Now the song me and my band were going to play was Coheed And Cambria "Welcome Home" but it was kinda hard for the guitarist.
Nailz, you sound like you need to lighten up on yourself. I don't know you personally, and having high yet achievable expectations are a good thing in that it gives you something to strive for, so long as you don't set the bar too high or too low, and don't set too many bars in place at the one time, even the world's best multitasker can't get everything done in a day. Maybe re-prioritising your goals, or even using this self-examination/introspection to really weigh up who you're trying to please so hard and why (even if it is yourself) and see if there isn't some other way to go about achieving said goals. And nothing could be that urgent you won't live if it's not done (unless said person is terminal, that's a whole other ballgame) - but there's always tomorrow. Just don't slip too far down that slippery slope of procrastination either, look for a happy balance that serves YOU best FIRST (everyone else second etc in order of importance to you, it's your life after all, it's not selfishness, it's a physical fact) and take it one step at a time. If you try and please everyone all the time all you're gonna do is burn yourself out and leave in your wake a trail of half-assed attempts and semi-failures which of course will only help to bring you down further... So there, that's my opinion. Sorry, I felt the inclination to share it. I do that sometimes. I meant often. But opinions are like @$$holes, everyone's got one, we just don't have to hear all about it all the time either XDI'm tired. Still feeling pressured, and when I'm pressed to do something, I tend to crawl into a corner and lie, either to say I did it, or to say I can't for some reason. It sucks. I don't want to let people down, but I can't do everything either. And now at the same time, I want to do more, to surprise people. It's like I can't live up to my own expectations, and that's a terrible feeling.
Must stop with the introspection. It just makes it all worse. But ***, I need a good cry or a hug or to bury myself in a decent book or something.
Thanks, Rav. But the main problem is something I don't even have control over, but think I could do a much better job at. Thing is, I don't have the time (or the personality, really) to do it - but that doesn't stop my **** brain from whispering I would do this better, I should step in, I should speak up. I've always tried to take my mind off everything and enjoy myself on weekends, and for some reason it just didn't work this time.Nailz, you sound like you need to lighten up on yourself. I don't know you personally, and having high yet achievable expectations are a good thing in that it gives you something to strive for, so long as you don't set the bar too high or too low, and don't set too many bars in place at the one time, even the world's best multitasker can't get everything done in a day. Maybe re-prioritising your goals, or even using this self-examination/introspection to really weigh up who you're trying to please so hard and why (even if it is yourself) and see if there isn't some other way to go about achieving said goals. And nothing could be that urgent you won't live if it's not done (unless said person is terminal, that's a whole other ballgame) - but there's always tomorrow. Just don't slip too far down that slippery slope of procrastination either, look for a happy balance that serves YOU best FIRST (everyone else second etc in order of importance to you, it's your life after all, it's not selfishness, it's a physical fact) and take it one step at a time. If you try and please everyone all the time all you're gonna do is burn yourself out and leave in your wake a trail of half-assed attempts and semi-failures which of course will only help to bring you down further... So there, that's my opinion. Sorry, I felt the inclination to share it. I do that sometimes. I meant often. But opinions are like @$$holes, everyone's got one, we just don't have to hear all about it all the time either XDSorry for the rant.
Blame the coffee, chocolate and... me. My mentality. Sorry
How am I feeling? Dunno now. I think I might go watch The Simpsons and see how I'm feeling after that!