stupidsoul1
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dammit that must of made that place less quiet
JammerG's Jornal
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Ravynlee
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Hey, sent your script. Hope all's going well back with your ex/husband/whatever. If I'm allowed to, say hi to the kids for me. I miss Atlanta *starts crying* This sux.
See ya when you come back for Thurs/Fri sleepover! We have lots of new LP vids to catch up on! *wipes drool off chin* Written about 20pgs. Will do more later. Can't wait to read more of yours. Well, have good day/s,
TTYL, *big hugs*
-Rav/Rob's Gurl
See ya when you come back for Thurs/Fri sleepover! We have lots of new LP vids to catch up on! *wipes drool off chin* Written about 20pgs. Will do more later. Can't wait to read more of yours. Well, have good day/s,
TTYL, *big hugs*
-Rav/Rob's Gurl
twilightcrimson7
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WOW that's scary, JG!! You and Rav protect yourselves!!!
JammerG
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Hey my Sweet Thang!!!
Miss my sister muchly!!!
Two more sleeps and I am back... Everything is going well at home with Russell. Hardest part is going to be once we start getting into full on councilling!!! Freaky **** to come out of that!!!
anyway am going to write a huge post Saturday Morning before I leave Ravyns... Will let you all know how things are going then...
Love you all, Will chat soon I promise!!!
stupidsoul1
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wwwwooooo!!!!! i cant wait to read it =)
nice to know you are alive and well.
nice to know you are alive and well.
JammerG
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Hey Soul, nice to see you dropping by honey, Hope Sydney is ok for you!!!
OK... I am going to update everyone..
I decided when I got back from Mum's to try one more time with Russell. Well I have. Saturday just gone I moved back in. Not full time! I still have two days off at Ravyn's (THANK THE GODS FOR THAT!!!)
We seem to be going ok, but I keep getting the smothered feeling. And my kids are as noisy and rowdy as usual. Saturday was fine, it was fun. I looked after the kids while Russ went and did some grocery shopping. he tells me he loves me every day. and tells me it's me time, and that I am gorgeous. He asks me if I want a cuppa. Or if I want to have something to eat. He makes me breakfast every morning (When I let him, I made breakfast this morning for the twins and Atlanta)
anyway back on track. I invited a friend of ours, Tina over with her four boys. eldest three are almost young gentlemen. The youngest is another thing. He is a terror. He will wait until you actually take things off him before he stops doing the wrong thing. But he gets into everything and was really rude to his mum.
I cooked us hamburgers for dinner on Saturday night. It was yummy!!! Atlanta decided she would stay at tina's on Saturday night (I think her and Matt the eldest boy have a thang going on)
Sunday morning I had a swim in the bath. No Joke the bathtub in this place is huge. I laid in there for a good hour, maybe hour and a half. Then I showered and dressed for the day and helped Russell do breakfast for the twins. We went to Tina's to pick up Atlanta at 10.00 am and stayed until Russell began to feel sick. He looked green under his tan. I think it was too much sun shining on the back of his neck for two hours. Anyway we went home and I rang up Pam to see if I could get her copy of meet the fokker's. Nash, when we went there to pick up the dvd, said the wrong thing to Pam about her now exboyfriend (She is really cut really bad) she began to cry. We left there and came home and we watched the dvd. Man I love it!!! tell me I have a wierd sense of humor but Hoffman and Striesand make for great viewing. ******* brilliant!!! Sunday night I made pancakes and garlic bread for dinner. Something basic and lite!!!
Monday I went to work and spent some time writing out stuff at work and doing the library. Monday night I got home all ready to cook a yummy feed of snags, creamy mashed potato, Beans in butter and pepper, Corn on the cob.
Grant turned up and so I put the kettle on. Not only was the kettle on but the electric Frypan, the small plug in hot plate; the kids had the stereo, dvd and tv going, Nash had sneaked into my room and turned on the computer. well it bllew all the fuses. anyway by the time the guys had fixed the fuses I had the wood stove going. (My husband russell can't light a fire to save his life... friggen know it all survivalists!!!) So I cooked dinner on the wood stove, which was pretty easy. It warmed the whole house up and so I was walking around in shorts and shirt!!
Today (Tuesday) wnet to work and came home and did spag bol. It is late and I am posting to you guys.
Being here is a little full on I can't wait to get to Ravyns so I can take a breath.
Take care all of you Gods and Goddesses
Be good To One another
stupidsoul1
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wow jammer it sounds like its going to be nothing but busy from now on
good luck
yeah sydney is fine.
good luck
yeah sydney is fine.
twilightcrimson7
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Hey Jammer hun...
sounds like you're life is going pretty good, and I'm really glad to hear that you're happy...
but I'm going to had to agree with Rav... it just doesn't seem right...
I'm not really involves with your life or anything like that, so I'm not gunna say, but you are my friends (wether you like it or not
) and I dun wanna see you get hurt!!
take care Jammer!! *big hugs*
sounds like you're life is going pretty good, and I'm really glad to hear that you're happy...
but I'm going to had to agree with Rav... it just doesn't seem right...
I'm not really involves with your life or anything like that, so I'm not gunna say, but you are my friends (wether you like it or not
) and I dun wanna see you get hurt!!take care Jammer!! *big hugs*
Hybrid-Heart
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glad to hear that your life is going just fine
and that you're back with russel.. *dunno if this is a good thing or a bad thing*
"So I cooked dinner on the wood stove, which was pretty easy. It warmed the whole house up and so I was walking around in shorts and shirt!!"
lol that really cracked me up XD i dunno why
well take care *hugs*
and that you're back with russel.. *dunno if this is a good thing or a bad thing*
"So I cooked dinner on the wood stove, which was pretty easy. It warmed the whole house up and so I was walking around in shorts and shirt!!"
lol that really cracked me up XD i dunno why
well take care *hugs*
JammerG
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Hey Rayvn, my bestest friend, Thank you for your insight, it will give me stuff to think on over the next few weeks. Love you baby see you this afternoon!!!
Thanks to HYBI, TWI, SSOUL1 AND SHAH... I am in no way fully positive that this is the right step. I feel a little intimidated but am working on it. I am thinking positive but, I know that if in the end we are not meant to be together, then we won't be together.
Like I said one last shot!
We went to marriage councilling yesterday. It went ok. But Russell and I come from different worlds. I am a woman, an extrovert, an artist who loves being alone for private reflection and time. I love being alone. When I show affection or emotion I do it wildly, even argueing you could hear me around the world most times... hehehe
Russell on the other hand is a man, an introvert, who is a manly theoretical, scientific person who grew up without having a private space. He wants to be around all the time and he can be smothering, He doesn't like being alone. He won't kiss in public.. though he will hold hands. These days since he started university, he argues quietly...
Wow poles apart in our formation hey? Well like I said one more shot.
This is it.
Love you all JammerG
Thanks to HYBI, TWI, SSOUL1 AND SHAH... I am in no way fully positive that this is the right step. I feel a little intimidated but am working on it. I am thinking positive but, I know that if in the end we are not meant to be together, then we won't be together.
Like I said one last shot!
We went to marriage councilling yesterday. It went ok. But Russell and I come from different worlds. I am a woman, an extrovert, an artist who loves being alone for private reflection and time. I love being alone. When I show affection or emotion I do it wildly, even argueing you could hear me around the world most times... hehehe
Russell on the other hand is a man, an introvert, who is a manly theoretical, scientific person who grew up without having a private space. He wants to be around all the time and he can be smothering, He doesn't like being alone. He won't kiss in public.. though he will hold hands. These days since he started university, he argues quietly...
Wow poles apart in our formation hey? Well like I said one more shot.
This is it.
Love you all JammerG
stupidsoul1
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wow, your relationship with eachother some how sounds great...being so different allows room for you to learn a whole bunch of **** you wouldnt of gotten the chance to with someone like extroverted like yourself and the same way around for him.
Ravynlee
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Hello hon, me again,
Not here to rant this time, *** knows I've been doing enough of that lately (Hot-head that I am) but just thought I'd drop in and say hi. I know you don't get much of a chance to post much anymore between playing happy families over there, work at Kumbari and now at the CC (congrats again) and then on top of all that staying here for those two days and staying up all night, sleeping when I'm awake and up writing when I'm asleep... it's no wonder time's a bit of a blur this week, huh? *laughs*
But I keep reading your latest installment of fic, looking for inspiration to hit me...as of yet I'm still waiting but have kept downloading, as I do, and have even contemplated REINSTALLING SIMS2 again!!! OMFG it's SOOO tempting you have no idea... but this thing that viewer program done to my CPU is dodgy, so I'm going to hold out til I can afford to get it seen to, then but the EXP pack (University - I want a Rob sim to play the new drum kit!! ye-ha!!) but until my fic is done I promised I wouldn't so I'll stick to that. Besides... I'm so imagining a continuum for this Hallmark I think once I get past this mental-block that's temporarily stopped me I'm not going to finish it... You know me... you know I'll write all day everyday if the urge takes me. But if I go back to TAFE next month then I'll have to temper it a little... maybe. *wicked grins*
Anyway, you probably won't read this til Tuesday when you're on a lunch break @ Uni, so I'll say a belated hello, hope thinsg are okay, hope you're still writing (You'd better be or I'll whoop you'r @$$ missy! *laughs*) Oh yeah, downloaded that Eminem song we saw lastnight (Fri nite on Rage - @$$ like that, song rocks... Eminem's cool... funny bahstardo!)
Well you take care. Say hello to litlle Kenji for me! *laughs again* See you Thursday arvo.
BTW, like I told you earlier, don't stress regarding phone bill, I'll ring and get an extention Tuesday. If I can't I'll ring your mob, okay? We'll deal with s**t as it comes. It's all good. (Holds up all fingers bar ring finger - you know what that means, sista! *sly grins*) Take care. I expect another 20-30 pages of classic hallmark before thursday. No exceptions! *smirk*
Have fun @ work/Uni/happy families. See you next week! *Big squeeze hugs*
Lubjoo
-Rav
Not here to rant this time, *** knows I've been doing enough of that lately (Hot-head that I am) but just thought I'd drop in and say hi. I know you don't get much of a chance to post much anymore between playing happy families over there, work at Kumbari and now at the CC (congrats again) and then on top of all that staying here for those two days and staying up all night, sleeping when I'm awake and up writing when I'm asleep... it's no wonder time's a bit of a blur this week, huh? *laughs*
But I keep reading your latest installment of fic, looking for inspiration to hit me...as of yet I'm still waiting but have kept downloading, as I do, and have even contemplated REINSTALLING SIMS2 again!!! OMFG it's SOOO tempting you have no idea... but this thing that viewer program done to my CPU is dodgy, so I'm going to hold out til I can afford to get it seen to, then but the EXP pack (University - I want a Rob sim to play the new drum kit!! ye-ha!!) but until my fic is done I promised I wouldn't so I'll stick to that. Besides... I'm so imagining a continuum for this Hallmark I think once I get past this mental-block that's temporarily stopped me I'm not going to finish it... You know me... you know I'll write all day everyday if the urge takes me. But if I go back to TAFE next month then I'll have to temper it a little... maybe. *wicked grins*
Anyway, you probably won't read this til Tuesday when you're on a lunch break @ Uni, so I'll say a belated hello, hope thinsg are okay, hope you're still writing (You'd better be or I'll whoop you'r @$$ missy! *laughs*) Oh yeah, downloaded that Eminem song we saw lastnight (Fri nite on Rage - @$$ like that, song rocks... Eminem's cool... funny bahstardo!)
Well you take care. Say hello to litlle Kenji for me! *laughs again* See you Thursday arvo.
BTW, like I told you earlier, don't stress regarding phone bill, I'll ring and get an extention Tuesday. If I can't I'll ring your mob, okay? We'll deal with s**t as it comes. It's all good. (Holds up all fingers bar ring finger - you know what that means, sista! *sly grins*) Take care. I expect another 20-30 pages of classic hallmark before thursday. No exceptions! *smirk*
Have fun @ work/Uni/happy families. See you next week! *Big squeeze hugs*
Lubjoo
-Rav
4everLP_Shinoda
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Hi!I was dropping by to say hi,and also I wanted to wish you good luck with Russel,and I hope everything works fine^^.
L8rz.
L8rz.
JammerG
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Hail to the Goddesses and Gods.
**** what do I say. hellooooo I'm home. For good with Ravyn!!!
What do I say. OK started Marriage councilling with Russell. It has come to am impasse!!! I don't love him as my life partner anymore!!! Love him as a friend and the father of our chldren, but it just aint there anymore. Not the ***. Not the ***, but the connectivity. the playing level, The trust the relaxed I feel good you feel good. (It got to the stage where I was feeling "I am happy that having me back makes you happy but I am not happy or comfortable or feeling secure. I am feeling anxious, fearful, on edge and it has gotten to the stage where the food I am cooking is coming up in the early hours. I am feeling smothered and pushed between the proverbial Rock and The Hard Place.) **** I am letting t out aren't I!!!
It has been a scary three week trial period. Well the trial is over. We are now separated and proceedings for custody and access etc will be happening soon..... I want Russell to have the children, Why Because he has the house the car, the furniture and everything. I have managed to get My computer back and I will be getting my fish tank. Waaahoo!!! Troy MacLure eat your heart out.... nothing major I just sit mesmirised for hours looking into the lives of my fish... Especially when they have babies!!!! But yeah. It is amicable and we are in some ways happy t is over but sad it had to end. We just aren't compatable... Freaky **** to work out. Freaky. But hopefully we will stay friends. We cry on each others shoulders over the phone... So that is something to think on... Will post part tow soon... going to cook dinner and hav a smoke... It is around three degree centregrade here in Toowomba... Supposedly there is snow along the NSW Qld Boarder!!! ******* Cold!!!!!
Part Two
Hail to Goddesses and Gods of LPF!!!
So as you can see a lot of scary emotional **** has been happening.
What else has been happening.
I have a severly damaged anti cruciate Ligament.... meaning my ligament at the front of my knee is ******!!! Operation coming up... What freaked the surgeons most is the amount of times I have actually cracked my knee cap!!! They counted at least twelve separate fracture points... But it is so solid with scar tissue it wll probably outlast the rest of my body.
Work is going well. I am slowly but surely getting the resource centre up and running. Wahoo!!! For a Change of pace I am with the help of the lovely Ravynlee touching up all the murals in the courtyard at work... So we can show our art expertise with before and after shots so stay tuned. And even if she doesn't think so I know that Ravynlee is a fantastic artist. Check out the pic of Mike that she sketched in her journal ******* amazing!!! SO CHECK OUT RAVYNS JOURNAL!!!!
Am looking at writing to an author I have come to like to see if I can write a screen play of her novel Kushiel's Dart. ******* amazing book. If it don't suck you in on the first page it sucks!!! This sucked me right in...
Financial news!! I am filing for bankrupsy in July. I can't live this **** life anymore!!! I am sick of it!!! so badly. All I seem to do is pay bills. I would like it if I could afford a nice warm mink style blanket for my bed!!!, and an electric blanket, and a heater... (Even with the heater going in our lounge room the temperature is fifteen degrees!!! **** Cold.) So yeah life is **** when you hit skidsville really bad!!!. So I am officially crying poor on the first of July!!!. It means I can't get a loan for six years, I can't go overseas for five years. I can't enter any competitions that involve flying to the states to see Our boys -Phoenix, Brad, Rob, Joe, Chester and Mike - That is the biggest bummer- what happens if something stupid like a membership barrell draw for all LPU member comes up in the next five years and the winner gets a week in LA with the band and I am the one to get drawn. Get ******.. that would be a bummer but atleast I still get to see them in concert here in Australia - Hopefully!!!
SoThat's what's been happening in my neck of the woods... apart from the work situation: In the last three weeks I have been put in for sixteen jobs had seven interviews and two trials... So far. Am dying to get some work because of substandard living. I finally brought fruit today. Didn't pay any direct debits. So my bank account wll ber over two hundred dollars in the red by Sunday... Yee ******* HAA I hate life so much at the moment that fantasy looks so good...
Thank **** I am the water and towel girl for COB;... BOURDON BOPPER EXTREME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So here I go off to hand out towels to the drooler in All things Rob... EVen though in my heart....
(I still have the hots for BRAD... But he has Monica in his life... does anyone know WTF she is???) I am happy for the man. I can still fantasize...
There it is. All out in the open
Life is pretty ****** at the moment. Well they reckon when you are down the bottom of the well the only way is up... So I am going to scrap my knees and break my nails and scramble back up... See you all when I get there
Take care: SS1, HYBI, VIKING, TACK, VASH, RAVYN, TWI, MISERY, SHAH, AND EVERY OTHER PERSON THAT I MISS...
love you all Take care y'all
TO TOP IT OFF I AM LISTENING TO "I'M NOT OK" BY MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!!!