Its 1:48 pm on wensday night / thursday morning... My mom is leaving until sunday, she is watching my niece and nephew while my sister works at night, and uses the car. She goes there after work and goes to wokr in the morning after she gets up.
Friday my bro in law watches them and My mom is going to go to bakersfield for the weekend. She will be back on sunday night with my grandfather.
So i was alone the whole day. I went to my therapist appointment at 4, around 5 i went to starbucks with theresa and got home around 6 30 / 7 ish. I checked the mail - my mom got a child support check. So i get $15. Woopdedoo.
I got home and i washed aload of whites, i had to bleach my favorite (and only) White shirt. So i can go to the starbucks hiring event tomorrow. Hopefully i get a better job.
Im going to fill out the application now. I just finished cleaning the kitchen and the bathroom and my room.
My mom wants me to wash some of the towels. and her laundry as well as clean her rooom. But someone has to clean the living room. I dont want to. and mariana said she isnt coming home -since my grandfather will be here and all. She is dumb. She needs to get a ******* job. She is coming and going as she pleases, and doesnt pay rent, and truth be told im glad we can be here to help but im getting tired of her, and her bullshit drama and lies about nothing.
Marcelo will stay thenight at my house tomorrow, and probably the whole weekend. Only thing is i am on my period so like this sucks royally, but at least i will get some much needed affection. Lets hope my mom doesnt come home like... before work, and find him in my bed. Though if she does i will just be like "You said he could stay the night" ... She did say he had to sleep on the couch or the air matress... but i dont care.
We've had *** many times in my own bed, i even had *** (with someone else) in HER bed, so like whatever. If she sees him sleeping in my bed she knows we didnt do anything because well, this week i cant do..... much.
anywho. I miss marcelo a LOT. I just wanna Kiss him.
I sent him an e mail and told him this :
I think of you when i hear guns and roses.
I think of you when i drink coffee.
I think of you when i see newspapers
I think of you when i pass by Di Napoli's
I think of you when i see anyone working construction
I think of you when i sleep.
I think of you when i wake up.
I think of you when i see our picture together.
... And a lot more... but yea ...
I am happy now, i seen my therapist andi feel a lot better, i told dude about how im having a really tough time not hurting myself. Its been almost a year (september) since i cut. So i really dont want to start again. Its just so hard sometimes, and so tempting.
Today i got some cd's from theresa, she burned me all the System of a down cd's minus toxicity she will get me that soon. And she burnedthe mesmerize one, i already bought it though. and she burned the puddle of mudd cd and the nickelback cd so im fairley happy, i listened tothe whole puddle of mudd cd already as well as nickel back and one system of a down one.
Okay well its 2 am and guess i should sleep.