I am a f*ck up
well valentines day went off ok.... mostly....
saw rowan, gave her the card and things, she was happy and everything.... it was a good day, we were happy.
then i got home.... well almost home, i met this girl on the bench at the bottom of my road, this girl i know and have done for almost 2 years now.... and, well.... i love her... i lost my virginity to her, and.... to cut a long story short, she screwed me, screwed me over and screwed me up. and she has me twisted round her little finger... we talked for a bit, then we kissed. and now i feel like a f*ck up....
today i told rowan, the guilt was getting to me... and she took it alright.... i think, but i can't get it out of my mind.
this girl, she has done this to me several times, turned up (she lives miles away), and messed with my head, my feelings.... ARGH!!!
SHOOT ME NOW!