DarkShadow
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you love me? you don't even know me...how could you love me?
Is she worth all this pain?
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LPpinkfreak821
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im getting to know you.. lol... i dont' love you... yet.. lol... i like a little bit.. jp.. you have a great personality... you shouldnt waste it on some girl... if you want to get better forget about her.. MOVE ON... she isnt' doing anything good for you.. its pathetic how you are letting her do this to you.. and im telling you this straight foward... as a friend you are an idiot for doing this to yourself... i went through this... i got over it.. yea it hurt.. i was in pain... i did really bad things to myself.. but in the long run lookin back on it.. i see that dwelling on it and worrying and obsessing just made it worse.. dont' do what i did... cuz your only hurting yourself... when i realized what the **** i was doing to myself... i was disgusted with myself... but now look at me.. i left him and all thoughts of and about him in my past.. and when you get over it.. you will be more happy than you are now.. so get over it
DarkShadow
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I can't just turn around and walk away from this..
SNiPeRViRuS
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You cant only if you dont try.
DarkShadow
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You don't think I've tried? I actually want to be happy. I don't want to be miserable all my life...I know that I'll always love Abby no matter what, but I don't want to dwell on that. I want to get better and find someone who loves me as much as I love them. But deep inside, I know that could never happen, so I just wasted my time saying that. There is NOTHING I can do to fix this now unless I kill myself, which is NOT going to happen. I don't know anymore....I'm just lost & confused...
DarkShadow
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Someone please help me....
DarkShadow
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well heres something i replied to in another forum. the guy asked if there was something I did to make her leave me. Here is what I wrote:
We never were going out...so she couldn't have left me. This all started basically when I told her that I actually loved her. She simply just said "I'm sorry but no..." and then walked away. It was the most depressing moment in my life...I cried for weeks...I didn't sleep, eat, or anything...I just laid in bed thinking about her...and I got online occaisionally to see if she was online or to talk to her friends to see what she was doing...she didn't talk to me for a whole month...I hated it.
We never were going out...so she couldn't have left me. This all started basically when I told her that I actually loved her. She simply just said "I'm sorry but no..." and then walked away. It was the most depressing moment in my life...I cried for weeks...I didn't sleep, eat, or anything...I just laid in bed thinking about her...and I got online occaisionally to see if she was online or to talk to her friends to see what she was doing...she didn't talk to me for a whole month...I hated it.
shirakawa_otori
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I wish I had some better advice to give than what everyone else has been saying. It's obvious, from reading your journal and this whole thread, how much you've suffered and how much you love this girl. But really, all I can tell you is you need to move on. I know it hurts and it'll keep hurting for some time, but then it'll start to fade away. People always told me "time heals", and I though that was a pile of **** they told me, but with experience I found out that what they said was actually true. Time heals, it makes you forget. As hard as it will be to go to a different high school, that will be of great help, if you let it be. It'll open new doors, you'll meet new girls, and you'll see, you'll be happy. You just have to let time do its job. Don't indulge forever in what Abby means to you, let her go, and things will look up.
DarkShadow
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I know that different high schools is a good thing...here's a story on how I actually decided to take that road...
Abby told me one day she was going to Greenville Tech Charter High School. She wasn't the only one of my friends going, however. My friends Marett & Sera, two of my other best friends, were also applying for this school. They all said that I absolutely HAD to go to that school with them. So I printed out an application from the internet and filled it out. Right before I mailed it in, I thought about whether or not this was really a good idea. I thought for hours...then I finally decided that it was probably better for us to go to different high schools. As much as I hated it I knew that is was best for me...So I shredded the application. I cried about it but I knew it was the right thing to do...but what really crushed me is when I told her I decided not to go to the same school with her, she just said "Ok...that's great"...I just broke down right there in front of my whole lunch group. Of course they all picked on me and I about kicked every one of their ***** but I didn't want to get expelled permanantly.
See? I mean there's no right path for me to take...all the paths lead to depression and lonliness...I'm screwed...there's no hope.
*cries*
Abby told me one day she was going to Greenville Tech Charter High School. She wasn't the only one of my friends going, however. My friends Marett & Sera, two of my other best friends, were also applying for this school. They all said that I absolutely HAD to go to that school with them. So I printed out an application from the internet and filled it out. Right before I mailed it in, I thought about whether or not this was really a good idea. I thought for hours...then I finally decided that it was probably better for us to go to different high schools. As much as I hated it I knew that is was best for me...So I shredded the application. I cried about it but I knew it was the right thing to do...but what really crushed me is when I told her I decided not to go to the same school with her, she just said "Ok...that's great"...I just broke down right there in front of my whole lunch group. Of course they all picked on me and I about kicked every one of their ***** but I didn't want to get expelled permanantly.
See? I mean there's no right path for me to take...all the paths lead to depression and lonliness...I'm screwed...there's no hope.
*cries*
LPpinkfreak821
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of course there is hope there always is.. you have to look for it... so smile be happy.. and get over her.... i kno its hard... but u have to... don't wait until summer cuz then u will just be miserable..
DarkShadow
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I can't just get over her while seeing her 5 DAYS A WEEK!!!
LPpinkfreak821
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find new ppls to hand with... im sure you can do that...
LPpinkfreak821
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hang.. i meant hang.. not hand...
LpLuVaGuRl
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LoOk DuDe
u know wat that is called obsecion . . . like everyone said get over her . . . if no one else likes you its because u need to be more open to people . . . show them the real u . . . . if that doesnt work well this is twisted!
u know wat that is called obsecion . . . like everyone said get over her . . . if no one else likes you its because u need to be more open to people . . . show them the real u . . . . if that doesnt work well this is twisted!
DarkShadow
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apparently you don't know me very well...I am rather open towards people I know. I am the real me. The real me is a lonely obsessed freak. You're right about one thing though. This is twisted. But I'm going to warn you...don't judge me. >:I
LpLuVaGuRl
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well . . .
one thing i didnt judge you . . . and u dont want to be obsessed anymore please stay way from her for a while . . . to see wat happens . . . if ur still the same visit a psycologist.
one thing i didnt judge you . . . and u dont want to be obsessed anymore please stay way from her for a while . . . to see wat happens . . . if ur still the same visit a psycologist.
DarkShadow
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I'm seeing a psychologist...and yes, actually you did judge me. You said, "u know wat that is called obsecion . . . like everyone said get over her . . . if no one else likes you its because u need to be more open to people . . . show them the real u . . . . "
Sorry, but that to me, was judging. And I can't stay away from her if I'm in 2 classes with her and see her FIVE DAYS A WEEK!!! So before you say something, please think about what you're saying. I know you're just trying to help but you haven't been in my position...you don't know how it feels. And if you have, then maybe you could help me better, otherwise just try to be helpful..and not **** me off.
Sorry, but that to me, was judging. And I can't stay away from her if I'm in 2 classes with her and see her FIVE DAYS A WEEK!!! So before you say something, please think about what you're saying. I know you're just trying to help but you haven't been in my position...you don't know how it feels. And if you have, then maybe you could help me better, otherwise just try to be helpful..and not **** me off.
LPpinkfreak821
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iv been in your position.. i know what it feels like.... no one is trying to **** you off... they are trying to tell you the truth... get your classes switched... make it so you dont' see her.. i had to do that... im sure LPluvagirl didn't mean any harm.. or to **** you off.. just do your best to keep away from Abby... we all have problems and deal with them differently but your doing what i did when i went thru this with chris... and i dont' wanna see you end up like i did... i was messed up and all the s***... but hey look at me now.. u kno.. i dwelled on it.. obsessed over it.. but when i realized that what i was doing was helping at all... i immedietly took charge and changed.. now you know about my grandpa.... right.. i just spent the last half hour crying my eyes out... and i wanted to sink inside myself... but i know thats the number one thing that i should not do.. instead of sinking inside and pulling away.. i pulled myself together.. and i want you to try and do that with this whole Abby thing....
LPGotLinkinPark
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I know you hate being "judged." So if you consider this judging, I'm sorry. But the plain truth is, you need to just get over her. Everyone goes through stuff like this, but they suck it up and get over their "love." If you can't get over her while just seeing her, then stay away from her. You say that you both want to get over her, but you don't. Decide which one you want to do. If you truely want to get over Abby, get her out of your life, then just STAY AWAY FROM HER. Meet other people, just enjoy the things in life besides Abby. I know you can't stop thinking about her, but if your whole life wasn't centered around her, you wouldn't be in this situation. I really agree with twilightcrimson. You need to stop trying to make people feel sorry for you, and just take control and FORGET HER!