Well, a real update for a change. Hmm.
Went back to gym yesterday - am sore today but all in all feel better for it. Went to work after that and was actually happy to be there. On Friday nights the place can and does get a little chaotic, but I was glad because Nate, the head chef, was back from holidays. Was glad to see him again. As high-strung as he gets he's a crackup to have around. He's just like an overgrown kid, a class clown without the class, he just spends his shift singing all these random songs - last night it was Cindy Lauper's Girls Just Wanna Have Fun and Backstreet's Back - it's not his type of music but he sings it for a laugh. The funny thing is he's like 6'3"/6'4" and 3'0" across (a big boy) and he looks rather vicious at times (kinda like Dave Draimen? from the band Disturbed) but imagine someone singing like that in a real squeaky voice... it's hilarious.
But I'm sad now. Found out last night he's leaving us in about a month. Putting in notice today, moving to Brisbane to start another job. To be honest I'll miss him, even if he's self-destructive and sometimes a 13yr old trapped in a 24yr old man's body, but he's just fun to be around. *sigh*
Not only that but I also found out that the other two chefs Lisa and Aaron look to ge going in the next month or so too... man, I'm bummed. There's 5 of us in the kitchen and three are going - I've known these guys 6 months but it feels longer. That's almost everyday I've seen them and had fun but now they're all going. Not sure how I'm supposed to feel about that.
Must be the time for it though.
Another friend, Wak, I've known her for years though outside of work, told me two days ago that at the end of the year she and her brood are moving too - to Tasmania! JammerG (as much as we argue and so forth) moved just before new year to shack up with her quasi-boyfriend and my closest friend lives 40mins away in Oakey. I'm starting to feel real isolated again... I have issues with abandonment, anyone ever notice? *smirk (**** you dad!) shakes fist in the air* But aside from all that... I'm questioning life again.
Not that I wanna die, cause I don't, I've moved away from those trains of thought thesedays, but still... I've been reflecting a lot.
I was looking at doing a creative writing course to keep me occupied - but the catch is it's in Brisbane, and not only can I not afford the move, I'm not keen on moving to another town to restart all over again. Man, weird. I'm not depressed... this is a new feeling for me. Normally I'd be like 'screw this, I'm outta here' and try to obliterate myself with a crutch (be it drugs, alcohol, or a razor blade) but now I'm not into that **** anymore. I'm not sure what I'm into, being this is relatively new territory, but still... feel strangely 'vacant.' That's nothing new is it? Hmm. But aside from that, I guess I'm coming to understand that everything is a constant cycle of changes and this is just another one to get used to. Wow, very... understanding. Logical thought = scary! XD But there is one constant variable to life for me - I started playing Sims 2 again the other day. Helps me relax I guess. But it stifles the creative writing process. I've written like 2 pages of the next part of my LPF fanfic and...? Hmm.
Anyway.
Things are quiet here on LPF. That also worries me. I miss not being on here when I'm at work or stuff and when I get here I'm like *meh* sometimes. Miss my virtual friends. *group hug moment?*
Anyway... have nothing else to really say. Just needed to vent I think. Well, thanks.
<3 y'all
-Rav
