Shadowed Heart
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- Jun 30, 2005
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Okay, so basically, I don't believe in God.
I mean, I guess no one really cares, but I was just watching T.V and it was about this guy “questioning his faith” and he said it was because, the one thing he asked God for was to let him play football again, but it didn’t happen.
And I thought, there’s only one thing I’ve asked God for in the past few months… and I know it is going to take years to happen. It could possibly happen this summer, but I really don’t think there is a God. What I learned in church is that God wants to protect us and make us happy, but I’m not happy at all. At school I’m the bouncy loud kid in the halls that does ridiculous things like taping notes on their chest or forehead (like today it was “I love T.C & Sarah + Joci and Sadie and Allison.” (I had to keep adding names after T.C and Sarah)…. But really, nobody gets it. Because of this, I’ve began self harm, I mean, the one thing that I can never have, is not the only thing, there’s one other thing, but you know…. It makes me cry myself to sleep and when I’m alone at school, like in the bathroom or in the halls during class, I cry, I cry a lot, more than a normal person does. So I guess I just wanted to let it out. Thanks for reading if you did….
I mean, I guess no one really cares, but I was just watching T.V and it was about this guy “questioning his faith” and he said it was because, the one thing he asked God for was to let him play football again, but it didn’t happen.
And I thought, there’s only one thing I’ve asked God for in the past few months… and I know it is going to take years to happen. It could possibly happen this summer, but I really don’t think there is a God. What I learned in church is that God wants to protect us and make us happy, but I’m not happy at all. At school I’m the bouncy loud kid in the halls that does ridiculous things like taping notes on their chest or forehead (like today it was “I love T.C & Sarah + Joci and Sadie and Allison.” (I had to keep adding names after T.C and Sarah)…. But really, nobody gets it. Because of this, I’ve began self harm, I mean, the one thing that I can never have, is not the only thing, there’s one other thing, but you know…. It makes me cry myself to sleep and when I’m alone at school, like in the bathroom or in the halls during class, I cry, I cry a lot, more than a normal person does. So I guess I just wanted to let it out. Thanks for reading if you did….