[Hawk's Journal]
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woodyloveslinkin
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How is he treating her bad? And why haven't you done something about it by now if you feel that way?
FireHawk
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A) He just treats her like **** like all kinds of stuff talks down and **** he stopped after I said something, but she told me today it is getting bad again and they spent whole weekend fighting.
B) She won't let me fight him. She knows one of us would get hurt she doesn't want her boyfriend or her best friend getting hurt, and I have tried countless times to get her to break up with him and to have her find someone at her university this fall cause she deserves better.
B) She won't let me fight him. She knows one of us would get hurt she doesn't want her boyfriend or her best friend getting hurt, and I have tried countless times to get her to break up with him and to have her find someone at her university this fall cause she deserves better.
FireHawk
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[July 25, 2008]
Been going through music...I can only take like 2GB with me on trip :'(...I discovered some good **** that I forgot I had....
Alice In Chains: Greatest Hits
Rob Zomie: Hellbilly Deluxe
The Offspring: Greatest Hits
And a bunch of other stuff and songs I forgot about
Pretty happy about it
Been going through music...I can only take like 2GB with me on trip :'(...I discovered some good **** that I forgot I had....
Alice In Chains: Greatest Hits
Rob Zomie: Hellbilly Deluxe
The Offspring: Greatest Hits
And a bunch of other stuff and songs I forgot about
Pretty happy about it
woodyloveslinkin
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You forgot about the offspring?? I hate you.
FireHawk
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[July 28, 2008]
No much really happened lately. Run down of last few days:
-I finally found a copy of Korn's self titled CD. I think it has been out of print for a while there was an import at Best Buy so I bought it for 12 dollars.
-I went looking at cars for fun with a friend we were bored
-Saw a new Dodge Challenger with a 6.1L DOHC V8 at a Dodge dealership
-I race a Scion tC and beat it pretty good
-I set the fastest lap of the day (it was only 6 P.M. though) at an indoor go cart place doing it in 16.03 seconds
-Talked to Jess for a while
-Found out a lot of people I am friends with at work are gonna get laid off (I was quiting until Christmas Break anyway so it doesn't bother me)
-Finished lyrics on my best lyrical song yet
-Wrote some heavy *** guitar riffs
Thats about it
No much really happened lately. Run down of last few days:
-I finally found a copy of Korn's self titled CD. I think it has been out of print for a while there was an import at Best Buy so I bought it for 12 dollars.
-I went looking at cars for fun with a friend we were bored
-Saw a new Dodge Challenger with a 6.1L DOHC V8 at a Dodge dealership
-I race a Scion tC and beat it pretty good
-I set the fastest lap of the day (it was only 6 P.M. though) at an indoor go cart place doing it in 16.03 seconds
-Talked to Jess for a while
-Found out a lot of people I am friends with at work are gonna get laid off (I was quiting until Christmas Break anyway so it doesn't bother me)
-Finished lyrics on my best lyrical song yet
-Wrote some heavy *** guitar riffs
Thats about it
FireHawk
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I finally dealt with how I felt with Jessica today it feels good to get it off my chest. The events of song never happened but it captures how I felt this is very poor written lyrics so please don't judge my ability on it. I didn't change anything from what I originally had cause I just poured this out to random acoustic guitar.
I need to say sorry
Sorry I don't really love you
I guess I don't do relationships
I guess I am to self centered
So take everything and leave
Its not your fault its mine
Just take everything and leave
Leave my memory far behind
Take everything and leave
You need someone better
Just leave me behind
When I see your sad face
I feel so bad
I feel bad for being so honest
When I have never been honest before
So take everything and leave
Its not your fault its mine
Just take everything and leave
Leave my memory far behind
Take everything and leave
You need someone better
Just leave me behind
Jessica
I don't love you
I hope you understand
This isn't what I had planned
So take everything and leave
Its not your fault its mine
Just take everything and leave
Leave my memory far behind
Take everything and leave
You need someone better
Just leave me behind
Jessica
I don't love you
I hope you understand
This isn't what I had planned
No This isn't what I had planned
This isn't what I had planned
Sorry I don't really love you
I guess I don't do relationships
I guess I am to self centered
So take everything and leave
Its not your fault its mine
Just take everything and leave
Leave my memory far behind
Take everything and leave
You need someone better
Just leave me behind
When I see your sad face
I feel so bad
I feel bad for being so honest
When I have never been honest before
So take everything and leave
Its not your fault its mine
Just take everything and leave
Leave my memory far behind
Take everything and leave
You need someone better
Just leave me behind
Jessica
I don't love you
I hope you understand
This isn't what I had planned
So take everything and leave
Its not your fault its mine
Just take everything and leave
Leave my memory far behind
Take everything and leave
You need someone better
Just leave me behind
Jessica
I don't love you
I hope you understand
This isn't what I had planned
No This isn't what I had planned
This isn't what I had planned
woodyloveslinkin
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That's awesome. Good work!
FireHawk
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Okay just need to vent...
Jess, my best friend, if I still want to call her that is ******* me off. Since like I saw her a month ago she is a different person. She gets her hair cut, and now looks like a *****. Know she talks about all the boys she is getting attention from. She dosen't really give me any advice to my problems unless she thinks its really gonna hurt me, yet always wants me to help with her problems. It use to be a thing until like last month where we tried to help each other with problems. Today she complains her parents say they can't pay for some of her classes in college cause they can't afford it and she askes me what to do. I tell her get a loan or a full time job or both. "You have to spend a lot of money, to start making a lot of money most of the time." Then she says she will think about it. I tell her that is she is just gonna take basica classes and no classes towards a degree she is wasting time and money. She just responded with "Duh". What the ******* ****! JESUS CHRIST! She would never do that to me. Why the **** is the one person who understands me is turning into a ******* *****. To think I actually had feelings for that ***** one time in my life. I am not gonna text her back. I promised I would text her on my cruise (which I leave for tommorow night) as much as possible. **** I am thinking about just not saying anything until she texts me. She will give it like 2 days then ask if I am mad and say how sorry she is, and never wants to hurt our friendship. Then I will wait another day and she will either start worring or text me constantly asking whats wrong. I am thinking maybe I should just leave phone at home. I have had such a good time with her this last year haning out after a 3 year silence and it turned to this? The one person I always wanted to be with, The one person I would hang out with over my other friends...**** IT!
Jess, my best friend, if I still want to call her that is ******* me off. Since like I saw her a month ago she is a different person. She gets her hair cut, and now looks like a *****. Know she talks about all the boys she is getting attention from. She dosen't really give me any advice to my problems unless she thinks its really gonna hurt me, yet always wants me to help with her problems. It use to be a thing until like last month where we tried to help each other with problems. Today she complains her parents say they can't pay for some of her classes in college cause they can't afford it and she askes me what to do. I tell her get a loan or a full time job or both. "You have to spend a lot of money, to start making a lot of money most of the time." Then she says she will think about it. I tell her that is she is just gonna take basica classes and no classes towards a degree she is wasting time and money. She just responded with "Duh". What the ******* ****! JESUS CHRIST! She would never do that to me. Why the **** is the one person who understands me is turning into a ******* *****. To think I actually had feelings for that ***** one time in my life. I am not gonna text her back. I promised I would text her on my cruise (which I leave for tommorow night) as much as possible. **** I am thinking about just not saying anything until she texts me. She will give it like 2 days then ask if I am mad and say how sorry she is, and never wants to hurt our friendship. Then I will wait another day and she will either start worring or text me constantly asking whats wrong. I am thinking maybe I should just leave phone at home. I have had such a good time with her this last year haning out after a 3 year silence and it turned to this? The one person I always wanted to be with, The one person I would hang out with over my other friends...**** IT!
woodyloveslinkin
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I guess in this case Jess has showed her true colours, and her true identity, a little ****-*****-whorebag. Don't waste your time on her JT, I bet you have other friends who are worth your time and your effort.
FireHawk
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Well Jess texted me and said she was sorry at like 2 A.M. and said she was so mad at her Mom she didn't mean to treat me like that and would do anything for forgiveness. So we talked a bit and its all good now. Random playlist I have been listening to...mostly slower songs:
Playlist 1
Zoe Jane - Staind
Yellow Ledbetter - Pearl Jam
My Own Prison - Creed
Wicked Garden - Stone Temple Pilots
Heaven Beside You - Alice In Chains
Going The Distance - Cake
Dead Bodies Everywhere - Korn
All Apologies - Nirvana
Thank You - HELLYEAH
N.I.B. - Black Sabbath
The Beautiful People - Marlyn Manson
Over and Under -Egypt Central
Addicted - Saving Abel
I recommend you check all those songs out.
Playlist 1
Zoe Jane - Staind
Yellow Ledbetter - Pearl Jam
My Own Prison - Creed
Wicked Garden - Stone Temple Pilots
Heaven Beside You - Alice In Chains
Going The Distance - Cake
Dead Bodies Everywhere - Korn
All Apologies - Nirvana
Thank You - HELLYEAH
N.I.B. - Black Sabbath
The Beautiful People - Marlyn Manson
Over and Under -Egypt Central
Addicted - Saving Abel
I recommend you check all those songs out.
woodyloveslinkin
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where are you JTizzle?
DarknessLover
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Yeah he just randomly disapeared
woodyloveslinkin
New member
An X-File maybe?
FireHawk
New member
I am back and with an entry about the cruise I mysteriously left on
I think I left on the 31st so starting the day I left:
-Drove to Indianapolis and stayed it one (of four) houses my mom's boss owns. Stayed night there...
On the 1st:
-Bored airplane at 8:37 A.M. and landed in Memphis, Tennessee. Chilled there till next flight and then landed in Tampa Bay, Florida. Check in to the hotel. I decided to call this place and order spaghetti. They basically delivered me Macaroni with meatballs and spaghetti sauce. It was pretty nasty. Then boring **** happened.
The rest is a blur so here are highlights:
-Got on boat after waiting for ever
-Saw a hilarious comedian at the 18+ show
-Lost 10 bucks at casino :'( (international waters you can gamble at 18 I guess)
-Went to Grand Cayman that place is cool saw a newer Toyota Supra (last gen they made anyway)
-Went to Mexico and talked to some local who wasn't bad looking but hard to understand
- I ate 15 ice cream cones Monday
-Went to an all age comedy
-Went to another adult comedy show with guy from all ages
-Went to 18+ dance area and believe me there was some hot chics in their doing some slutty/good stuff. I was surprised when I was forced to do something I would have willingly done.
-Pizzaeria was open 24 hours!
-My brother won 300 dollars
That was about it...was kinda mehish
I think I left on the 31st so starting the day I left:
-Drove to Indianapolis and stayed it one (of four) houses my mom's boss owns. Stayed night there...
On the 1st:
-Bored airplane at 8:37 A.M. and landed in Memphis, Tennessee. Chilled there till next flight and then landed in Tampa Bay, Florida. Check in to the hotel. I decided to call this place and order spaghetti. They basically delivered me Macaroni with meatballs and spaghetti sauce. It was pretty nasty. Then boring **** happened.
The rest is a blur so here are highlights:
-Got on boat after waiting for ever
-Saw a hilarious comedian at the 18+ show
-Lost 10 bucks at casino :'( (international waters you can gamble at 18 I guess)
-Went to Grand Cayman that place is cool saw a newer Toyota Supra (last gen they made anyway)
-Went to Mexico and talked to some local who wasn't bad looking but hard to understand
- I ate 15 ice cream cones Monday
-Went to an all age comedy
-Went to another adult comedy show with guy from all ages
-Went to 18+ dance area and believe me there was some hot chics in their doing some slutty/good stuff. I was surprised when I was forced to do something I would have willingly done.
-Pizzaeria was open 24 hours!
-My brother won 300 dollars
That was about it...was kinda mehish
