[Hawk's Journal]

woodyloveslinkin

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Here's some lyrics you might wanna consider (I wrote them for you cos I was bored) -

Some day is another and another day is some other day

Just to sit here and think to myself as I watch the clock

I don’t know why these things are here but someday they’ll go away

They’ve got all these ghouls around that go around saying “tick tock”

A bomb inside my head is another headache away

Another poison is like a tainted heart to my lips

“I know I shouldn’t be here” is all I’ve got to say

As I realise this trip is another overdose that goes straight to my hips

Bound by the words of an indiscrete promise that seems to sleeps

Touch my chest and pull back the fingers

Of a distorted shadow that follows into the deeps

It lies there waiting in me as it waits and lingers

In the dark, in the coldness of that one cold, cold, night

Where I fell into the depths of an unknown moment

I lose my sense of smell and I slowly seem to be blinded with no sight

You threw me away, away into the memento of a dormant

Volcano seems to splatters its emotional lava onto the ground

Just how I felt when I thought I was sleeping so sound

I am nothing but dirt piled up in a mound

I’m falling back into the pits, down down down…

I threw myself over the edge

I pledge

This crumbling ledge

The deeper the fall

The higher the rising

The deeper the regret

The lighter the pain

 

FireHawk

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A) Yeah its better

B) The only difference is me and her have never got back together lol...and she still hasn't contacted me lol

C) Thats pretty good Woodz I really like the ending a lot and the stanza that starts "Volcanoes....down"

 

FireHawk

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[July 14-15]

July 14th

I broke my streak of being clean. 1500mg of Vicaodin was downed by me today. That must have been close to as much I could do without getting sick since it had been a while. I had hot flashes, my head felt weird, my stomach felt like I was about to throw up. I loved it. I guess, I am weak. I don't know if I want to stop and don't know if I can. The person who got me to quit hasn't texted me or anything since Saturday night. She stopped by my house (without notifying me when I wasn't home) hoping to suprise me. My mom answered and then Jess texted me saying she was hoping we could hang out, but I wasn't home. That is last I talked to her. So I don't know...I don't want to run to her with my problems even though she is only one who helps me.

June 15th

DJ Santana sold me a bunch of awesome studio equipment for cheap. I am really stoked, but its kinda sad he is selling it all. He is gonna start doing non-profit work, but its a good cause. I still got mad respect for him and he is one of my biggest influences.

 

woodyloveslinkin

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Well it's a shame that you broke your streak of being clean but just get back up on your feet with your head held high and a positive attitude to get back on the right track. But nice to hear that you got that equipment for cheap.
 

FireHawk

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[July 16th, 2008]

Its 3:27AM at the time of writing this. The studio in my room is set up and I am gonna be demoing vocals rest of week for album. I am so excited.

I talk to Jess for first time in I guess like 4 days, our first real convo in like a week lol. It started off odd, but it got going she threatened me saying next show I do I better play the song "Paris" which is a song she gave me the idea for. She use to always say I better play "Someday" until she found out second verse was about her. Well she got her hair cut short. It suprised me...she looks older now like her 20s. I don't think I like it as much, but told her it looked great. I guess she is attracting all teh guys and her boyfriend is jealous and keeps asking if I am calling her and stuff. Funny thing is I am not attracted to her anymore and apparently a bunch of guys are. He is focusing on wrong person.

 

FireHawk

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Well no everything is my fault. She has always been nice to me its her boyfriend that stands between us as friends.
 

FireHawk

New member
[July 18, 2008]

Last night around 11 P.M. after work I was on MSN and eating my Baconator (kick *** sandwhich from Wendy's), and me and Jess were talking about my weight loss, which sucks since I only weighed 118 at the end of my senior year of High School. I weighed my self yesterday and I only weigh 109 now. So we were talking and she was saying how worried she was, and asked if I even care about my body. She then ranted about how many times I have been close to death so many times in my life and how my body maybe breaking down. So I finished my food and got in the shower, and came up with an idea for this song and thought half of a verse in the shower. I came back and talked to Jess while I was finished writing the verse. So here it is. I don't think anyone but me really understands what it is about. It is a hidden meaning within another hidden meaning. The first hidden meaning isn't that hard to pick up and actually is kinda a give away. I like it cause its not so in youor face meaning like most of my lyrics. I think though I need to change it though cause I rhyme to much, but maybe not cause it is sung really fast.

Skin and bones on the inside

Just poision me with cyanide

Or give it to me right between the eyes

I provide the gun, don't wear a disguise

I will drive fast in my car

Just to get no where far

Wrap my self around a pole

Just to free my empty soul

I need excitement, don't really want to die

I just want to find my own non narcotic high

 

FireHawk

New member
**** that is my favorite 2 lines lol maybe its how i am singing and pronuncing it...oh well I will try something else
 

FireHawk

New member
[July 22, 2008]

Well me and Jess having a huge fight over stupid stuff IDK what happened to our relationship. Here is what I learned today:

-Don't delete a picture of a girl on your phone

-Don't joke around saying a girl has a dike cut

-Don't say you don't find a girl attractive anymore

I am guessing more to come...

 
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