I feel ... insane ... !?
I've been having these random mood swings all night/this morning.
I'll be happy, then I'll get all depressed. It pretty much sucks.
Like, I'll be talking about something, then I'll totally sound uninterested.
It's so annoying!!
Teh reason is because on July 4th, my cousin came to my state to stay for a couple of weeks, and when we saw each other after about three years, SNAP! We were acting like we'd talked to each other every day for all of our lives. Two weeks of happiness and joy for me ... until yesterday. (still seems like today for me ... 2:30 in the morning)
He left.
He had to go back home.
So now I'm super sad, then I think of all the funny things we did together ... then I remember that he's gone and I won't see him for another year ... and then I remember that I'm going to go visit him in a few weeks ... then I remember after that I won't be able to see him for a long time ...
And it just keeps going on and on and it's making my stomach churn with anxiety, depression, happiness ... everything!
He's like my brother, and I realized how much I'd missed him when he came to visit. I used to go over to his house every summer to hang out with him. We were so close, and I guess that three or four years can't change that ... but I still feel really bad that I won't see him for awhile after I get back from visiting him.
He just makes me feel so happy. He's my favorite person in the world right now.
*goes and cries in corner*