MrsBennington-Delson

Thanks Well honestly I don't feel too good yet but I hope it'll go away soon! Yeah I'll talk to him... some time... 2 of my close friends said that they think that I'm pretty much in love with him, that I should take my time tho (so I can be sure bout my feelings) and that I should talk to him... meh... Whatever other topic... uhm my mum's back home, the docs didn't really find a reason for my mum being in pain right now she's ok, also has a cold... hope she won't go to hospital (ever) again... 2 days ago I had an argument with my dad bout me being for too long at the pc and school etc... I told him to let me do my thing bc I know that he just wants the best for me and stuff but with all this good wants he's kinda pushing a pressure on me and I don't wanna live like that, I wanna do my thing and if it's not enough for him I don't care bc it's enough for me! Idk if this might just be a phase or maybe I'm even acting wrong but it is how it is I can try to make it better but can't promise to make it perfect... Tomorrow I'm having my first exam (ever)! And it's English! I'm not really nervous bout it more like uber excited haha we'll get the results on friday which is pretty cool Besides of that nothing much happening over here ^^

W00t!!!!!! Now I love her even more!! hahaha Now just tell me she freakin rocks doesn't she??? I mean she has to she's croatian!! Tell her "Volim te" :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D omg sorry but I'm so freakin hyped bout that lol I mean like YOU teh Brandon like my best friend is attrackted to a croatian girl MY fellow uhm how do you say... fellow croatian blood or whatever haha Oh damn I'm happy lol

I'm happy again still kinda sick and messed up in my mind but happy =)

one time in band camp sorry had to say that lmfao

aaaawww cute pics Dev ^^

mmmwwwwaaaa smexy ppl!! haha love the pics

omg thats so cuteness!!! =D I think that'll work out with you and Ivana not just bc I love her name (kinda very croatian one x]) haha its also that if she's like that and not mentioning the other guys name in your presence I honestly think she does mean you tho as you said maybe don't fall into it too quickly rather wait untill its like 100% sure otherwise you might get hurt and I dont want that *hugs*

Well I did a presentation bout LP so I guess it's obvious that I use songs of them ^^ uhm I used the Opening from Reanimation and a mix made by Jeezy with One step closer, numb and in the end (dont remember what else was in it) and since my classmates wanted to hear one more I played BTH so yes not just one song xD

no he was chasing the girl xD and it wasnt really a commercial just the vid for the song ^^

thanks ^^ lol hmm I seriously have no idea what he wants -.- I'll ask him when I see him again... I've been out yesterday atlhough I was sick kinda, later on we went to Fish but nothing really happend like between us... he just onced looked at me with this thinkfull face and I then smiled at him and he smiled back, no idea what that meant... so I'm sick as mentiond before... this kinda sucks bc I'm having my oral exam in English on wednesday -.- but hey its also kinda positive bc if I'm sick now its more likely that I won't be sick next week when I'm going to London so yeh that's it from me hope you all are good take care *hugs y'all*

Hey guys! hmm what's new... School: had a french test yesterday, went pretty good hope it'll be a good grade Familly: My mum's in hospital again =/ but it should be all good again, nothing too bad so yeah... Love: Gosh guys ^^ lol There is something happening but I have no idea what... yesterday I was out with some of my girls... a bit later Fish, Eschi and Phil came (ya know lets say the crew =P) so yeah since the girl were kinda bored bc they didn't know them, they went home at like 10pm, so I hang out with the others not too long and Phil and his girlfriend, Fish and I were sitting at the table ourselves and we were talkin and stuff was pretty fun... one thing... lol x] well uhm one girl sat then to us and was like "gosh it smells like shit here" and Fish then said "ah that's Jos" and I looked at him and was like "you bastard! that was fuckin mean!!" and had to laugh tho bc it was kind funny lol and he then was like "aawww I'm really sorry you know me I would never be mean to you" and I was like "yeah sure not" and then he put his arm around me and gave me a kiss on the cheek :o so yeah we left at like midnight and Fish brought me home... and well lemme explain you, my house is pretty much at the end of a street so if you wanna come to me you gotta go through a gate and usually I say goodbye there to someone or dunno but we or I was walkin on and he was "so well since you just walk on I suppose you don't wanna say goodbye yet" and I was like "well if you wanna come in its ok, as you want" (bc before he said that it would be kinda cool to watch tv now or something xD) so yeah we then got to the door and went in, lol, which was funny bc I forgot my key and my dad was having a nap and then I was like "ring the doorbell please" bc I was lookin trough the window so I could see if he gets up or if I have to call him and he was like "ring?? why me?? you really think its ok to wake your dad??" and I laughed and said "gosh do it! if we dont wake him up we wont be able to get it silly!" XD so yeah after we got into the house we went into my room and watched tv... I showed him a dictionary for youth language and then he found the word "muckeln" which means "to snuggle with s.o." and then he was like "oh look! c'mon let's muckle" and I was like "yeh sure" and then we just talked bout the words in there and how stupid some of those are and stuff and then ... oh god I hate him ^^ He lay next to me and we kissed etc....... It was kinda funny bc he was like "shit I gotta work tomorrow... well I'll stay 15mins" and after 15mins I was like "don't you have to go?" and he said "well uhm... Imma stay 15mins more" and then again after 15mins I asked him again and he said "well since you want me to go and I kinda should..." and of course I couldnt let him go just like that I said "no no its not that I want you to go its just that if you say so idk... I dont want to to be fucked up at work" he: "well I'm always so doesnt matter" xD later that evening/night, we were lying next to each other and he said "I could so fall asleep like this right now, that'd be nice" ^^ ..... so yeah at like 1:30am he left then Right now I kinda ask myself what he actually wants from me... I mean this time he wasnt drunk maybe slightly like just a liiiiil bit BUT that's what confuses me bc to me it seems like when he's sober he can't come towards me and like is too shy and stuff and then after he had a bit alcohol he has enough confidence to do so but idk if this might be true of if he just like gets slightly drunk and stuff and takes me bc he knows that dunno I'm a good kisser or something xD lmao Tonight he's having some "game-evening" and asked me if I wanna come too but I said that I allready actually have something going on and then he was like "but if I ask you if you wanna come then you HAD something going on" so yeah I gotta see bc I'd really like to come BUT I woulndt be the Jos if I wouldnt have a masterplan =P I was thinkin of saying "sorry I cant come this evening but I can come over in the afternoon tomorrow if you want me to" ^^ then I could also ask him if he's being serious with me or just playing... well lets see lets see besides of that seems like I caught a cold -.- which sucks... meh... gosh in a bit more than a week I'm in London I'm still not realizing that... oh and sorry bout that huge entry bout Fish :o but maybe you guys could give me some advice =/

hahaha looks great lol oh god Sygy gettin drunk behind the teachers x]

I kinda have a cold which makes me have a headache and be tired -.- my head is totally messed up lol

I like the colors a lot, very sweet but yeah... I'd either do a bit more bout the bg or leave out the vectors on the right square

Looks great! :thumbsup:

LMAO *sings* I'm lovin it xD

chatting and wiealt.de lol ^^

thanks lol ^^ no not really... well hmm... there aren't really any sweet guys I find attractive ^^ at least not here... idk... the sweet ones don't fall for me? I seriously have no idea ^^ lol go for option B with you? ^^ explain please hehe ^^ nooo well kinda yes lol... bc 1) lastet like 9 months and that is allready more than a year ago so uhm it all lets say started a year ago and 2)-4) happend in the last uhm 5 months... lol yeah it gets tired ^^ and I kinda get tired of guys lol Idk... I was thinkin about that but I doubt that I can... lol...

lmao! I guess I would start laughing extremely at this guy XD tho if he's hot I would consider it lmfao! jk :lol: that's sexy

cool that'd you're doing good ^^ besides of being a lazy ass and not finding a job =P jk I like the Amy, and the last one :thumbsup: looks cool

Tired... -.-

naahhh you come to germany x]

Update: sooozzzz.... lemme see... well nothin much to tell ya... uhm it was my mum's b-day today and my dad bought her a card and a rose and put it on her little desk next to their bed ^^ and she showed me the card when she got home (she had to work) bc there was a cute dolphin on it... and I think that she was like "dont open it" or "dont read it" but I didnt really hear that bc I was playing Sims and had my headphones on x] so when she turned around or something I read what my dad wrote on it and it caused tears in my eyes :'( he wrote "I gotta confess you something! The older we get the more I love you" something like that :'( this is so uber cuteness!!! aaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwww :'( lol oh and did I tell you bout yesterday evening? No? Oh well then here you go... I went on a lil drink with Chris and it was pretty cool although I honestly gotta say that he's kinda freaky and also scared me a few times xD lmao well later on we were chattin and he was like "I gotta tell you something" me: "ok shoot ^^" he: "I think you're kinda really cute :o" and since I kinda know what that means I was just like "aaaww thankies thats nice from ya ^^ you're kinda freaky but in a positive way so kinda cool ya get me dont ya?" something like that xD lol so after that I was kinda thinkin bout my "love-life" and here's what I got: 1) the first guy I was in love with loved me too but we couldn't be together 2) the 2nd guy I had a crush on, "wanted" me and we got to date each other 3) the 3rd situation was/is that I want this one guy but seems like he doesn't "want" me and 4) and last situation is that (at least it seems to me like that atm) he likes me and probably wants more but this time I'm the one who can't return that So I kinda till know pretty much had every possible situation lol just that it's not like "harcore-emotionally" bc if that would be like that I'd probably allready be uber depressed ^^ so yes when it comes to guys I'm very well... I kinda have the feeling that I choose the wrong ones... lol... to keep it short I have the feeling that I like bad boys x] that's just like uber raawwwrrr xD problem is tho that most bad boys just wanna have fun with girls ya know ^^ barely any of them is true and stuff... oh well I hope this is not with every bad boy or that my taste will change lol and one more thing maybe... in my horoscope for march there's written in that a) I should try out some extreme sports O.o wtf? yeah sure I do look like I'd do that... o.O and b) my partner is doing whatever I want and that I should enjoy that x] too bad I don't have a bf (aka slave in this case) xD

I'm good ^^ gonna go out for dinner with my fam soon so should be all good

yeeeaaahhh Diana in the concert fever hehe ^^ nice!