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woodyloveslinkin
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I found it okay. Depends what mood I am in.
Laugh at this all you want but it's a challenge and I like a challenge. My friends and I are trying to make a metal cover of Britney Spears' 'Lucky' and 'Stronger'.
Laugh at this all you want but it's a challenge and I like a challenge. My friends and I are trying to make a metal cover of Britney Spears' 'Lucky' and 'Stronger'.
woodyloveslinkin
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I used to be able to do that dance in Stronger, when I was like, lol 14. And I always wanted to do that chair spinning thing on a glass floor (like in the film clip) apparently its **** hard to do, without falling off. Lol. You must think I listen to the most shittest music sometimes. I think I listen to the most *** awful pop **** sometimes. If I like pop, it's got to be old pop, well, except for Christina Aguilera's Candyman, lol, I only realised how slutty that song was until I listened to it. But coming from a film maker pov, that was a very creative film clip. ^^
FireHawk
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[May 18, 2008, 3:30 AM]
Well just got back from post prom. I did not win a **** thing. There was some interesting stuff though that happened. My one friend won $150 worth of gas, but thats not that interesting. My other friend got ditched by his date and during prom and earlier that day was a real ***** to him. So they argued the whole time, I feel bad even though I didn't enjoy my post-prom and didn't attend prom it has to suck for them.
My ex-girlfriend/one of my best friends totally avoided me. Friday she was talking about "Oh you are gonna have to come see my hair. Make sure you say hi." My guess is her date didn't want me and her to be around each other, or she didn't want us to meet. I know she knows he wants to kick my *** (they were going out for 1-1/2 years until she broke up with me even though we only went out for a week we still dated and "did things"), and I will fight him. I will also lose, and she knows that too. My guess is in about an hour she will text me saying she didn't see me or she didn't want us to fight. I don't even have anything against the guy and I don't think he should have anything against me anymore since they started going out again about 2 weeks ago (even though she hid it from me till I found out 2 days later).
She is really starting to stress me out. I don't really like her as more than a friend anymore, but its still annoying. She has added so much to my life since November, but she has also added a lot of stress. I feel bad for her because her friendship with me has lost her a lot friends and other things. At times (especially in February around Valentines Day) me being in her life cause so much grief for her. She insists that we keep our friendship because she wants me in her life. She says she doesn't want it to be like the past 3 years prior to November (we didn't talk after 8th grade, mostly cause I was ashamed to talk to so many of my friends after my first pill addiction ended beginning of Freshman year.) I don't know what to do. For some reason their is a part of me that I think is in love with her, but at the same time I am thinking I am crazy because I never really got a chance (she broke up with me cause she was torn between her current boyfriend and me). The point that really makes me mad though is I know her boyfriend treats her like ****. She knows it to. I would be soo happy for her if it was anybody but him. I wouldn't even care if it was with one of my biggest enemies. I just want her treated right. Our relationship is so weird cause we hang out between work and school, but I know we don't have feelings for each other and when I asked if it was okay with her boyfriend she says it is. I think though she is lying to me. I am so confused with her especially lately. I don't know why I care so much cause lately I have noticed things between me and her that would never work out anyway even if I did like her more than I think.
Well just got back from post prom. I did not win a **** thing. There was some interesting stuff though that happened. My one friend won $150 worth of gas, but thats not that interesting. My other friend got ditched by his date and during prom and earlier that day was a real ***** to him. So they argued the whole time, I feel bad even though I didn't enjoy my post-prom and didn't attend prom it has to suck for them.
My ex-girlfriend/one of my best friends totally avoided me. Friday she was talking about "Oh you are gonna have to come see my hair. Make sure you say hi." My guess is her date didn't want me and her to be around each other, or she didn't want us to meet. I know she knows he wants to kick my *** (they were going out for 1-1/2 years until she broke up with me even though we only went out for a week we still dated and "did things"), and I will fight him. I will also lose, and she knows that too. My guess is in about an hour she will text me saying she didn't see me or she didn't want us to fight. I don't even have anything against the guy and I don't think he should have anything against me anymore since they started going out again about 2 weeks ago (even though she hid it from me till I found out 2 days later).
She is really starting to stress me out. I don't really like her as more than a friend anymore, but its still annoying. She has added so much to my life since November, but she has also added a lot of stress. I feel bad for her because her friendship with me has lost her a lot friends and other things. At times (especially in February around Valentines Day) me being in her life cause so much grief for her. She insists that we keep our friendship because she wants me in her life. She says she doesn't want it to be like the past 3 years prior to November (we didn't talk after 8th grade, mostly cause I was ashamed to talk to so many of my friends after my first pill addiction ended beginning of Freshman year.) I don't know what to do. For some reason their is a part of me that I think is in love with her, but at the same time I am thinking I am crazy because I never really got a chance (she broke up with me cause she was torn between her current boyfriend and me). The point that really makes me mad though is I know her boyfriend treats her like ****. She knows it to. I would be soo happy for her if it was anybody but him. I wouldn't even care if it was with one of my biggest enemies. I just want her treated right. Our relationship is so weird cause we hang out between work and school, but I know we don't have feelings for each other and when I asked if it was okay with her boyfriend she says it is. I think though she is lying to me. I am so confused with her especially lately. I don't know why I care so much cause lately I have noticed things between me and her that would never work out anyway even if I did like her more than I think.
woodyloveslinkin
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You shouldn't worry about her if she's going to treat you like that. You deserve better than someone who says one thing but never lives up to her word.
Aww and I had such a good feeling you were going to get the TV.
Oh well, there's more better things to be won in life rather than a TV that's going to end up in the trash anyway. Maybe you were too good for the TV to have you as its master.
Aww and I had such a good feeling you were going to get the TV.
Oh well, there's more better things to be won in life rather than a TV that's going to end up in the trash anyway. Maybe you were too good for the TV to have you as its master.
FireHawk
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The TV was cheap I saw it lolYou shouldn't worry about her if she's going to treat you like that. You deserve better than someone who says one thing but never lives up to her word.Aww and I had such a good feeling you were going to get the TV.
This is the first time she has ever done something like this to me. She has given up a lot to stay friends with me but then she did this. Maybe it shouldn't bother me...she stayed up till 2AM on the phone with me the Wednesday or Thursday night in a time when I needed it the most. Without her I don't know how many pills I would have popped and how much pot I would have smoked. She got me off the drugs and convinced I am better without them. She begged me to stop and get rid of them and I did. I am so thankful for her.
woodyloveslinkin
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Well I see she's done a lot of positive things for you, that in itself is good, maybe you should let it go and talk to her tomorrow about it, send her txt message asking "wtf is going on?" or something less harsh so you guys can talk things over.
FireHawk
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I probably will I think that lately I have just been on a mental roller coaster with the whole getting of drugs thing and right now everything major emotion here then something else happens and I have a different major emotion at the drop of a dime.
Anyway some lyrics I came up with and I won't like I stole the lyric melody off of "My December" although it is a bit different and there is no rapping. Its is still kinda a rip off but the instrumental is WAY more epic and I think gives a sadder tone than My December (which is unbelievable I know)
Anyway some lyrics I came up with and I won't like I stole the lyric melody off of "My December" although it is a bit different and there is no rapping. Its is still kinda a rip off but the instrumental is WAY more epic and I think gives a sadder tone than My December (which is unbelievable I know)
Note: This song isn't finished and the words in "*" are not said obviously and I haven't revised it yet I wrote in like 10 minutes.
woodyloveslinkin
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That's awesome. But I reckon my depressing DS sigs are better. Lol. Jk.
Aww, that was heartwarming. Me like <3
Aww, that was heartwarming. Me like <3
woodyloveslinkin
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I only have kick *** sigs for DS I've noticed this building trend.
But if you're in the LPF Band thing, we could make a kick *** lyric team if both of us pair up.
I've noticed this building trend.But if you're in the LPF Band thing, we could make a kick *** lyric team if both of us pair up.
FireHawk
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Yeah we should pair up and see what we can doI only have kick *** sigs for DS
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speaking of lyrics...the last song that will be getting recorded I am gonna post lyrics to...
woodyloveslinkin
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I'll do my best to dig up some old lyrics from my old band "The Ones Left Behind" where I was the ONLY lyric writer. But naturally, it's like poetry, just add music and rhythm.
woodyloveslinkin
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Lol. I do it the opposite way around. I find the beat inside my head with the words and not the music.
woodyloveslinkin
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Sarah******
Good night Justin
Good night Justin
FireHawk
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[May 18th, 2008]
I just got home from about 3 hours of jamming and 1 hour of song writing with these new guys. Everything is clicking with us, but we need a drummer so bad so that is our biggest goal right now. Well today was good I don't really have much else to say.
Now that I think of it I was right. My ex told me that her boyfriend said he would get mad if me and her talked a prom or post-prom. I think its stupid still but what ever **** it. She said she was very sorry it had to be that way, I believe she meant it to since she brought it up.
I just got home from about 3 hours of jamming and 1 hour of song writing with these new guys. Everything is clicking with us, but we need a drummer so bad so that is our biggest goal right now. Well today was good I don't really have much else to say.
Now that I think of it I was right. My ex told me that her boyfriend said he would get mad if me and her talked a prom or post-prom. I think its stupid still but what ever **** it. She said she was very sorry it had to be that way, I believe she meant it to since she brought it up.