Riss'z Journal
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speedthief
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nice one Riss i think i would know you better
Shadowed Heart
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Okay.
I haven't really done this for awhile:
16-03-08, Monday.
First off, I hate today. like most days, though.
Last night I was on the phone with Taylor, and he kind of just hung up on me, and sent me a text saying he had to go talk to his mom, and didn't text me back after that. How convenient for him. I was talking to my friend Kev about it today and he told me that I over-analyze everything. But it's the way Taylor is. He lies about the stupidest things. But I guess it's mostly my fault... I get really emotional a lot.
Anywho. I couldn't stop thinking about him after that... and yes, admittedly, I was mostly angry with him and being all grumpy and stuff. I was thinking about prom too, and I just couldn't sleep... Okay so this is kind of weird, but if I go to bed mad/ happy/ sad... whatever, that's how I usually wake up. I can't sleep off headaches because I just wake up with it. So. I woke up with morning, on 4 hours of sleep, SUPER grumpy, and really tired. AND almost an hour late. So. I threw up my hair, changed my pants, and put on a shirt. I couldn't find a jacket either... So I had my friend Jocelyn bring me one.
My day started getting more pleasent during school, but during my last class one of my friends text me to tell me that Taylor 'can't go to prom' (she asked him if he was going to ask me). I'm SO ******* ******. My ***. He does this all the time. And I knew very well that he can go. He just needs an excuse, instead of just saying he doesn't want to.
I want to sleep sooooooooooo bad. But if I do, I'll wake up early and be tired again tomorrow. Plus I'm coing running in about half an hour.
*eats someone's face* I'm so angry right now!
A/N: I hate homework.
My brother and I are having one of our ******** about our lives sessions atm so I should be good soon. Eh.
.Riss
I haven't really done this for awhile:
16-03-08, Monday.
First off, I hate today. like most days, though.
Last night I was on the phone with Taylor, and he kind of just hung up on me, and sent me a text saying he had to go talk to his mom, and didn't text me back after that. How convenient for him. I was talking to my friend Kev about it today and he told me that I over-analyze everything. But it's the way Taylor is. He lies about the stupidest things. But I guess it's mostly my fault... I get really emotional a lot.
Anywho. I couldn't stop thinking about him after that... and yes, admittedly, I was mostly angry with him and being all grumpy and stuff. I was thinking about prom too, and I just couldn't sleep... Okay so this is kind of weird, but if I go to bed mad/ happy/ sad... whatever, that's how I usually wake up. I can't sleep off headaches because I just wake up with it. So. I woke up with morning, on 4 hours of sleep, SUPER grumpy, and really tired. AND almost an hour late. So. I threw up my hair, changed my pants, and put on a shirt. I couldn't find a jacket either... So I had my friend Jocelyn bring me one.
My day started getting more pleasent during school, but during my last class one of my friends text me to tell me that Taylor 'can't go to prom' (she asked him if he was going to ask me). I'm SO ******* ******. My ***. He does this all the time. And I knew very well that he can go. He just needs an excuse, instead of just saying he doesn't want to.
I want to sleep sooooooooooo bad. But if I do, I'll wake up early and be tired again tomorrow. Plus I'm coing running in about half an hour.
*eats someone's face* I'm so angry right now!
A/N: I hate homework.
My brother and I are having one of our ******** about our lives sessions atm so I should be good soon. Eh.
.Riss
woodyloveslinkin
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*hugs* you'll be alright.
Shadowed Heart
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Lol.
Well, it's not going to happen.
He's a **** and he's never once hung out with me (except for RIGHT after school) since we've been going out, we've never been on a date, and he's kissed me 5 times. And all but once it's been a result of me saying "can I have a kiss?".
Arg.
Idk why I like him.
Well, it's not going to happen.
He's a **** and he's never once hung out with me (except for RIGHT after school) since we've been going out, we've never been on a date, and he's kissed me 5 times. And all but once it's been a result of me saying "can I have a kiss?".
Arg.
Idk why I like him.
woodyloveslinkin
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He's using you darl, as his puppet.
Shadowed Heart
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Idk how he's using me though.
He doesn't even acknowledge me at school...
He doesn't even acknowledge me at school...
woodyloveslinkin
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Yup you're his puppet. GET OUT NOW!
Shadowed Heart
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I know. People tell me all the time.
I'm coming close to the feeling I can only describe as hate, or utter dislike.
I'm waiting until I'm 100% sure I can let go of him and not cry about it and want to die for weeks after.
We've broken up SEVERAL time, and all but once it's been him. I'm surprised it's lasted this long. A month and Thursday.
The one time I broke up with him... We wasn't talking to me AT ALL and he told some of my friends that he liked someone else so he didn't care if we broke up. And that's a tad annoying.
So I broke up with him. He just said okay and I told him we could still be friends... he hugged me and we were done. Lol. I went to my classes the next day and told one of my friends, and some guy I don't even know turned around and told me he was so proud of me. Lol.
Also. Every time he's broken up with me, it's been with a text message.
When I did it. I had the ******* decency to do it in person.
*sdeepbreath* I'm getting angry...
I'm coming close to the feeling I can only describe as hate, or utter dislike.
I'm waiting until I'm 100% sure I can let go of him and not cry about it and want to die for weeks after.
We've broken up SEVERAL time, and all but once it's been him. I'm surprised it's lasted this long. A month and Thursday.
The one time I broke up with him... We wasn't talking to me AT ALL and he told some of my friends that he liked someone else so he didn't care if we broke up. And that's a tad annoying.
So I broke up with him. He just said okay and I told him we could still be friends... he hugged me and we were done. Lol. I went to my classes the next day and told one of my friends, and some guy I don't even know turned around and told me he was so proud of me. Lol.
Also. Every time he's broken up with me, it's been with a text message.
When I did it. I had the ******* decency to do it in person.
*sdeepbreath* I'm getting angry...
Shadowed Heart
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Lol.
Well. A) I don't WANT anybody else.
B) Nobody wants me. Not even him. Heh..
Well. A) I don't WANT anybody else.
B) Nobody wants me. Not even him. Heh..
woodyloveslinkin
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^ you're not ugly. You're a sponge, how can sponges be ugly? LOL.
Shadowed Heart
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Lol. I would go out with you if you lived anywhere near me. XD
woodyloveslinkin
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And I was being serious about you not being ugly.
Rissa, dear, I was in a 9 month abusive relationship last year and I've been used and used in various relationships basically half my life. I wouldn't like to see you get hurt darl.
Rissa, dear, I was in a 9 month abusive relationship last year and I've been used and used in various relationships basically half my life. I wouldn't like to see you get hurt darl.
Shadowed Heart
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Lol. A little late to not get hurt.
Also. I'm not being too damaged. Afterall (as my friends tell me) he's not even my boyfriend until he can act like one.
And it's not abusive. Just... inactive and annoying.
Also. I'm not being too damaged. Afterall (as my friends tell me) he's not even my boyfriend until he can act like one.
And it's not abusive. Just... inactive and annoying.