angelwithburntwings
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"up yours" straight back!!!! lol kidding, thats not too bad, i spose, it could have gone much worse, call her back, tell her you love her, you never know, things might work out...
Is she worth all this pain?
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DarkShadow
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DarkShadow
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ok i talked to her...i asked her if she said "I just don't want to go out with you because I dont want to hurt us" if that means that she does like me that way....she said not necessarily....then I asked her if she would ever go out with me....she said she didn't know...so I asked if she would in the near future and she said no...so I got the impression that she only loves me as a best friend or brother. Which is a good thing but not what I was hoping for...I just love her so much and I would die for her...ugh this is so confusing...
LPGotLinkinPark
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Since you two still want to stay friends, go ahead. You just need to find a way for you to think of her as only a friend and not someone that love. I'm not exactly sure how to do that though. But there's gotta be something.
*mroe hugs*
*mroe hugs*
stupidsoul1
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wow ds is so brave
DarkShadow
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I cried myself to sleep last night....I got maybe 2 hours of sleep. And of course I dreamed about Abby. I decided this isn't going to work out. I'm going to walk up to Abby and say, "**** what I said last night....I can't live like this....I need you." I know that she and I will most likely never go out...but honestly, I want to marry her...spend my whole life with her. I want to hold her and comfort her when she needs it. I want to protect her. I want her...*sigh* I wish there was a way to make these dreams come true....*cries*
DarkShadow
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Well today was just horrible...not talking to abby was a killer....I just gave up and told her I couldn't do it...she broke up with her boyfriend...I told him that I knew she was going to do it and she got ****** at me. Why did she break up with her boyfriend? I'll tell you...it's something I kinda 'left out conveniently' last night...she says she still loves her ex-boyfriend...(the one I almost killed) and honestly, that just takes my heart and wrenches it of all its blood....my heart feels empty. It feels like its been through a blender. The last thing I said to her today was, "what the ****?" and I feel terrible because of it...I want to call and apologize but she's not going to be at her house tonight...she'll be at her friend's house. Ugh I'm back where I was before...depressed as **** and wanting to kill myself...the only difference now is that I'm not going to kill myself...I can't do it..I know better than that now....it's just that I feel so miserable and ****....I mean, I love Abby soooo much...I want to spend my life with her...I want to have kids with her and get married, and die together. 
*cries*
I just wish there was a way to make her love me. I wish there was something I could do...
*cries*
I just wish there was a way to make her love me. I wish there was something I could do...
awwWell today was just horrible...not talking to abby was a killer....I just gave up and told her I couldn't do it...she broke up with her boyfriend...I told him that I knew she was going to do it and she got ****** at me. Why did she break up with her boyfriend? I'll tell you...it's something I kinda 'left out conveniently' last night...she says she still loves her ex-boyfriend...(the one I almost killed) and honestly, that just takes my heart and wrenches it of all its blood....my heart feels empty. It feels like its been through a blender. The last thing I said to her today was, "what the ****?" and I feel terrible because of it...I want to call and apologize but she's not going to be at her house tonight...she'll be at her friend's house. Ugh I'm back where I was before...depressed as **** and wanting to kill myself...the only difference now is that I'm not going to kill myself...I can't do it..I know better than that now....it's just that I feel so miserable and ****....I mean, I love Abby soooo much...I want to spend my life with her...I want to have kids with her and get married, and die together.
*cries*
I just wish there was a way to make her love me. I wish there was something I could do...
*hugs darkshadow*
DarkShadow
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My friend Kalie told me never to give up on abby...haha trust me, I'll never give up on her...There's just no point in trying anymore...she'll never love me... So what's the point in even trying if I won't ever be happy with her? I mean, I really love her...you have no idea how much I love her. I just don't know what to do. Kalie said to just be nice to her, but that probably won't do me much good....besides her being nice back...there's seriously no hope...after this school year is over, I'll most likely never see Abby again...ever. So I'll have no choice but to forget her. I'm scared that when it comes around, I'll do something that I'll regret. I mean bad things...ugh I just don't know what to do anymore....This is all just so confusing...I wish I could just get over her...I wish it was that easy...but I can't. It's impossible. My friend Marett says that I don't love abby...she thinks that I couldn't know what love is because I haven't ever gone out with abby, kissed her, or anything...but obviously she's not noticing how much I really DO love Abby. Marett says that if I loved her I would do anything and everything for her....and that's kinda what I've said all along...I would risk my ******* life for her. I love her...I always will, even if she has hurt me this much...I'll always love her...no matter what happens. I mean...her initials are in my ******* arm...engraved. The scars are permanent. This has got me thinking though...could this be the reason that no girl wants to go out with me? because I love Abby so much? Because her initials are in my arm? Because I'm obsessed with Abby? *cries*
I'd have to say, that so far this year has sucked...especially this month...
So what's the point in even trying if I won't ever be happy with her? I mean, I really love her...you have no idea how much I love her. I just don't know what to do. Kalie said to just be nice to her, but that probably won't do me much good....besides her being nice back...there's seriously no hope...after this school year is over, I'll most likely never see Abby again...ever. So I'll have no choice but to forget her. I'm scared that when it comes around, I'll do something that I'll regret. I mean bad things...ugh I just don't know what to do anymore....This is all just so confusing...I wish I could just get over her...I wish it was that easy...but I can't. It's impossible. My friend Marett says that I don't love abby...she thinks that I couldn't know what love is because I haven't ever gone out with abby, kissed her, or anything...but obviously she's not noticing how much I really DO love Abby. Marett says that if I loved her I would do anything and everything for her....and that's kinda what I've said all along...I would risk my ******* life for her. I love her...I always will, even if she has hurt me this much...I'll always love her...no matter what happens. I mean...her initials are in my ******* arm...engraved. The scars are permanent. This has got me thinking though...could this be the reason that no girl wants to go out with me? because I love Abby so much? Because her initials are in my arm? Because I'm obsessed with Abby? *cries*I'd have to say, that so far this year has sucked...especially this month...
DarkShadow
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Well Abby's friend sera is online, and I'm thinking Abby is with her, but theyre ignoring me...i swear to *** i ******* hate this....
DarkShadow
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meh....whatever
DarkShadow
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ok....thanks
DarkShadow
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*cries uncontrollably*
I think maybe Abby doesn't care at all....
This is a convo with me and Abby's best friend:
Brizzad413 (6:50:35 PM): hey
way2sweet4u278 (6:50:39 PM): hey
Brizzad413 (6:50:54 PM): let me guess..abby's over?
way2sweet4u278 (6:51:03 PM): no
way2sweet4u278 (6:51:07 PM): she left already
Brizzad413 (6:51:10 PM): oh...
way2sweet4u278 (6:51:14 PM): yeah
Brizzad413 (6:51:52 PM): I was gonna ask to talk to her but nvm
Brizzad413 (6:51:52 PM): lol
Auto response from way2sweet4u278 (6:51:53 PM): ********make a wish********
Brizzad413 (6:52:04 PM): did she tell you?
way2sweet4u278 (6:52:31 PM): yes she told me
Brizzad413 (6:52:37 PM): oh
Brizzad413 (6:52:43 PM): well is she upset?
way2sweet4u278 (6:52:51 PM): haa no
Brizzad413 (6:53:00 PM): so she doesn't care?
way2sweet4u278 (6:53:34 PM): she cares that you keep saying you are going to stop or do something and then you don't
Brizzad413 (6:54:01 PM): Well I mean...I want to get over her....if you know what I mean....but I can't not be friends with her
Brizzad413 (6:54:05 PM): if that makes sense
Brizzad413 (6:54:14 PM): I mean....this is really hard for me
Brizzad413 (6:54:37 PM): I still love her, and I think I always will....but I'm trying to get rid of that feeling and just be her friend
way2sweet4u278 (6:54:54 PM): well do it then biznotch
Brizzad413 (6:55:02 PM): I've tried
way2sweet4u278 (6:55:06 PM): ok well i g2g
way2sweet4u278 (6:55:09 PM): cya
I think maybe Abby doesn't care at all....
This is a convo with me and Abby's best friend:
Brizzad413 (6:50:35 PM): hey
way2sweet4u278 (6:50:39 PM): hey
Brizzad413 (6:50:54 PM): let me guess..abby's over?
way2sweet4u278 (6:51:03 PM): no
way2sweet4u278 (6:51:07 PM): she left already
Brizzad413 (6:51:10 PM): oh...
way2sweet4u278 (6:51:14 PM): yeah
Brizzad413 (6:51:52 PM): I was gonna ask to talk to her but nvm
Brizzad413 (6:51:52 PM): lol
Auto response from way2sweet4u278 (6:51:53 PM): ********make a wish********
Brizzad413 (6:52:04 PM): did she tell you?
way2sweet4u278 (6:52:31 PM): yes she told me
Brizzad413 (6:52:37 PM): oh
Brizzad413 (6:52:43 PM): well is she upset?
way2sweet4u278 (6:52:51 PM): haa no
Brizzad413 (6:53:00 PM): so she doesn't care?
way2sweet4u278 (6:53:34 PM): she cares that you keep saying you are going to stop or do something and then you don't
Brizzad413 (6:54:01 PM): Well I mean...I want to get over her....if you know what I mean....but I can't not be friends with her
Brizzad413 (6:54:05 PM): if that makes sense
Brizzad413 (6:54:14 PM): I mean....this is really hard for me
Brizzad413 (6:54:37 PM): I still love her, and I think I always will....but I'm trying to get rid of that feeling and just be her friend
way2sweet4u278 (6:54:54 PM): well do it then biznotch
Brizzad413 (6:55:02 PM): I've tried
way2sweet4u278 (6:55:06 PM): ok well i g2g
way2sweet4u278 (6:55:09 PM): cya
ohh poor ds.*cries uncontrollably*
I think maybe Abby doesn't care at all....
This is a convo with me and Abby's best friend:
Brizzad413 (6:50:35 PM): hey
way2sweet4u278 (6:50:39 PM): hey
Brizzad413 (6:50:54 PM): let me guess..abby's over?
way2sweet4u278 (6:51:03 PM): no
way2sweet4u278 (6:51:07 PM): she left already
Brizzad413 (6:51:10 PM): oh...
way2sweet4u278 (6:51:14 PM): yeah
Brizzad413 (6:51:52 PM): I was gonna ask to talk to her but nvm
Brizzad413 (6:51:52 PM): lol
Auto response from way2sweet4u278 (6:51:53 PM): ********make a wish********
Brizzad413 (6:52:04 PM): did she tell you?
way2sweet4u278 (6:52:31 PM): yes she told me
Brizzad413 (6:52:37 PM): oh
Brizzad413 (6:52:43 PM): well is she upset?
way2sweet4u278 (6:52:51 PM): haa no
Brizzad413 (6:53:00 PM): so she doesn't care?
way2sweet4u278 (6:53:34 PM): she cares that you keep saying you are going to stop or do something and then you don't
Brizzad413 (6:54:01 PM): Well I mean...I want to get over her....if you know what I mean....but I can't not be friends with her
Brizzad413 (6:54:05 PM): if that makes sense
Brizzad413 (6:54:14 PM): I mean....this is really hard for me
Brizzad413 (6:54:37 PM): I still love her, and I think I always will....but I'm trying to get rid of that feeling and just be her friend
way2sweet4u278 (6:54:54 PM): well do it then biznotch
Brizzad413 (6:55:02 PM): I've tried
way2sweet4u278 (6:55:06 PM): ok well i g2g
way2sweet4u278 (6:55:09 PM): cya
*hugs hugs hugs you*
DarkShadow
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ok enough hugging me....perhaps you should actually try to give me some advice instead of hugging me like a maniac...