today I don't feel very well. :'( I feel dizzy and my mind is going to exploit... This morning while I went to the library I saw how a (f*******) car killed a dog. I was only to 3 metres from where car passed fast and killed the dog. it was terrible. the poor animal started to cry while he started to wet himself. I guess the **** car burst him the organs or something like this. I didn't want to know it. I was shocked. I only remember that I saw myself instead of the dog. I remembered how that car was near to kill me a month ago. (well, about this accident I didn't tell you anyhting. I was on holiday and well, when I came back, it was a thing of the past. Something I didn't want to remember it) but, today, when I saw that, I started to run, while the doy cried. Honestly, His crying was breaking me in pieces. Suddenly, when I had walked for ten minutes I saw a veterinary clinic. I didn't care they thought I was mad but I came into the shop and I explained everything to one of the men who was working there. He called someone inmediately and he told me that I wouldn't be worried 'cos everything would be fine... after this, I didn't know anything more. I wasn't able to study this morning and I tried it but it was impossible for me. the dog's crying was still inside me and it continues now... now my panic with cars is bigger, like a nightmare that follows you forever. I can't run with freedom. This fear is always with me...