[Hawk's Journal]
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FireHawk
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[June 11, 2008]
[12:19 A.M.]
Today is a new day. This journal is gonna prove it. I am going back to the one thing that made me start this journal. The Music And Possibility Of Becoming What I Dream. I am done obsessing over Jess and if we are friends still, and will take it day by day and not let it take over me.
Yesterday I got up at about 11:00 AM. There was a envelope with "Justin" in cursive on my dresser. I was like "What the ****?!". I opened and almost came to tears when I was done. My dad apologizing and asking forgiveness for the last 5 years. He even wrote about time that meant so much to him, my getting my PRS and when I got my Mustang. And the times he thought we funny like my first wreck. He said he isn't sure what is wrong with me, but said if I need help his here. He also said he would do anything to help me get through music, and would be fine if I only go to Purdue next year and then drop out to pursue music career. I wrote a letter back to him and am gonna give it to him tomorrow after work.
This letter made me realize maybe music is my calling. I have written over 300 songs, in my life (only last 50 or so have had full lyrics). I even had a chance to record a solo album, but threw it all away. Right now I would be starting to record guitars, but no I am jamming with a band that is opposite of music I was gonna record. Its not a bad thing, but I think when I leave for college they will replace me. I am gonna talk to them about it this weekend. The singer did mention before if I get replaced it would be temp till I came back since I am one of the main writers of the songs. I am just worried. I don't know I am probably fine. Oh well.
I was told they are recommending me to supervisor for anger management or lose my job. I threw a wrench a couple hundred feet when I got mad today and threw a hammer down. I never use to be like this but the last month or so my emotions are wild. I don't want to lose my job, I love it.
[12:19 A.M.]
Today is a new day. This journal is gonna prove it. I am going back to the one thing that made me start this journal. The Music And Possibility Of Becoming What I Dream. I am done obsessing over Jess and if we are friends still, and will take it day by day and not let it take over me.
Yesterday I got up at about 11:00 AM. There was a envelope with "Justin" in cursive on my dresser. I was like "What the ****?!". I opened and almost came to tears when I was done. My dad apologizing and asking forgiveness for the last 5 years. He even wrote about time that meant so much to him, my getting my PRS and when I got my Mustang. And the times he thought we funny like my first wreck. He said he isn't sure what is wrong with me, but said if I need help his here. He also said he would do anything to help me get through music, and would be fine if I only go to Purdue next year and then drop out to pursue music career. I wrote a letter back to him and am gonna give it to him tomorrow after work.
This letter made me realize maybe music is my calling. I have written over 300 songs, in my life (only last 50 or so have had full lyrics). I even had a chance to record a solo album, but threw it all away. Right now I would be starting to record guitars, but no I am jamming with a band that is opposite of music I was gonna record. Its not a bad thing, but I think when I leave for college they will replace me. I am gonna talk to them about it this weekend. The singer did mention before if I get replaced it would be temp till I came back since I am one of the main writers of the songs. I am just worried. I don't know I am probably fine. Oh well.
I was told they are recommending me to supervisor for anger management or lose my job. I threw a wrench a couple hundred feet when I got mad today and threw a hammer down. I never use to be like this but the last month or so my emotions are wild. I don't want to lose my job, I love it.
woodyloveslinkin
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**** no.
We have Target, Kmart, and Big W.
OMG.
You have stopped obsessing over Jess. But for how long is the question?
Well. It's a good starter anyway.
FireHawk
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[June 11, 2008]
[11:33 A.M.]
I woke up today and not stressed. My eyes hurt a bit cause I feel asleep with contacts in. I trying to finish writing this song for band. Working titled called "Norbid". I was given it and it was just a bunch of power chord quarter notes the vocalist/other guitarist had. I put a lead line over it. Its 135BPM, but seems very slow. I have no idea what mood he was aiming for on it. We decide we were gonna take a week off and just try to come up with ideas. Sunday I am hoping to me back up with them and talk about the future.
I think I am gonna call my friend Marc, up and hit up the underage dance club (20 years old and younger are only ones allowed in.) I heard there was some hot chic there. Now that I think of it his graduation party is Saturday night so maybe we won't go up there. Oh well his party will be crazy, it will be a party since his parents don't care if there is alcohol there.
[11:33 A.M.]
I woke up today and not stressed. My eyes hurt a bit cause I feel asleep with contacts in. I trying to finish writing this song for band. Working titled called "Norbid". I was given it and it was just a bunch of power chord quarter notes the vocalist/other guitarist had. I put a lead line over it. Its 135BPM, but seems very slow. I have no idea what mood he was aiming for on it. We decide we were gonna take a week off and just try to come up with ideas. Sunday I am hoping to me back up with them and talk about the future.
I think I am gonna call my friend Marc, up and hit up the underage dance club (20 years old and younger are only ones allowed in.) I heard there was some hot chic there. Now that I think of it his graduation party is Saturday night so maybe we won't go up there. Oh well his party will be crazy, it will be a party since his parents don't care if there is alcohol there.
MrsBennington-Delson
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coolness bout you're band 
I think this week off ain't that bad... its like what LP did for mtm
oh yeah... haha... have fun at your friends party! I guess it will really be craaazy =P haha :thumbsup:
I think this week off ain't that bad... its like what LP did for mtm
oh yeah... haha... have fun at your friends party! I guess it will really be craaazy =P haha :thumbsup:
woodyloveslinkin
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...don't get too smashed, lol.
woodyloveslinkin
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Have ever tried walking half way across town while your smashed?
I have. Got asked for my ID three times by the cops. Grand moments.
I have. Got asked for my ID three times by the cops. Grand moments.
woodyloveslinkin
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What's your alcohol content limit in your breath over there before you're considered DUI? Our's is 0.05.
woodyloveslinkin
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Sounds our L platers (speed limit 50kms) and our P platers (both red (speed limit 90kms) plates and green (speed limit 100 kms) plates) before you can actually get your solid black licence which is 0.05.
woodyloveslinkin
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haha. use a laptop.
woodyloveslinkin
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oh poor diddums
FireHawk
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[June 12, 2008]
I woke to the alarm clock playing *** Itch by Korn. I laid in my bed for some reason and thought "What in the world is life for? Will I ever do anything meaningful? Will I find true love? How come I was never interested in love until last February?" A loud bang disturbed my thoughts. I jumped out of bed and it turns out my brother dropped a big table looking thing. I got in the shower, and came up with some awesome lyrics. Jess texted me so I lost concentration and forgot them all, when I reached out of shower to grab phone. Had a nice little text convo with her. Then jumped back in shower and finished off getting clean. Surfed the net for a while. I had to go to the eye doctor cause I need new glasses since mine are like WAY old. My contacts are good though so I didn't really worry about them. I found out my head is really small. I had to try on kids classes, but they were to small so I bought some and had to get a custom size so its gonna be a lot of cash. Now I am just sitting here semi-bored. I don't really want to go to work, but I could use the money...Tomorrow I go to Purdue (for the first time), and schedule classes and check out my dorm. I am excited about that.
Two more days until band practice again!!!
I woke to the alarm clock playing *** Itch by Korn. I laid in my bed for some reason and thought "What in the world is life for? Will I ever do anything meaningful? Will I find true love? How come I was never interested in love until last February?" A loud bang disturbed my thoughts. I jumped out of bed and it turns out my brother dropped a big table looking thing. I got in the shower, and came up with some awesome lyrics. Jess texted me so I lost concentration and forgot them all, when I reached out of shower to grab phone. Had a nice little text convo with her. Then jumped back in shower and finished off getting clean. Surfed the net for a while. I had to go to the eye doctor cause I need new glasses since mine are like WAY old. My contacts are good though so I didn't really worry about them. I found out my head is really small. I had to try on kids classes, but they were to small so I bought some and had to get a custom size so its gonna be a lot of cash. Now I am just sitting here semi-bored. I don't really want to go to work, but I could use the money...Tomorrow I go to Purdue (for the first time), and schedule classes and check out my dorm. I am excited about that.
Two more days until band practice again!!!
