MrsBennington-Delson
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aaww I'm sorry Sarah 
*hugs* don't be so down
*hugs* don't be so down {Wood'z Journal Act 2}
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woodyloveslinkin
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*hugs back*
I woke up this morning and I felt like ****. I explained to mum how I was feeling and I called up my boss and said to her that there had a family emergency so I had the day off today and try to get myself back together. I mean, I'm struggling emotionally and financially right now. I don't get paid until the end of the month and the work load is starting to take its toll on me. I'm in the market for a new job.
I woke up this morning and I felt like ****. I explained to mum how I was feeling and I called up my boss and said to her that there had a family emergency so I had the day off today and try to get myself back together. I mean, I'm struggling emotionally and financially right now. I don't get paid until the end of the month and the work load is starting to take its toll on me. I'm in the market for a new job.
woodyloveslinkin
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well i quit my job yesterday, wasn't making me feel good but kinda depressed. am in bathurst right now and im sleeping over at my sister's place tomorrow, so that probs mean with huon being away she and josh are gonna get drunk.
omg, blaze has grown up so much, my cat, and miffy, the other one, is being evil as usual. man, i'm tired.
and oh, i wish daniel would just leave me the **** alone. he sent me a txt message 5 in the morning, this morning. ugh.
omg, blaze has grown up so much, my cat, and miffy, the other one, is being evil as usual. man, i'm tired.
and oh, i wish daniel would just leave me the **** alone. he sent me a txt message 5 in the morning, this morning. ugh.
woodyloveslinkin
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I haven't had credit to even talk to him so I don't know why he's suddenly talking to me.
Blaze is the one that wants to be in the middle of everything and Miffy is the one that attacks Blaze for being in the same room as her.
Blaze is the one that wants to be in the middle of everything and Miffy is the one that attacks Blaze for being in the same room as her.
Ravynlee
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So the first time he emailed you after you left and you deleted it I bet he texted you and you replied, thinking you'd be civil. What part of 'NO CONTACT AT ALL' and 'COMPLETELY CUT HIM OUT OF YOUR LIFE' didn't you get? He didn't get the message before and subtleties obviously don't work. SO he keeps texting you AFTER he had you thrown in the slammer TWICE - he has some of your stuff - why the **** didn't you tell him from the very start 'NO CONTACT at all whatsoever under any circumstances' and MEAN it? You've always sent him mixed messages and you love the drama, there's no other way to explain it. You keep making the same damned mistakes with him. I'm sorry but you ask for what you get now. If you really wanted him out of your life I mean seriously as you once claimed you would have told him 'Text me again I'll report you to the authorities, this is harrassment.'You like being the victim, that much is clear.
No, I can't even apologize anymore for sounding harsh. Depressed or not you asked for it. You keep letting him in to your life and wonder why you can't get past him. Wow. No brainer. So much for making a clean break and a fresh start in Bathurst. You didn't solve anything, you took the dramas with you. Period.
woodyloveslinkin
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For the record, I never said no contact with him to his face, and I cut him out of my life completely automatically after the mental **** that i went through when i came home. Especially after the **** that he gave me about "I want you back here" (I of course retorted by saying "there's an AVO out against me prohibiting me from coming near you to start with ...") I deleted his number out of my phone so I wouldn't be tempted to ring him and the only contact I've had with him was some financial matters that he still owes me about, even that I wasn't civil about. I didn't take the dramas with me, and I even warned him the last time I spoke to him about contacting my family and what the consequences of it would be. Trust me, even though the memories are there, I don't have his number anymore, I can't go on not answering private numbers in which he always appears on as and I just know his number by the amount of 4s in it, and I only have his email for the time being until I get the money that he owes me due to financial struggle my mum is currently going through and my mum is currently at me trying to get the money that he owes me. Trust me, I have a psychological assessment on 2nd December thanks to that ******* who put me into a women's refuge for three days.
So don't think for one second that I haven't learnt my lesson and I haven't had credit since I left Wagga and that's been nearly over a month now. The main reason why I haven't had credit is that it would prevent me from talking to him and I don't think he's worth calling from my landline to be honest.
If he calls me, fine I'll just waste his credit. Pick up and then hang up repetively, I'll be evil and I'll be a *****, that's nothing compared to what he makes me feel right now. That's one thing I don't like being told right now, is that I haven't learnt by lesson, when I have. I simply ignore him until it advantages me to some point and right now, the only point of contact I have is trying to get my money back that he owes me. I've already arranged for Heather to get my stuff back from him and vice versa.
So don't think for one second that I haven't learnt my lesson and I haven't had credit since I left Wagga and that's been nearly over a month now. The main reason why I haven't had credit is that it would prevent me from talking to him and I don't think he's worth calling from my landline to be honest.
If he calls me, fine I'll just waste his credit. Pick up and then hang up repetively, I'll be evil and I'll be a *****, that's nothing compared to what he makes me feel right now. That's one thing I don't like being told right now, is that I haven't learnt by lesson, when I have. I simply ignore him until it advantages me to some point and right now, the only point of contact I have is trying to get my money back that he owes me. I've already arranged for Heather to get my stuff back from him and vice versa.
Ravynlee
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You know he's not giving you the money back, right?
He's a control freak. This 'debt' is something he can hold over your head and keep you tied to him. I told you before it's best just to let him and it go. As hard as it is financially (and I don't doubt it is hard, even for your family) that a clean break is the best way to go. Besides you can't PROVE he owes you money unless it's physically documented and even if it was he's not going to give you anything easily because he doesn't want to let you go. That's what I mean about clean break. The stuff he has of yours is GONE. The money he owes you is GONE. Move on. And tell him if he gets in contact with you again in any way shape or form you'll get harrassment charges against him. Play his rules for once.
He's a control freak. This 'debt' is something he can hold over your head and keep you tied to him. I told you before it's best just to let him and it go. As hard as it is financially (and I don't doubt it is hard, even for your family) that a clean break is the best way to go. Besides you can't PROVE he owes you money unless it's physically documented and even if it was he's not going to give you anything easily because he doesn't want to let you go. That's what I mean about clean break. The stuff he has of yours is GONE. The money he owes you is GONE. Move on. And tell him if he gets in contact with you again in any way shape or form you'll get harrassment charges against him. Play his rules for once.
woodyloveslinkin
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If that stuff of mine ends up being GONE I won't be the one that'll end up losing the plot at him. My good flannlette sheets my grandmother gave me are worth more than him right now + other stuff. And like I said before, on the other page, he's going to do things my way for once wither he likes it or not. And I know he has my money, he leaked to my mother that he's earning over $800 a week, in which $400 of that is mine.
Well, reality is yes I know he doesn't want to let me go, pity, really, I've let go of him and now have my eyes softly on another guy for the time being. Sure, the memories are still there but seriously, the **** was too much and I left too late to avoid being hurt.
I paid the bond for his place and he owes me it and I'm going to get it despite when people might say! And he knows that I paid for his place I just have to wait until he gets paid next so he can put it into my bank account and then he'll be history in my books.
Well, reality is yes I know he doesn't want to let me go, pity, really, I've let go of him and now have my eyes softly on another guy for the time being. Sure, the memories are still there but seriously, the **** was too much and I left too late to avoid being hurt.
I paid the bond for his place and he owes me it and I'm going to get it despite when people might say! And he knows that I paid for his place I just have to wait until he gets paid next so he can put it into my bank account and then he'll be history in my books.
woodyloveslinkin
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Well he should've packed all my stuff when my dad came over to get my stuff but he didn't pack all of it. That's the main thing that ****** me off.
woodyloveslinkin
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Oh and I managed to convince Josh, my childhood friend to join LPF. Hello Josh (guitar-hero-01).
woodyloveslinkin
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http://www.sila.com/images/product/sari010003p5a.jpg
Just found my wedding dress. Traditional Indian red and gold.
http://images.exoticindiaart.com/saris/black_valkalam_sari_with_modern_weave_on_border_yq37.jpg
http://www.offtopic.forum/data/MetaMirrorCache/bbbb98c8de1ff9488745b944fdac3b30.jpg
My bridesmaid's saris - My sister, Beck, Anakita, Heather, Merissa and Tabitha.
LOL I have no life. No I have to find a man who's willing to have a traidional Indian wedding.
http://www.offtopic.forum/data/MetaMirrorCache/3bed92b8b89bae90ab926771d58b0821.jpg
My husband wears this.
and the rest of the men wear whatever.
Just found my wedding dress. Traditional Indian red and gold.
http://images.exoticindiaart.com/saris/black_valkalam_sari_with_modern_weave_on_border_yq37.jpg
http://www.offtopic.forum/data/MetaMirrorCache/bbbb98c8de1ff9488745b944fdac3b30.jpg
My bridesmaid's saris - My sister, Beck, Anakita, Heather, Merissa and Tabitha.
LOL I have no life. No I have to find a man who's willing to have a traidional Indian wedding.
http://www.offtopic.forum/data/MetaMirrorCache/3bed92b8b89bae90ab926771d58b0821.jpg
My husband wears this.
and the rest of the men wear whatever.
woodyloveslinkin
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^ that was totally brought on by a LPA thread btw.
Anyway, last night was awesome. Josh and I caught up, had dinner at his place, played Singstar - Pop Hits and fully sucked at Guitar Hero 3. Kept losing to his little sister, Heidi. One of the best songs on Singstar that I rocked was Hit Me Baby One More Time but failed at Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne. I did okay at Beautiful Day by U2. Yeah last night rocked!
Anyway, last night was awesome. Josh and I caught up, had dinner at his place, played Singstar - Pop Hits and fully sucked at Guitar Hero 3. Kept losing to his little sister, Heidi. One of the best songs on Singstar that I rocked was Hit Me Baby One More Time but failed at Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne. I did okay at Beautiful Day by U2. Yeah last night rocked!
MrsBennington-Delson
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Singstar is so freakin great
good to hear you had so much fun ^______^
good to hear you had so much fun ^______^
woodyloveslinkin
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Here are some of the photos from yesterday some are kinda bad -
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Heidi and Me - I've known her since she was in kindagarden and now she's in year 8
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Josh (guitar-hero-01) and his dog Pixie - lol my rat's name is Pixie
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Ben running away from the camera
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Me playing with the flash
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Half of my face...
http://photos-h.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-snc1/v374/0/122/750796843/n750796843_1645447_2283.jpg
Heidi and Me - I've known her since she was in kindagarden and now she's in year 8
http://photos-a.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-snc1/v374/0/122/750796843/n750796843_1645448_2531.jpg
Josh (guitar-hero-01) and his dog Pixie - lol my rat's name is Pixie
http://photos-b.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-snc1/v374/0/122/750796843/n750796843_1645449_2790.jpg
Ben running away from the camera
http://photos-g.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-snc1/v374/0/122/750796843/n750796843_1645446_2041.jpg
Me playing with the flash
http://photos-f.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-snc1/v374/0/122/750796843/n750796843_1645445_1733.jpg
Half of my face...
woodyloveslinkin
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And LPA I'm come from December's Shadow to Mascara to Silly Sarah, I thought it was quite appropiate. Actually it was a Marj thing, she changed her name to Messy Marj. So instead of Mascara everyone's just calling me Sarah now on LPA. Listening to Within Temptation and Angelspit at the same time.
Callan gave me a song of Angelspit's the other day over MSN and I've been loving the band, not him. Kinda annoyed at Callan right now. I had an argument with him on MSN about him coming back to Bathurst to stay and suddenly he wants to get back together with me, and I was like "ahh...no, you left me for Brisbane and the damage has been done." Then he tried to appeal that statement of mine but I told him I couldn't be in a relationship with a guy right now because of the most recent split up with Daniel. He of course, didn't believe me, despite the fact that he knew that we were going out for a while and then I sorta cut Callan outta my life for a while. But seriously, Callan is not an option for me right now, especially after what I've been hearing from little birds on my shoulder about him. But I don't understand, isn't Callan going to Adelaide? That's what Heather told me. I don't know, he told Kirsty, me and Heather in a msn convo yesterday that he's back for good. Something's not right....Tabitha should know something but she hasn't told me anything, she's busy packing for Broken Hill, her and James are moving there soon.
Callan gave me a song of Angelspit's the other day over MSN and I've been loving the band, not him. Kinda annoyed at Callan right now. I had an argument with him on MSN about him coming back to Bathurst to stay and suddenly he wants to get back together with me, and I was like "ahh...no, you left me for Brisbane and the damage has been done." Then he tried to appeal that statement of mine but I told him I couldn't be in a relationship with a guy right now because of the most recent split up with Daniel. He of course, didn't believe me, despite the fact that he knew that we were going out for a while and then I sorta cut Callan outta my life for a while. But seriously, Callan is not an option for me right now, especially after what I've been hearing from little birds on my shoulder about him. But I don't understand, isn't Callan going to Adelaide? That's what Heather told me. I don't know, he told Kirsty, me and Heather in a msn convo yesterday that he's back for good. Something's not right....Tabitha should know something but she hasn't told me anything, she's busy packing for Broken Hill, her and James are moving there soon.
woodyloveslinkin
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So I'm wanting to learn German so I can have conversations with my brother in German...I know my signature says "Sarah is the ***** Queen" and my location says "I don't know where are you?" and so that my brother and I can have Rammstein sing-offs at his place.
Me, Mendes, Kirsty, Tabitha, Alice, Tom and James, we're going to trivia night tonight!
Me, Mendes, Kirsty, Tabitha, Alice, Tom and James, we're going to trivia night tonight!
woodyloveslinkin
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Can I please for my innocence sake have that entire orgy conversation posted in this thread please Pete?