woodyloveslinkin
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See, this is why I like you better. My mum is scary..and you've found out the hard way!
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Ravynlee
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6 days last week, 7 this week (nights actually) - Na'aa, piece of cake! 
I should hopefully get a full day off next week, that will be sweet! I plan on sleeping for most of it! XD Other than that, not much, my friend. Work, work, LPF, work, that's about it. You?
This writer's comp is keeping me on my toes. If I don't make it to the next round...? 0_0
Am enjoying the challenge of it anyway. Hadn't written an essay in close to 6 years since my art-school/Uni days so yeah... trippy.
As for your mum Sarah; she's not scary to me just another woman as far as I'm concerned. She probably isn't all that much older than I am anyway concidering that at my age I technically almost could have had a child now your age had I actually had my kid back aaages ago. Almost. Probably a year younger than you are now. I'd been 16 then... 0_0
But as long as she's not giving you grief I guess that's the main thing. Hope all's well with you in that regards. How's the Shakespeare thing? Sweet I say.
I'll do an actual proper entry later when time permits. Right now it's nearly 11am and I'm having a hard time keeping my eyes open as it is let alone prepare for a very early shift at 2:00pm. *yawn - then yawns again*
*tackle hugs to all*
Take care guys and talk to y'all later. Oh and though it isn't a popularity contest or nothin' thanks to those of you who mentioned me in the honour thread. Make me feel... acknowledged if nothing else considering I go through my usual everyday life feeling somewhat invisible. That made me smile - so thanks to those of you who did (you know who you are) Love yas all. Now I gotta go again. Byes.
~Rav
I should hopefully get a full day off next week, that will be sweet! I plan on sleeping for most of it! XD Other than that, not much, my friend. Work, work, LPF, work, that's about it. You?
This writer's comp is keeping me on my toes. If I don't make it to the next round...? 0_0
Am enjoying the challenge of it anyway. Hadn't written an essay in close to 6 years since my art-school/Uni days so yeah... trippy.
As for your mum Sarah; she's not scary to me just another woman as far as I'm concerned. She probably isn't all that much older than I am anyway concidering that at my age I technically almost could have had a child now your age had I actually had my kid back aaages ago. Almost. Probably a year younger than you are now. I'd been 16 then... 0_0
But as long as she's not giving you grief I guess that's the main thing. Hope all's well with you in that regards. How's the Shakespeare thing? Sweet I say.
I'll do an actual proper entry later when time permits. Right now it's nearly 11am and I'm having a hard time keeping my eyes open as it is let alone prepare for a very early shift at 2:00pm. *yawn - then yawns again*
*tackle hugs to all*
Take care guys and talk to y'all later. Oh and though it isn't a popularity contest or nothin' thanks to those of you who mentioned me in the honour thread. Make me feel... acknowledged if nothing else considering I go through my usual everyday life feeling somewhat invisible. That made me smile - so thanks to those of you who did (you know who you are)
Love yas all. Now I gotta go again. Byes.~Rav
woodyloveslinkin
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6 days last week, 7 this week (nights actually) - Na'aa, piece of cake!
This writer's comp is keeping me on my toes. If I don't make it to the next round...? 0_0
Am enjoying the challenge of it anyway. Hadn't written an essay in close to 6 years since my art-school/Uni days so yeah... trippy.
As for your mum Sarah; she's not scary to me just another woman as far as I'm concerned. She probably isn't all that much older than I am anyway concidering that at my age I technically almost could have had a child now your age had I actually had my kid back aaages ago. Almost. Probably a year younger than you are now. I'd been 16 then... 0_0
But as long as she's not giving you grief I guess that's the main thing. Hope all's well with you in that regards. How's the Shakespeare thing? Sweet I say.
Grand so far. i still dont understand one thing. If I was a male I wouldve married you by now...wow the world makes sense again...
See thats why you have an Australian LPF daughter..
crazy robster
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Sis, you work too hard and need some rest! I suggest you take 2 days off and just go to bed! We'll miss you but, you're sleep-deprived and that's unhealthy you know!!! I'm only looking out for my sista's well-being!! Oh, and may I add here, I don't know if you feel invisible in your everyday life, in here you are definitely a celebrity!!! Something like a Hollywood star.... *hugs* jojo
Ravynlee
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Thanks guys *tackle hugs*
Aww - thanks, I feel loved. Hard worker, sure, I guess, but as for being a celebrity here...? Uh... dunno what gave you that impression. I'm just Rav here. Just Rav. It's Ravyn at work and to my neighbours. My alter ego is Rachel - haha. 0_o
I left home at 1:45pm and got home at 11:45 tonight (actually last night as I type this, it's now 12:10am as I type this) so that was a long day. Tomorrow (today) will be exactly the same. Yay for the restaurant business! XD Oh well, it's all good I guess. I'm so tired but it takes me ages to wind down so I'll be online for a while longer. Yeah... was gonna talk more but forgot what I was gonna say... I'll edit this post in a few hours (after I get some sleep I reckon) XD
*tackle hugs*
~Rav
Aww - thanks, I feel loved. Hard worker, sure, I guess, but as for being a celebrity here...? Uh... dunno what gave you that impression. I'm just Rav here. Just Rav. It's Ravyn at work and to my neighbours. My alter ego is Rachel - haha. 0_o
I left home at 1:45pm and got home at 11:45 tonight (actually last night as I type this, it's now 12:10am as I type this) so that was a long day. Tomorrow (today) will be exactly the same. Yay for the restaurant business! XD Oh well, it's all good I guess. I'm so tired but it takes me ages to wind down so I'll be online for a while longer. Yeah... was gonna talk more but forgot what I was gonna say... I'll edit this post in a few hours (after I get some sleep I reckon) XD
*tackle hugs*
~Rav
twilightcrimson7
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Hi Raaav
I miss you
Wow that's a long work day, but I'm glad it's going good for you!
<3 twi
I miss you
Wow that's a long work day, but I'm glad it's going good for you!
<3 twi
Ravynlee
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Dodge, duck, dip, dive... and dodge. Or Rob, as the case may be here. Love that fricken movie - "if you can dodge a wrench, you can dodge a ball!" XD Love it...
Overworked? Naaah. Its all good. Beats being unemployed I reckon.
Hey Sarah - I finally got the card and stuff! I cracked up when I read it! Talk about random. That made my day... I think that made my week! I know we're all about instant messaging and stuff, but I have to say nothing quite beats the old letter-in-the-mailbox every now and then. It reminded me of when I used to be a member of a penpals club years ago... we used to send each other postcards from all over the world... it was ****** awesome! But oh well, this is modern technology for ya... Still, thankyou for such a thoughtful gesture. Words can't express my gratitude - lately you've been brightening my day with that poem now this. All's I can say for now is thanks!
*tackle hugs*
Drew - I'm jealous. And yes it is easy to listen to, hense why I like it! Good taste there!
Well... yeah... better go again.
*tackle hugs to all*
Take care, talk again laters!
~Rav
Love that fricken movie - "if you can dodge a wrench, you can dodge a ball!" XD Love it...Overworked? Naaah. Its all good. Beats being unemployed I reckon.
Hey Sarah - I finally got the card and stuff! I cracked up when I read it! Talk about random. That made my day... I think that made my week! I know we're all about instant messaging and stuff, but I have to say nothing quite beats the old letter-in-the-mailbox every now and then. It reminded me of when I used to be a member of a penpals club years ago... we used to send each other postcards from all over the world... it was ****** awesome! But oh well, this is modern technology for ya... Still, thankyou for such a thoughtful gesture. Words can't express my gratitude - lately you've been brightening my day with that poem now this. All's I can say for now is thanks!
*tackle hugs*
What don't you understand?? Don't get any of that sorry... did you just propose? Haha.
Drew - I'm jealous. And yes it is easy to listen to, hense why I like it! Good taste there!
Well... yeah... better go again.
*tackle hugs to all*
Take care, talk again laters!
~Rav
twilightcrimson7
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someday when I have an apartment in the city i will send you a letter.
lmao.
lmao.
woodyloveslinkin
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Dodge, duck, dip, dive... and dodge. Or Rob, as the case may be here.
Overworked? Naaah. Its all good. Beats being unemployed I reckon.
Hey Sarah - I finally got the card and stuff! I cracked up when I read it! Talk about random. That made my day... I think that made my week! I know we're all about instant messaging and stuff, but I have to say nothing quite beats the old letter-in-the-mailbox every now and then. It reminded me of when I used to be a member of a penpals club years ago... we used to send each other postcards from all over the world... it was ****** awesome! But oh well, this is modern technology for ya... Still, thankyou for such a thoughtful gesture. Words can't express my gratitude - lately you've been brightening my day with that poem now this. All's I can say for now is thanks!
*tackle hugs*
What don't you understand?? Don't get any of that sorry... did you just propose? Haha.
Drew - I'm jealous. And yes it is easy to listen to, hense why I like it! Good taste there!
Well... yeah... better go again.
*tackle hugs to all*
Take care, talk again laters!
~Rav
******* FINALLY !! talk about snail mail. ....
No, that was an assumption. I am not that incestial
crazy robster
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Hi my sista!!!! Just dropped by to give you sth...big endless hugs!!!!!!!
Yay for my sis!!!!
Jojo~
Yay for my sis!!!!
Jojo~
woodyloveslinkin
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Hey Rav, i can't remember what i wrote on the card....pls tell me what i wrote...somethin about your sexiness or something
Ravynlee
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^ Something like that
Well it's been a while since my last confession. Here goes nothing. Forgive me Forum, for I have sinned...
Things have been normal lately. Normalish. I think I got promoted last night at work that was cool. Unexpected but very cool. I have been sick this last week with a head cold (thats the result of cleaning out the cold room and freezers at work, in between working the open grills, in just my cheffing uniform in winter!) and since my doctor was so busy it took me a week before I could get in and see him and when I did it cost me $20 - ****. It aint worth getting sick. So not only did my headcold get worse so too did my finances! *pouts* Oh well I only took one day off work and worked the rest. My boss saw it and still thought I did an excellent job so I guess all this hard work and stuff really does pay off eventually. Mind you I was so sick I couldn't get to the family fun day with the rest of my work colleagues organised through work. Everyone from the restaurant took their kids and partners and even the bosses went and it was to a place called Sunset Superbowl. It's a bowling alley. I haven't been tenpin bolwing since I was 16 - I guess it'll be a bit longer before I go since I had to stay home all cold and miserable. Boo-hoo to me, 'eh? Oh well, **** happens I guess.
So I went to the doctors today. After a year clean I am finally back on my meds. Yay. This will stop me from being an unhappy chappy as I have been as of late (a big heartfelt apology to you guys who have all suffered through my moodswings - so sorry, and I know you're gonna be mad Jojo for saying sorry all the time but the occasional demands it so there, haha).
Yeah. Everyone who bothers to read my rants here knows my story and life long battle with depression. I didn't realise it had gotten so bad again until I got sick and everything got on top of me and I just couldn't shake it. Bad moods come and go, they don't last for days, weeks, months on end. Looking back as always I see all the signs again *slaps forehead* BUT at least I didn't act out anything rediculous as I once used to. Mind you having sat here for five days straight bawling my eyes out is enough to make a person want to - but I didn't. I got up and went to work - 3 hours early. Cried from the moment I woke up, the shower, to work, at work and once I got home again. I'm doing so again as I type this just not bawling at the moment, and the thing is as choked up as I am I don't feel FEEL sad, just... exhausted. I actually considered the possibility I might be going through that dreaded change of life thing (the big M all women eventually fear) but so far not yet. That's no relief really.
Wanna know what triggered the tears?
Breathe Me - Sia
My fav song on the planet at the moment. It was playing at the end of Six Feet Under everything ends series finale on TV the other night and I saw it... and that was it. I don't even know what it was I just literally howled crying and haven't stopped since. That's not normal, I barely even watch the show cause of work and stuff and even if I felt for the characters or whatever to react like this is not normal. I'm sad inside and I can feel it but I dunno why. It's like I'm blocking that out, I can feel it, I know it's there but I won't allow myself to feel it or open it up - I'm numb at the moment. I hate the fact I'm on these pills again cause I know what they do, I know what they are for, and I know in myself that some part of me has failed to be 30 years old and can't cope like a normal person without it. In about 3 months I will be emotionally numb for a different reason - and I hate that robot feeling too. People call me a hardass ***** or cold now but they don't see me when I'm home curled up at the bottom of the shower crying so loud I can't hear anything else... ****... depressing.
My Transcontinental sista Jojo has been my rock. Without her - I don't think I'd have been around here (LPF) much longer. In this state its too easy to withdraw completely but Jojo keeps me sane-ish and focussed. If there's angels in existence she's one of them. I said that last night, both her and Rob of course (being angels), but for two completely different reasons. Haha. I could sure use his sense of humour right about now. Thats why I added the wedgie quote of his into my sig earlier. Makes me smile everytime I read it. It's the little things sometimes isn't it? Oh and the avatar. First ever moving avatar I've ever made. Needs a lot of work but still - I'm chuffed. My Rock *** indeed!
Speaking of, I haven't written much. I stopped going to gym a few months back too. I don't play Sims 2 anymore. *gasp* I even stopped watching Blade trinity as I did every night after work purely for the simple perve factor of buff bods and little clothes - and vampires, haha. I guess its the cold too. You don't wanna do much but sit here in front of the heater and drink endless cups of hot milo, eat peanut butter out of the jar, and sleep. ****, must have been a bear in a past life. Explains my notion of giving the whole 'Big Bourdie Bear hugs' right?
0_0
Moving on...
Um I guess I don't really have much else to say. Just wallowing at the moment but not really. I don't really talk to anyone else much outside these days anymore unless I have to and unless I'm at work. Maybe getting more shifts there so - yay for my pay packet. Should get a good tax return this year so that's a very bright light at the end of this tunnel... hmm... anyway... Might go back to watching The Naked Gun series starring Leslie Nielsen. Bought the boxed set today for sheer nostalgic purposes. Yay. It's good to laugh on cold windy days like today.
Well, thanks for allowing my rant. Not terribly exciting but I'm not feeling up to making more exciting stories up. Speaking of which I have'nt forgotten that (All About the Music I mean) I'm just... getting myself together then I'll get back to it. Theoretically now's probably the right frame of mind to write soppy melodrama like mine - but... only if you want the lead protagonist to kill herself at the end.
0_0
No, that was a joke actually, just a terribly ill-timed one. Humour is not my forte. Hense I shall back out now before this post gets any longer and send everyone else into a depressive state.
*hugs*
Take care, talk later.
~Rav
Well it's been a while since my last confession. Here goes nothing. Forgive me Forum, for I have sinned...
Things have been normal lately. Normalish. I think I got promoted last night at work that was cool. Unexpected but very cool. I have been sick this last week with a head cold (thats the result of cleaning out the cold room and freezers at work, in between working the open grills, in just my cheffing uniform in winter!) and since my doctor was so busy it took me a week before I could get in and see him and when I did it cost me $20 - ****. It aint worth getting sick. So not only did my headcold get worse so too did my finances! *pouts* Oh well I only took one day off work and worked the rest. My boss saw it and still thought I did an excellent job so I guess all this hard work and stuff really does pay off eventually. Mind you I was so sick I couldn't get to the family fun day with the rest of my work colleagues organised through work. Everyone from the restaurant took their kids and partners and even the bosses went and it was to a place called Sunset Superbowl. It's a bowling alley. I haven't been tenpin bolwing since I was 16 - I guess it'll be a bit longer before I go since I had to stay home all cold and miserable. Boo-hoo to me, 'eh? Oh well, **** happens I guess.
So I went to the doctors today. After a year clean I am finally back on my meds. Yay. This will stop me from being an unhappy chappy as I have been as of late (a big heartfelt apology to you guys who have all suffered through my moodswings - so sorry, and I know you're gonna be mad Jojo for saying sorry all the time but the occasional demands it
so there, haha).Yeah. Everyone who bothers to read my rants here knows my story and life long battle with depression. I didn't realise it had gotten so bad again until I got sick and everything got on top of me and I just couldn't shake it. Bad moods come and go, they don't last for days, weeks, months on end. Looking back as always I see all the signs again *slaps forehead* BUT at least I didn't act out anything rediculous as I once used to. Mind you having sat here for five days straight bawling my eyes out is enough to make a person want to - but I didn't. I got up and went to work - 3 hours early. Cried from the moment I woke up, the shower, to work, at work and once I got home again. I'm doing so again as I type this just not bawling at the moment, and the thing is as choked up as I am I don't feel FEEL sad, just... exhausted. I actually considered the possibility I might be going through that dreaded change of life thing (the big M all women eventually fear) but so far not yet. That's no relief really.
Wanna know what triggered the tears?
Breathe Me - Sia
My fav song on the planet at the moment. It was playing at the end of Six Feet Under everything ends series finale on TV the other night and I saw it... and that was it. I don't even know what it was I just literally howled crying and haven't stopped since. That's not normal, I barely even watch the show cause of work and stuff and even if I felt for the characters or whatever to react like this is not normal. I'm sad inside and I can feel it but I dunno why. It's like I'm blocking that out, I can feel it, I know it's there but I won't allow myself to feel it or open it up - I'm numb at the moment. I hate the fact I'm on these pills again cause I know what they do, I know what they are for, and I know in myself that some part of me has failed to be 30 years old and can't cope like a normal person without it. In about 3 months I will be emotionally numb for a different reason - and I hate that robot feeling too. People call me a hardass ***** or cold now but they don't see me when I'm home curled up at the bottom of the shower crying so loud I can't hear anything else... ****... depressing.
My Transcontinental sista Jojo has been my rock. Without her - I don't think I'd have been around here (LPF) much longer. In this state its too easy to withdraw completely but Jojo keeps me sane-ish and focussed. If there's angels in existence she's one of them. I said that last night, both her and Rob of course (being angels), but for two completely different reasons. Haha. I could sure use his sense of humour right about now. Thats why I added the wedgie quote of his into my sig earlier. Makes me smile everytime I read it. It's the little things sometimes isn't it? Oh and the avatar. First ever moving avatar I've ever made. Needs a lot of work but still - I'm chuffed. My Rock *** indeed!
Speaking of, I haven't written much. I stopped going to gym a few months back too. I don't play Sims 2 anymore. *gasp* I even stopped watching Blade trinity as I did every night after work purely for the simple perve factor of buff bods and little clothes - and vampires, haha. I guess its the cold too. You don't wanna do much but sit here in front of the heater and drink endless cups of hot milo, eat peanut butter out of the jar, and sleep. ****, must have been a bear in a past life. Explains my notion of giving the whole 'Big Bourdie Bear hugs' right?
0_0
Moving on...
Um I guess I don't really have much else to say. Just wallowing at the moment but not really. I don't really talk to anyone else much outside these days anymore unless I have to and unless I'm at work. Maybe getting more shifts there so - yay for my pay packet. Should get a good tax return this year so that's a very bright light at the end of this tunnel... hmm... anyway... Might go back to watching The Naked Gun series starring Leslie Nielsen. Bought the boxed set today for sheer nostalgic purposes. Yay. It's good to laugh on cold windy days like today.
Well, thanks for allowing my rant. Not terribly exciting but I'm not feeling up to making more exciting stories up. Speaking of which I have'nt forgotten that (All About the Music I mean) I'm just... getting myself together then I'll get back to it. Theoretically now's probably the right frame of mind to write soppy melodrama like mine - but... only if you want the lead protagonist to kill herself at the end.
0_0
No, that was a joke actually, just a terribly ill-timed one. Humour is not my forte. Hense I shall back out now before this post gets any longer and send everyone else into a depressive state.
*hugs*
Take care, talk later.
~Rav
crazy robster
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My sister...My beloved angel...There's nothing more painful to me than reading this. I'm not an angel...cause if I were I would have flown over there next to you. I would be there with you every time you curl in the shower and cry. I'm all teary again as I write this. I don't want you to suffer you don't deserve this. I love you my sister and every time you cry I cry too...Your pain is mine too. I wish I could say something that would magically cheer you up but I can't...All I can say is that I'm here for you, day and night, whatever you may need. Just know I'm here...and I love you my sister. Take care, and if you don't wanna do it for yourself, do it for your sister Jojo...
*huge transcontinental Bourdie Bear hugs*
Your sister
*huge transcontinental Bourdie Bear hugs*
Your sister
Friðbjörn
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Well that was a sad read, I must admit. But that's life, and unfortunately for me, I know all too well what you're going through. I haven't actually been on meds, and I never cry anymore, but I've had my fair share of ups and downs, and occasionally try to drown myself in work to get away. So I kinda know, guess you could say that.
If it helps, I must say in all honesty that you have a creative and productive mind, I mean not everyone comes up with all those stories like you do, for example.
And as for that joke, haha, it made me laugh, well, when I read it again. I didn't dare laugh having only read that and not the explanation that followed hehe...
As I like to say, life is like water.
If it helps, I must say in all honesty that you have a creative and productive mind, I mean not everyone comes up with all those stories like you do, for example.
And as for that joke, haha, it made me laugh, well, when I read it again. I didn't dare laugh having only read that and not the explanation that followed hehe...
As I like to say, life is like water.