a girl named Andrea"andy" Travers frrom Grays Harbor WA is a loner and at 17 the whole tiny town seems to shun her and hold her in contempt. Since her mother and brothers death, she hasnt seen much of her father. on another rainy night, an accident happens to where she meets Mark Hoppus from Blink. After being flipped off her motorcycle, Mark takes it in his hands to care for her while trying to deal with his divorce to his wife. Andy is thrust in the middle of things that she has no clue how to deal with and then her ever truant father returns with a vengance, trying to protect Mark Tom and Travis from the one thing shes ever feared.

so what do y'all think. in a little bit I might post a bit of the story in a moment. if i feel good enough, im going to post it in the writers corner but i have to check some rules first, but i think they might only apply to the linkin park guys. but i still want to check it and make sure. I dont know why but ive been on a blink fix lately. Jimmy and I got to compete together in a team skateboarding compitition today and we took seccond with our combinded score of a 95. i got some points taken off because I tried to do a Mike V Boneless but it didnt really work out. face plant into teh fun box >< very uncomfortable. I even came up with a new move my self called the Bourdon for the bowl when i skate it. im not gonna leave details here but maybe i could put a picture. heh heh.

 

[Pheonix791989]

ok im going to post a little bit of the story in my journal and y'all tell me what you think and if you like it, I'll post it in the writers corner.

she was an outsider in this tiny town. The rain never stopped and neither did her feelings of loneliness or silence. There was one main road in and out of the town of Grays Harbor and many days she could be seen on her motorcycle flying a silver and blue blurr. It was like she was searching for something more then what she had. The towns people didnt have a very good opnion of her.

"Well I heard her father is a paitent in the looney bin. Her mother and brother died in the same year. I think she killed them."

Mrs. Hayworth said as she sipped at her mug of hot tea while on the porch of her large house by the bay.

"that girl is nothing but trouble. You stay away from her."

Jason Franks warned his ten grand children as they asked questions.

-

The wind wipped through her hair as the rain came down and the night grew darker. The rain was like wiplash against her helmit, water being sprayed everywhere. Andy tried clearing her mindwith her riding. She lived in possiably the wetest place on the planet, Washington state had to be the most waterlogged place ever. Suddenly the blinding lights rounded the sharp curve, blinding her temporairly as her motorcycle swerved. Andy recovered enough to see breifly. She was starring down a one ton bus. She shut her eyes, this was gonna hurt

tell me what you think and i might put it up on the writers corner

 

[Greyfoxx]

OH MY FRICKING GAWD!!!

you should put it in the corner cause that ROCKED!! ohmygodohmygodohmygod...i wanna know what happens!!!!

 

[Ravynlee]

Wow... I think you should post it!

You know I like your stuff and I'm (unashamedly) biased, but I reckon you should post it... what's the harm? Nice detail. Good emotive start. Draws us in to the mysery of the main antagonist's plight... it's all good... short, but good! :thumbsup:

But *pouts* I still have a soft spot for my family...

*sits and waits patiently for update on other one*

:snuffle:

Yeah...

'The Bourdon' move sounds intriguing... post pickie for sure! XD Congrats on the skating thing (the score, not the accident >.< ) but best of luck with your career choice there. It's the right time for it so I guess you can always tap the market. As for the help - not a prob. Hope all goes well there. You know where I am if you need the help again later! Look after yourself, take care, say hi to Jimmy (and Shaun) for me.

*tackle hugs*

~Rav

 

[Pheonix791989]

im here listening to where'd you go for the official 2nd time. the first time i heard it was yesterday. Listening to it gave me the perfect title for my story and it works perfect. but now that im just listening to it on the CD station on TV, it draws in so many memories about how I felt when my brother first went off to fight in Iraq and how I felt when I first realized that my mom was truly gone and that she wouldnt ever come back. I started crying. so many memories and not enough space in my brain to deal with it. But the thing is I never want to forget what happened. Because forgetting about things that helped make you stronger is stupid. My dad wanted to forget my mom and I know that he never could. I think he's selfish to want that. But just listening to it makes me feel so many emotions and its a mixture of missing a step, anger, sadness, and even happiness. It still wont change that now that I'm out on my own searching for what I missed in life, but it can be better, maybe things will get worse before they get better but maybe things will work out in the end. Jimmy heard me crying and wanted to know what was up, when he heard the song, he broke down about it, hes had it rough and I feel stupid to think that my problems are worse then his. Its something he never had and I had it longer then he did. But in any case shawn thinks were both mental. its something that I want to know and to have again, I want Jimmy to know what it feels like to have a real family. well i guess thats all. I still cant rival rav's rants but this'll have to do

 

[Pheonix791989]

prom was loads of fun. me n jimmy got together for a viva las vegas theme. pictures will be comming soon when my friends email me. i had so much fun even if we didnt dance so much. loads of people complimented me on the dress and how good I looked. Jimmy even dropped. i got a tiara to wear in my hair and it was really pretty. i had loads of pictures taken and also loads of awesome food. XD well more later

 

[Pheonix791989]

bad allergies hit me yesterday and it kept me from school today. im listening to the new angels and airwaves song adventure. its pretty cool. been working on another story that is a far streatch from what im used to writing. its a hack/slash story that is based loosely off of Silent hill and resident evil and has the boys from GC and then Bam margera in it as well. its a bit complicated to explain and maybe some day i'll post it. im working on an update for where'd you go and its comming along pretty good if i do say so myself. I have a test in Biology 2 to make up tomorrow on the lymphatic system. i dont remember too much about it but i do know that right now mine isnt working too well. >< Jimmys working untill late and then this weekend hes getting some time off for us to go to willmington NC. they have beautiful sceenery and Jimmy hinted something about going to see the place where Brandon Lee was suposedly killed. i havent eaten anything at all today and i dont know why. maybe im just being weird. I might have some ramen later. Other then sneezing and coughing my head off its been a pretty chill day. Jimmy didnt want me going to school since he thinks that my allergies might lead to another attack. Shawn promised to bring my work back from school. today i played resident evil 4 and blasted the people till kingdom come. then played Naruto and set the high score again. and I slept mostly. i think it was a pretty productive day

 

[Pheonix791989]

im stoked cuz i got a letter from mike vallely and it rocks so much cuz hes going to speak at our graduation next year. he sent me two posters and autographed them and i almost fainted dead!! Shawn and jimmy thought it was funny but are excited none the less. not much more to say but im outta here

 

[Ravynlee]

Hey Mel, long time no catch-up, huh?

Well sounds like you've been busy enough. Poor you with the allergies thing, but at least the guys are looking after you so that's something. Cool about the Mike Valley thing. The prom sounded like a blast, am hangin' out to see some picks of you (and Jimmy, of course) all spiffied up. That's somethin' to look forward to. Funny you mentioned Silent Hill earlier (been a while since I came in, lazy, sorry 'bout that) but last night at work I borrowed the head chef's copy of it and I haven't played it in literally years. When she told me she had it I was like 'OMG! I must have it!' Needless to say I haven't played it yet today but lookin' forward to it. Love that game - it's not usually my style but it's so intense I reckon...

Anyway that's all for now. Just wanted to say hi. Tell ya I miss ya. Hope other than that all's going well for you, Jimmy and Shaun etc.

*tackle hugs*

TC & TTYL,

~Rav

 

[Pheonix791989]

its been really hetic since i got signed by the local skate shop making me a pro skateboarder. I got to go up to raleigh for a demo and there were some really big pros there like Mike Vallely and Tosh townsend and all. I thought I was going to die of embarrassment and all but my run turned out pretty good. no fractures, concussions, comas, scratches, stitches, abrasions or bruises. I did pull my neck muscle though but that was entirely un-skateboard related. i got a call from the suites of the company saying that after school lets out since most of the pros are in HS. we're going on an east coast trip for skating. I cant wait till the 21 of june since its go skateboarding day. im tired and im outta here

phi

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

you know how i feel about skateboarding ...

 

[Pheonix791989]

ive been really busy with exams and all plus my new job. I now have a total of three sponsors, one really big one and two local sponsors. its pretty cool. Jimmy and I had an argument and now he isnt speaking to me. Kinda hard living under the same roof and being mad at each other. Its not my fault I have to show up for Demos and store apperances because I turned pro. Its my Job and not once did I complain about the long hours that Jimmy had to work playing sound engineer in the studios in st pauls. I'm going to be going home to West Chester for a while with my family durring July and maybe Jimmy and I can make up before then and if not, maybe it will give me time to think. My friend CJ move in with us so atleast I have him to talk to. besides Jimmy, CJ is the one guy that I would trust anything with. Shawn sometimes but it all depends on what it is. Im so ****** about my Algebra 2 exam, there was a lot of **** on there that I didnt even learn. >< **** state tests. compleat bull ****. well im heading off so peace out y'all

phi

 

[Ravynlee]

Hey Mel,

Sorry to hear about you and Jimmy - all couples fight, regardless who they are, its life unfortunately. I can see where you'd get annoyed but even from my own POV maybe its also a sad fact he doesn't want to share you with the rest of the planet and wants to keep you, and what you two have, to himself. It may also be that it's male pride. Men think by and large its comparitively okay for them to work all the time like that because as men it is their role as it were, it's socialogically bred into them, even in this day and age. Equality still has a long way to go in that regards. And then maybe its a whole lot of other little things. You're both under a lot of stress - and maybe a break away will help clear your head. Hope it works out for y'all for the best in the long run.

Congrats on the sponsors and for making it as far as you have. It's still along road and a hard slog but you're smart, you're dedicated and you know where you want to go - with qualities like that you are sure to reach far higher places still.

Well, hope besides all of that everything's going great for ya. Miss ya. Look forward to maybe catching up again soon.

Good luck with your exams.

*runs up, gives you a flying tackle hug, then runs off again with an evil little chuckle*

TC & TTYL,

~Rav