[Hawk's Journal]

[woodyloveslinkin]

totally nude...? can i have some visual proof like photos please?

 

[FireHawk]

of me nude?

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

yeah of course.

 

[FireHawk]

okay tommorow

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

my red words rock your white words

 

[FireHawk]

Yeah but your not part of the fad with red words....

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So last few days me and Jess have grown close again its great having my friend back. Except I told her I had lost 13 pounds since June so now I weigh 107lbs. She is so worried about me now and wants me to go to a doctor ASAP. I finally agreed if I hit 100lbs I will. I don't know what is wrong with me I eat the same as I always have I am kinda scared to go to the doctor, and find out I guess. I guess I will deal with it when needed.

I wenet shopping for clothes and found my two new favorite clothing brands. Urban Pipeline and Tony Hawk. Both availbile at Khols My brother got a bunch of Hollister, American Eagle, and Abercrombie ****...

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

welcome to my world, dan's new nickname for me is fatty, i know he's kidding...and oh btw i've adopted you as my brother...so you're Rav's new son.

 

[FireHawk]

Yay we all familiy

And i will check your story some time this week got my hands tied getting stuff toghether before uni move in saturday! w00t here i come Purdue!

 

[FireHawk]

...Cannot contain how I feel

I never saw you this way

It cannot be real

It must be a new day

The beauty you hide

The **** I feel

The beauty I am starting to find

I guess it is real

The skirt you wear

Makes me want to get in your pants

The feelings you don't share

Please just give me one chance

I want to feel you skin

Just want to take you to a new land

Maybe something could begin

Or maybe just a one night stand

I am sorry

If I am coming on to strong

Don't you worry

I won't do anything wrong

You can trust me

You can take my hand

I will let you see

A completely different man...

These words I wrote have never been as strong as they are now. Me and my ex been talking. She says she wants me so bad but knows I am not the one for her. But for some reason I am only one who turns her on like I do instantly. The funny thing is I feel the same for her. She would never cheat on her ex. I know that. I don't expect it. But my **** I can't contain, I need some way to heal this pain.

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

Then she doesn't really want you that bad if she knows you're not the one for her. She lies!! Good lyrics as well, got to me as well, in the good emotional side.

 

[FireHawk]

sexually she wants me but she doesn't have feelings for me...is what was meant...me and her both feel the same lol

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

lol, mind me but i reckon she's a bit of a ****, if that's too bold for me to say.

 

[FireHawk]

Well she won't cheat so she is not really a **** lol

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

but she only finds you sexually attractive....right? or am i missing something here?

 

[FireHawk]

Yeah she has said (we got in some wierd combination) that is she wasn't in a relation ship she would "come over right now and have a lot of fun"

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

so **** buddies? omg, JT stop thinking with your **** and see that you're/someone is going to end up hurt. **** buddies don't work.....i know from experience.

 

[FireHawk]

Meh it worked before...then we had a bit arguement...but me and her are like best friends again lol mainly cause her boyfriend and i are cool now

no she won't be a **** buddy with a boyfriend

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

my advice? even though she's your best friend, she should remain your best friend, just friends, no *** or no fooling around. and find another girl

 

[FireHawk]

I leave Saturday and plan on finding a girlfriend

...I'd do her though if she didn't have a bf and I didn't have a gf (like i don't now)....

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

I would be your gf if I could JT